Would you hold it against me
If i said there's nothing found
That i'll lay here and watch my dreams
Embers, falling to the ground
Would you hold it against me
If i had no strength to fight
And as tomorrow brings the war
Still, no tears escape my eyes
Would you fault it for its being
A doughnut on the shelf
Would you shun it's hollowness inside
It still tries to make its sweetness felt
For there are some that rake for dreams
With disparity in the dead of night
And others whose voracity
The world feared and extinguished light
- c.t.
Jan 4, 2016
Jan 4, 2016 at 6:41 AM UTC
The soul that yearns perfection
Amidst numbness and the pain
A broken vessel reaching
For love and light again
These bones are breaking fast
And I am bursting at the seams
These voices will not leave me be
And my hollow heart still screams
Emptiness transcends the physical
Maybe that's why my plate's full at times
For what no food or drink can satisfy
Maybe my hunger's a different kind
- c.t.
Dec 17, 2015
Dec 17, 2015 at 4:33 AM UTC
Wrap me up
In your arms
In your love
In your life
•
Wrap me up
From the pain
From the fear
From the lies
•
Wrap me up
Hold me close
Keep me safe
Wrap me up.
Nov 27, 2015
Nov 27, 2015 at 9:23 AM UTC
She was
A dreamer, with wings on her back
A singer, voice like honey in your ear
An actress, all the world was her stage
So many futures, and all of them hers,
but
She was.
- c.t.
Nov 17, 2015
Nov 17, 2015 at 11:33 AM UTC
you know what matters
is not the skin, but the heart
you know you've fallen in deep
and now you're falling apart
you've ever only seen skin-deep
but skin is all you have.
grasping at perfection
but the more you run it runs deeper
as you fear your reflection
and as this skin wraps these bones
and your heart struggles a beat
as you never find your happiness
emptiness swallows heaps
it's the weight that weighs you down again
and you've started to measure up
counting ways to perfection
but you're drowning in a cup
and it will take you nowhere
but these voices never leave
and you follow, engulfed
but you've ever only seen skin-deep
- c.t.
Nov 10, 2015
Nov 10, 2015 at 11:01 AM UTC
please take me
and just hold me
don't ask why
don't tell me
i'm hungry
for a perfection
this world demands
i'm broken
but as these bones
collapse
and as i remain
empty
running
from reflections
only i cannot accept
flawed in my eyes
just hold me
shaking soon
just tell me
i'm
beautiful
- c.t.
Nov 10, 2015
Nov 10, 2015 at 10:41 AM UTC
your words cut
deeper than i will ever let you see
but i know you don't mean
to hurt me or lose me.
and as my voice i stifle
afraid of burdens unborn
your voice, a chime unearthing
demons i thought long gone.
and once more
i cannot tell you
i cannot trust me
i cannot admit
the pain, the hurt, the fear
so for now, i guess
i'll just be
here.
just here.
Nov 5, 2015
Nov 5, 2015 at 12:13 PM UTC
through the woods
and shadowed trees
you run.
through the fear
and through the night
you run.
but darling,
denial is a funny thing.
you say you want to heal
but every cure
begins with the will
to know
to see
to feel.
- c.t.
Nov 5, 2015
Nov 5, 2015 at 11:58 AM UTC
But darling you know it lies -
Scales and markings around;
Maybe one day it won't matter
As much as it does right now.
So chin up, heart on your sleeve;
For now, just
let go,
let God,
let live.
- c.t.
Oct 19, 2015
Oct 19, 2015 at 8:04 AM UTC