khrystina-lee-meers - Hello Poetry

The nurses check my pulse as I lie on the cot they run me down the hall on I can’t feel anything…my neck, my arms, my legs…what happened to me? I remember feeling so depressed it was crippling I remember having a couple glasses of wine whilst chatting with come online friends I remember reviewing some other author’s short stories instead of writing my own I remember the grotesque ***** ,butterfly, ***** feeling in my stomach I remember wanting to cry for no reason… These feelings haven’t been within my body for at least the past 6 months Not since crazy Arizona guy broke up with me when I called him out on his abusive ways No, this was similar, but different. Lately I’ve been stressed about financial issues But what else is new? I’m reviewing other dark works and getting paid very little What else is new? People are stealing my blogs for their own because they have no imagination What else is new? Eat **** I’m moving to Korea My big bang for 2016 Welcome to book #4….

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Feb 9, 2016

Feb 9, 2016 at 1:40 AM UTC

Book #4

The nurses check my pulse as I lie on the cot they run me down the hall on I can’t feel anything…my neck, my arms, my legs…what happened to me? I remember feeling so depressed it was crippling I remember having a couple glasses of wine whilst chatting with come online friends I remember reviewing some other author’s short stories instead of writing my own I remember the grotesque ***** ,butterfly, ***** feeling in my stomach I remember wanting to cry for no reason… These feelings haven’t been within my body for at least the past 6 months Not since crazy Arizona guy broke up with me when I called him out on his abusive ways No, this was similar, but different. Lately I’ve been stressed about financial issues But what else is new? I’m reviewing other dark works and getting paid very little What else is new? People are stealing my blogs for their own because they have no imagination What else is new? Eat **** I’m moving to Korea My big bang for 2016 Welcome to book #4….

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February 14th, a day most singles despise themselves Everyone hopes to have that one special person with them like any other holiday: Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years: we don't want to be alone I have had one Valentine my entire life thus far and he wasn't even a good one This year: 2014, I am my own Valentine! I cooked myself a healthy meal to show my body I love it I spoiled myself with an expensive bottle of red wine And bought myself a bouquet of flowers to love myself A small light meal of candied yams, kale and fruit salad and a couple glasses of Spanish Red Wine Allowed me to relax in my own womanly self We are all created from love, therefore we are love If we hate a day of love then we hate ourselves Everyday is a day of love and hope If we despise ourselves everyday, then we deny ourselves love and hope We are love and therefore give, receive and take love When we deny loving ourselves daily; we deny love completely Don't let the title of this poem fool you, for this poem is truly about love Happy ******* Valentine's Day! I love you!

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Feb 15, 2014

Feb 15, 2014 at 2:36 AM UTC

Happy ******* Valentine's Day!

February 14th, a day most singles despise themselves Everyone hopes to have that one special person with them like any other holiday: Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years: we don't want to be alone I have had one Valentine my entire life thus far and he wasn't even a good one This year: 2014, I am my own Valentine! I cooked myself a healthy meal to show my body I love it I spoiled myself with an expensive bottle of red wine And bought myself a bouquet of flowers to love myself A small light meal of candied yams, kale and fruit salad and a couple glasses of Spanish Red Wine Allowed me to relax in my own womanly self We are all created from love, therefore we are love If we hate a day of love then we hate ourselves Everyday is a day of love and hope If we despise ourselves everyday, then we deny ourselves love and hope We are love and therefore give, receive and take love When we deny loving ourselves daily; we deny love completely Don't let the title of this poem fool you, for this poem is truly about love Happy ******* Valentine's Day! I love you!

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Since we’ve been reunited I feel as if I walk taller than I ever have before My soul is so happy that it dances It’s been so long since I’ve felt this happy I’m walking on air, because an old friend has returned

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Apr 13, 2012

Apr 13, 2012 at 6:16 PM UTC

Reunited (Walking on Air)

Since we’ve been reunited I feel as if I walk taller than I ever have before My soul is so happy that it dances It’s been so long since I’ve felt this happy I’m walking on air, because an old friend has returned

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You may have won the battle, but you lost the war! I believe in relationship karma, And you finally got what was coming to you After fighting you for two years, I have finally gotten what I deserve: Peace and Justice! I can now lay down my sword and rest The fighting has come to an end I won! And now I can walk with a smile The burden has been lifted

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Apr 5, 2012

Apr 5, 2012 at 8:57 PM UTC

Peace and Justice [I Finally Won]

You may have won the battle, but you lost the war! I believe in relationship karma, And you finally got what was coming to you After fighting you for two years, I have finally gotten what I deserve: Peace and Justice! I can now lay down my sword and rest The fighting has come to an end I won! And now I can walk with a smile The burden has been lifted

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All I have left is my faith Everything else has been taken from me Music and God is all I have left Nothing else matters When Walli walked into my life I knew things were different I knew I was supposed to leave this depressing city I knew my dreams were still breathing Alive somewhere under all my tears I knew I had to keep pushing and not look back It was time to turn and face the music Become who I was called to be I am working harder than ever for that now God you are my every thing My all in all The only piece of faith I have left

