I am graying my hair
Thinking I'd hear a call, an email
It's not something remotely guaranteed.
I've got to deal with it myself
Wasting my time
Turning into the grape sour
Graying my hair
Angry
like the nice Fenugreek tea
boiling and spilling over
I know I don't have to hear it
I don't want hear it
I am aware that I am torturing myself
With this recurrent thought
He isn't even worth the time
Precious time I wasted
How do I stop thinking
Keep referring back
To find a lead
Telling stories to my heart about your favorite mug
The broken mug
So detach.. let go and be.
May 10, 2024
May 10, 2024 at 8:22 AM UTC
Ever been told your dream's too big, beyond your class?
When such doubts arise, how do you react?
These fears and self-doubts, have you explored their roots?
It's often the environment, or loved ones, imposing limits in a form of guidance, out of love but stemming from fear in guise of their own experiences.
But have you questioned the boundaries set for you?
Now's the time to aim for your highest dreams, to commit fully and live beautifully – because you can!
Surround yourself with people who align with your values, those who radiate beauty when sharing their deepest desires.
Cultivate love, faith, and determination – and most importantly, believe in ‘You’.
I've experienced carrying the world's burdens, battling fatigue, and struggling with the fear of failure.
In my quest to unlock life's mysteries, I've learned that its beauty often lies in its uncertainty.
We try to make sense of everything, but why not embrace freedom instead?
I reassure myself, ready to face doubts and let them go.
I'm grateful for all my experiences, shaping who I am in mind, body, and heart.
Trusting in the connections I make, I pursue a dream so vast, it fuels my daily motivation and inspires my creativity.
Remember, the journey inward is the key.
Jan 3, 2024
Jan 3, 2024 at 4:58 AM UTC
‘Why, what is happening to you?’
Seem all fine girl, bubbling with joy, sparkling, filling the room with giggles
Nothing seems to be possibly wrong with you
Go out there and get busy’
Yes, nothing is wrong with me
There’s nothing I can put my finger on and show
When the whirlwind of emotions run through me
Like a hurricane
Thoughts and feelings knows no end
When it rains
It’s like I don’t want be in my room, my house
When there’s a power cut
And I am frantically looking for the light
Then it feels like the walls are closing in on me
The tightness I try escaping from
Inhaling and exhaling
The air, getting thinner
The only difference is my house is my body
My room is my mind
I haven’t been well rested
Well slept
My eyes are all droopy
Body tired
Sleep, trying to take me in
Then a huge flash zaps me out of it
Debilitating pain in my head
The heart races
A black haze sets in the mind
Past, present, future, meaning, purpose and life seem desolate
How do I explain my state of mind?
How do I explain what’s weighing down on me?
When I don’t understand it myself.
Aug 13, 2023
Aug 13, 2023 at 7:20 AM UTC
Singe me song, serenade me
Don't bring me flowers though, I don't like plucked flowers
Let it be, just let it bloom
Inspire me, be my muse
Looking for a muse, aren’t we all?
I've been without it for some time now
Oh, when I say time, I say three decades
That many years to meet my muse
It's been a long time coming
Now let me savour you
butter scotch smooth
Allured, ofcourse I am
Drawn to you, yes
Sidelining priorities, yes
The sweet distraction, you are, to deafen the noise around
The onslaught of the 'Rush', the Inflation, the confusion, the instability
Expectations and constant ask of 'When do you leave
to breathe in the air of the outside and seek greener pasture?’
Looking to the far of island to find their lost goals, aren’t we all?
I think I've made a decision too, with the little yes that I said
With no substance in my heart to support my resolution
Distraction, yes you are, to medicate the overwhelming,
And an appetite to procrastinating mind and an aimlessness soul
I keep the trading sleep with exhaustion
And the drunken haze
The musings though, however strong in the moment
Runs out leaving you with the bare minimum to fuel through
Frozen
Leaving me unable to move an inch
Stumbling and crumbling
With not much to hold
Its only me to lift myself up
All the time and effort given to all kinds,
Why now show some kindness to myself
It’s been a long time coming to be my own muse
This is to me, the muse I was always looking for.
Jul 28, 2023
Jul 28, 2023 at 6:12 AM UTC
I lay on my bed drifting
In poetic play of everyday life
Poetry everywhere;
In a friendly crease that I want to keep on my sheet
The window pane that showcases the crimson setting sun
The familiar chill in the air
Neighborly chatter
Tinkering of the cans
A careful and delicate feline walk
The slurp of the mojito
The clinking of the ice cubes
The brush strokes on a portrait
The loops of smoke blown through
The very edge of a cigarette bud
Glinting in the firelight
Virtue, to see beauty in the mundane
Fascinating how
How we all see everything
And yet we see it differently
Jan 5, 2023
Jan 5, 2023 at 6:46 AM UTC
When you feel a profound sense of loss
Feel the insides of you implode
crumble and fall
Pause,
Hold
And catch yourself in the moment
Take a long hard look back
live through clarity you sought
Go through the haze of the daily
Drift float and begin a new
Intimidating prospect it may seem yet rewarding it will be
Just passing through chanting this hymn
Jul 25, 2022
Jul 25, 2022 at 3:39 AM UTC
The world beneath you slides
Nail dig through the dirt
Grasping onto what’s left
Holding onto the sliding, seeping sand
You’re left there yelling what about me ‘what about me’
Begging for empathy
Feel yourself leaving
Getting lost in the whirlwind
Scrambling, not knowing what ensued
The end of February
Marching into luke warm days
It gets comfortable than what cold last winter brought
You can stand bare
To the outside
Recognizing this very feeling
Of stealth chilly breeze
Flowing through your chest
And just like that lives change
Leaving yourself grieving the death of a relationship
In a room with four walls
You had been too trusting
But you can’t let my heart be as small as thier’s
Life is short to not look it in the eye
May 13, 2022
May 13, 2022 at 3:03 AM UTC
It saddens me to think
You couldn’t look at a me for who I was
Who I could have been
and not what you make of it
And not through your careless construct
and as consolation
for you to bank on when all else fail
It saddens me to think that
My emotions were never safe with you
That there was never a strive
It was disposable rather
Not just my flesh but my whole being
It saddens me to think that
Your emotions never found home in me
For I thought I found solace
A comfort
Are we so sad to face such fate
So unfortunate to lose it in a day
So flimsy
Was whatever was there
Couldn’t we communicate
Couldn’t you give me a day of respite
From thinking what sham this was
Can’t live a life so empty
So scared
Walking on precarious lies
I wasn’t built for this
I didn’t deserve this
To barely cling on
To loose thread of distrust
Low aspirations
It isn’t worth a life
May 13, 2022
May 13, 2022 at 3:02 AM UTC
Taba multipurpose trail, Thimphu.
Was seen hiking on that stretch
Just before recent lockdown was announced
Just in the nick of time
A short trial they found
Firm new boots striding proud
Stepping, crackling the pine leaves dry
Passing through the trunks and trees
Brown, pale, green, mud, **** shrub…
She was seen filling her lungs with a lil air and smoke
Sitting on a bench
A tea break to breathe in affirmation
Filling the heart with a little hope,
Heard she’s healing
Learning, growing
Like twigs, branches and leaves
Apr 27, 2022
Apr 27, 2022 at 8:55 AM UTC
Of getting lost and finding ways
Hitting dead-ends
But treading along
With new found resilience
Strength of character
Delving into the depths
Of one’s core
Embracing the fall and the cracks
Soul searching
Gliding
Through each passing day
Apr 27, 2022
Apr 27, 2022 at 8:54 AM UTC