You can run but you cant hide.
Because crazy is hard to hide.
Somethings broken at the core.
And it sends it messages thru a door.
They bubble to the surface
Right at the tip of tounge.
You try to hide your face.
But somethings cant be undone.
So you live with the anxiety.
Mixed it with shame and audacity.
And pretend your **** dont smell.
When everyone can tell.
Forgiveness and forget.
Life is peppered with regret.
Thats just to say im not perfect.
And im not sane.
But i try my best not to spill.
And make a mess.
And if i do.
I apologise and continue.
Mar 17, 2025
Mar 17, 2025 at 12:04 PM UTC
where once anxiety bites
now numbness devours.
watching people take their fill
while i eat out of an empty bowl.
the price of sanity it seems
is the whole soul.
Jul 8, 2022
Jul 8, 2022 at 2:33 PM UTC
Please dont break this perfect illusion
And tell me you love me.
A illusion that feels
Closest thing to real.
Exactly what I need to heal
Sensations of metallic tasting wounds.
Surrounding me.
I need your love.
Wanting is not even an option for me.
Stay with me.
Until I want to leave.
Feb 3, 2022
Feb 3, 2022 at 11:42 AM UTC
Did I ask to be alive.
And how do I end it.
I'm just a voice.
Without a body.
Or face to carry it.
Just thoughts seeping out
The same things that keeps possessing me.
Maybe I will just lay.
And drip my whole life away.
Jan 27, 2022
Jan 27, 2022 at 10:52 AM UTC
I'm out of rhythm
I'm tired of dancing.
Its hard to breathe.
And I got a marathon to run.
Every morning.
My legs are tired.
And I'm aching.
I wish I could let go of the heavy burden.
The load I'm carrying.
But somehow
The boulder talks back to me.
He says I need him to keep my gravity.
Because without him I will fly
So fast to the moon.
I will die from it.
Dec 29, 2021
Dec 29, 2021 at 1:41 PM UTC
Don't look at the sun
It will burn your eyes
And melt your wings.
But im used to this things.
Melt me candle wings.
And let me fall on my knees.
I will keep flying towards the sun.
Until he burns me completely.
Dec 24, 2021
Dec 24, 2021 at 2:51 AM UTC
Sings to me.
Reads to me.
Plays with me.
Sets me free.
Cares for me.
So let me be.
In my fantasy.
Dec 23, 2021
Dec 23, 2021 at 6:56 AM UTC
Reverse gear.
It's noisy up in here.
Further to go.
But to where?
How much longer does it take
To lose my mind eventually.
Dec 20, 2021
Dec 20, 2021 at 3:56 PM UTC
To quick to make a jump
Every breath feels like the last.
Screaming its way to my chest.
Beating against my heart.
A damsel in distress
Dec 16, 2021
Dec 16, 2021 at 8:17 AM UTC