Silence doesn't have to be awkward
The mutual happiness of each others presence
Not bored not excited but content
But sometimes silence is intense
Raging riots inside the rambling mind
But conversation is not everything sometimes
It's just your presence and alittle time
Because silence can be alone
Clocks counting down your abyss
Harassing your mind with every constant click
Judging down more then you would like to admit
Overthinking under commit
Sometimes silence is all you can get
Sep 10, 2015
Sep 10, 2015 at 3:31 PM UTC
Iv never wanted to punch a wall so much
Another knife wound lead by misguided trust
"We will be here for you"
Iv heard that a million times
So ether people are deaf
Or just like to ignore my cries for help
But if I died tonight it would be a bunch of people claiming how they knew me so much
But If you did you would have known your presence would have been just enough
Aug 25, 2015
Aug 25, 2015 at 1:28 PM UTC
I want to speak mind but the screaming in my head always lead me to another dark pit
Another struggle
Me resisting that you resent me
Fighting a memory of something we used to be
So when you ask if I'm okay
Okay is the best I could be
Jul 20, 2015
Jul 20, 2015 at 9:53 PM UTC
this will be the countdown to my coma
Fishing inside these bottles for something real
Reaching out to touch something but there is nothing to feel
Mixing alcohol shrooms and pain pills signing a bad deal
But I guess done running on this treadmill
Going no where
So when you see me or if you see me
....I'm sorry
Jul 18, 2015
Jul 18, 2015 at 3:31 PM UTC
Everyday I wake up on my cloud in the sky
I have a great view inside my condo
But don't go outside
It's lonely on the top
But would I give it up to kick rocks
And chill out in the parking lot
Drinking shock tops with people who never stopped loving me
You know it
Cuz money ain't everything
My friends made me golden
Jul 11, 2015
Jul 11, 2015 at 6:11 PM UTC
I Tried So Hard To Keep You Happy
I Forgot No One Ever Tried That For Me
Jul 10, 2015
Jul 10, 2015 at 3:29 AM UTC
Dark room brought light to my dark thoughts
And another day wishing my promises weren't half hearted
I mean I broke yours so I figured my other half would be quite a bargain
It could have been a parting gift but how our eyes don't drift when we're in the mist of the social gigs a goodbye would be a total miss
So I wonder if the next time I see her lips
Would it be everything she wanted to say or
Another or last kiss
Jun 26, 2015
Jun 26, 2015 at 8:34 PM UTC
I love her
But maybe it wasn't the write time
But it seemed like her mom had her trained to read the plan line by line taking away any characteristics that made her mine
And just maybe our relationship would have Been fine if she was blind...
Her mom hated me because I was black
She openly said it to my lover
But she never really did defend me
Maybe cuz I was supposed to be her knight
But those racist shots always got to me
And even tho I love her I had to flea
Cuz I would go to end to fight for her
But she wouldn't face her mom for me
Jun 6, 2015
Jun 6, 2015 at 11:00 PM UTC
Me and her are from dark places
She's from sharp razors of anxiety
Cutting her vocal cords scared to speak of reality a broken voice that striped by her so called family
But to finally have some have someone listen to her raging thoughts and non parted lips seemed like an anomaly
So she told me what was on her mental
About the abuse from her dad
The fear of men who whistle at her
Men you harass like kids in a crowd yelling hey batter better to grab her a attention and tears fall from things she didn't want to mention I hug her and tell her what's wrong with me the loneliness of being in a room of people the depression creep and nightmare of creatures on top of me so from then we decided to speak with me taking care of her and her taking care of me
Apr 27, 2015
Apr 27, 2015 at 12:46 AM UTC
"This might be my grand finale the world will be quite fine with out me falling out with a smile on my face but at least I'm going out with a bang" - Larry Fisherman
Apr 26, 2015
Apr 26, 2015 at 1:45 PM UTC