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Apr 5, 2012

Apr 5, 2012 at 8:54 PM UTC

The Only Thing Worth Living For

All I have left is my faith Everything else has been taken from me Music and God is all I have left Nothing else matters When Walli walked into my life I knew things were different I knew I was supposed to leave this depressing city I knew my dreams were still breathing Alive somewhere under all my tears I knew I had to keep pushing and not look back It was time to turn and face the music Become who I was called to be I am working harder than ever for that now God you are my every thing My all in all The only piece of faith I have left

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Gypsy girl or Zombie? I choose to live again and be free I will no longer be the living dead Walking around with no heart beat I choose to be courageous All I know is I can’t turn back God won’t allow me to abort my plan this time There is no letting go this time It’s time to follow my destiny I have to go through with it this time God will always find me No matter what path I take My destiny will always find me Standing on the edge and ready to fall God will always save me This time I will go This time I will listen I’m done falling to pieces for now Now I can see what is in front of me No more short-cuts No more excuses My fate is sealed

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Apr 5, 2012

Apr 5, 2012 at 8:52 PM UTC

Gypsies! Zombies! God is my Destiny!

Gypsy girl or Zombie? I choose to live again and be free I will no longer be the living dead Walking around with no heart beat I choose to be courageous All I know is I can’t turn back God won’t allow me to abort my plan this time There is no letting go this time It’s time to follow my destiny I have to go through with it this time God will always find me No matter what path I take My destiny will always find me Standing on the edge and ready to fall God will always save me This time I will go This time I will listen I’m done falling to pieces for now Now I can see what is in front of me No more short-cuts No more excuses My fate is sealed

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When you need me, I won’t be there When you open your eyes to the real world I won’t be there When she leaves you crying and broken I won’t be there When you finally remember who you are I won’t be there In six months, I won’t be here I will leave a note on my door reading, Gone to the ocean without you

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Apr 5, 2012

Apr 5, 2012 at 8:44 PM UTC

Gone to the Ocean Without You

When you need me, I won’t be there When you open your eyes to the real world I won’t be there When she leaves you crying and broken I won’t be there When you finally remember who you are I won’t be there In six months, I won’t be here I will leave a note on my door reading, Gone to the ocean without you

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I’m the type to say I told you so I’m not the one who changed, you did I still walk the narrow road and stay true to myself You changed for the worst You’re someone I don’t recognize You no longer live with a shimmering spirit One day you are going to wake up and realize You’re not allowed to be mad at me anymore

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Apr 5, 2012

Apr 5, 2012 at 8:42 PM UTC

You Changed

I’m the type to say I told you so I’m not the one who changed, you did I still walk the narrow road and stay true to myself You changed for the worst You’re someone I don’t recognize You no longer live with a shimmering spirit One day you are going to wake up and realize You’re not allowed to be mad at me anymore

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Have you removed your ***** from her pocket yet, And placed them back on your body so you can be a person again? You need to be your own person now Not just at work but in the real world too You deserve better! As your friend I am not asking I am telling you Leave her and save what dignity you have left Learn to respect yourself again and finish what you’ve started Unfinished dreams and projects Respect yourself! I am not asking you to leave her because I like you I am telling you to leave her because it is in your best interest I am telling you to leave her because you need a positive environment And if I was with her I would be drunk and ****** all the time too I know what you’re going through Leaving someone you love more than they love you It’s hard I’ve been emotionally, mentally and verbally abused too It’s hard I’ve been where you are and I know it’s hard Leave now while you’re still alive!

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Apr 5, 2012

Apr 5, 2012 at 8:40 PM UTC

Benji

Have you removed your ***** from her pocket yet, And placed them back on your body so you can be a person again? You need to be your own person now Not just at work but in the real world too You deserve better! As your friend I am not asking I am telling you Leave her and save what dignity you have left Learn to respect yourself again and finish what you’ve started Unfinished dreams and projects Respect yourself! I am not asking you to leave her because I like you I am telling you to leave her because it is in your best interest I am telling you to leave her because you need a positive environment And if I was with her I would be drunk and ****** all the time too I know what you’re going through Leaving someone you love more than they love you It’s hard I’ve been emotionally, mentally and verbally abused too It’s hard I’ve been where you are and I know it’s hard Leave now while you’re still alive!

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I’m still waiting for comfort with butterflies I’ve had comfort, complete comfort with someone And comfort with stomach flips Comfort with stomach flips usually means something is wrong The comfort with butterflies lasts for a short time And the butterflies turn to stomach flips I want the butterflies to stay I want the comfort to stay I want comfort with butterflies

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Apr 5, 2012

Apr 5, 2012 at 8:38 PM UTC

Comfort With Butterflies

I’m still waiting for comfort with butterflies I’ve had comfort, complete comfort with someone And comfort with stomach flips Comfort with stomach flips usually means something is wrong The comfort with butterflies lasts for a short time And the butterflies turn to stomach flips I want the butterflies to stay I want the comfort to stay I want comfort with butterflies

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