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Everything out in the open, but no one wants to clear up the mess left behind or pick up the pieces.
May 18, 2018
May 18, 2018 at 1:09 PM UTC
I guess you’re back again,
Hoping to waltz back into my heart
Like you never left it shattered
Or made me doubt my own worth
What makes you think I’ll fall for you again?
Is it the way I let your hands
Rest on my waist for a little too long?
Or how I tried to look away?
The fact that we see each other every weekend?
Or that I smile so wide at the sight of you?
The truth is I can’t, I won’t, I haven’t
Fallen for you again
How could I when I never truly hated you?
I never fell out of love with you
Everything you put me through and
I still made an excuse to love you
You can’t fall back in love with someone
If you never fell out and I hate you for that
May 7, 2018
May 7, 2018 at 2:40 PM UTC
Her eyes sparkle
I'm not her
The way her body curves mesmerises you
I'm not her
No matter how hard I try
I'll never be her
But that doesn't mean
I don't deserve more
I'm my own person
The world is at my feet
So watch me flourish without you
You lost me, but it wasn't my loss
Finally free from your grasp
I'm not her
I'm honestly happy
I'm not her
Feb 14, 2018
Feb 14, 2018 at 12:29 PM UTC
There once lived a girl
Free as can be,
Her smile bright,
Her heart young,
And her eyes full of sympathy
There once lived a girl
Loved by all,
Never sad,
Never lost,
But this was before the fall
There once lived a girl
Crying for help,
No one to turn to,
No one to trust,
Everyone heard her yelp
There once lived a girl
All alone,
No more friends,
No more laughter,
All because she wasn't a clone
There once lived a girl
Horrendously broken,
When her life slipped away,
When her smile disappeared,
So many words left unspoken
There once lived a girl
Free as can be,
Ruined by the world,
Ruined by society,
Now she lays under the oak tree
So many times she was hurt,
So many times she cried
While everyone stood by,
Now she is gone
Everyone has died a little inside
Dec 31, 2017
Dec 31, 2017 at 8:31 AM UTC
How could I ignore the signs
Everyone drooling at the sight of you
Rushing to follow you
Barely believing you’d choose me
Instead wishing it was them
Excited to wake up to your name
But you were the first to
Really look at me like that
Only to drop me in a second
Killing me with flirty remarks
Every time you saw me
Maybe I was naive but
Everything seemed right with you
Dec 31, 2017
Dec 31, 2017 at 8:14 AM UTC
Hidden by brotherly advice
Masked by a best friend’s punch
Our love was there
In drunken moments our bodies brushed
And our hearts bled for the truth
Too scared to face the possibility
That we deserve more
Nov 13, 2017
Nov 13, 2017 at 5:48 PM UTC
Remember when I broke my arm
you held me and promised
I would come to no harm
You lied
My arm was snapped,
you’d finally hit me too hard
No one believed me
they said my lying had gone too far
Remember when I won my race
the way the crowd cheered
I was on top of the world
But you weren't there
The pub meant more
your head was pounding
I wanted to tell you
but I didn't make a sound
Remember when school phoned
They saw my bruises
you said I was learning to box
That was true
I had become you're punching bag
Never dared to hit back
you would only react
So I just stood there
Can you remember when she left
we were torn apart
I was missing a key part of my life
You weren't
You told me it was my fault
But I knew it was yours
She was too scared to run
You pushed her over the edge
Can you remember when I left
You didn't even say goodbye
instead you let out a sigh of relief
That was the final straw
I’m back now
This time I won’t back down
you have got away with too much
Now it is my turn
A stone through you window
All your bottles smashed
I torched you car
My heart is detached
I’ve got my revenge
It has all come to an end
I hope you’re glad
I will never call you dad
Oct 28, 2015
Oct 28, 2015 at 11:05 AM UTC
Hi Mummy, I know you don't know me yet
but I will lay here hidden until you do,
I have so much growing to do
but I’m already counting down the days
until I get to see your face
Hi Mummy, I’m bigger now
and with each beat of your heart I echo,
you found out about me today,
I could feel the happiness
running through your body
Hi Mummy, you told daddy today,
he shouted at you and hit you,
you were crying as you sang to me
don’t worry when I’m born I will protect you,
like you're protecting me
Hi Mummy, look at me
I have fingers and toes just like you,
You had an ultrasound today
and I waved at you with my tiny hands,
I felt your laugh brightening my world
Hi Mummy, I heard you and daddy shouting,
you haven't spoken to me since
or laid a soft hand upon my tiny head,
I feel completely alone
Is everything okay?
Hi Mummy, I’m scared
You touched my head last night
it was the first time in weeks,
but it was different as you were crying
as you said “I’m sorry baby, I love you”
Hi Mummy, what’s happening today?
Everything is so quiet and rushed,
You haven't stopped crying,
I heard you mutter the words
“hospital” and “baby”
Help Mummy, I want it to stop!
I can’t move away from the pain,
With each ever slowing beat of my heart
I am jolted further away from you,
Through tears you cried “I’m sorry”
Hi Mummy, I’m safe now
I couldn't wait to see your face
but you never wanted to see mine,
I hope you are happy now,
I miss you mummy and I still love you
Oct 19, 2015
Oct 19, 2015 at 12:48 PM UTC