When the snow melts
and the weather gets warmer
Only then can my true happiness can come
The long days full of
sweat
Dirt
Mud
Even after i come home for the night
I will still find pieces of hay in my hair and my clothes
Putting days worth of training
In hopes it will pay off
when the weekends come
And i can go to the shows
And may i find myself emotionally unstable i can find my way to the stables
i will find my happiness
in somthing so dangerous
with a mind of its own
but have total faith
that it'll do me no harm
even on the sourest days
i can find the sweetest escape
a hand full of mane
running free out in a feild
no saddle or bridal to keep us trapped
just our souls
dancing in the wind
Jan 31, 2016
Jan 31, 2016 at 8:12 PM UTC
I saw you today
I haven't seen your face in seven months
I thought i was over you
But I guess I'm not
Seeing your face
My chest started aching
My voice was shaking
My hands trembling
My hole body froze
So i called her
Hoping she could stop the tears
But it didn't work
I wouldn't let him see the tears
i kept my head down
as i ordered my drink
How could i stop my heart from breaking
again
After all this time
Why do i still feel empty
Why does it hurt still when i see you?
Why do i miss you
When all you did was abuse me
Jan 31, 2016
Jan 31, 2016 at 3:45 PM UTC
To my Friend
who has helped me battle my demons
more then i can count
now your left with yours
and i cant try to help
Zack
why is it you feel the way i do?
is it the feeling of not belonging?
or is it that everyone is so cold to you?
is it that no one understands how your feeling?
Zack
i don't want you to be like me
crying alone every night with the blade in your hand
feeling frighten every time it gets warm
Zack
i know the feelings you feel so very well
please don't be scared
to reach out to me for help
you've saved me when i thought no one else gave a rats ***
i miss our hours of Skype calls
our silly talks
so Zack my dear please
don't give up hope
Jan 31, 2016
Jan 31, 2016 at 1:21 PM UTC
We were laughing and smiling and joking around
I saw something snap
like a twig in your mind
I thought you were kidding
when you called me a *****
so I jokingly told you
to go **** yourself
before i could move
your fist collided with my temple
my face hit the dresser
before i hit the floor
I screamed what the **** is wrong with you
and you landed another punch
this time to my lip making
crimson flow from two places
my eyebrow and my lip
a bruise formed around my eye as i started to cry
i should of left then
before you started begged for forgiveness
Jan 31, 2016
Jan 31, 2016 at 1:01 AM UTC
Its been so long now but you still have your roots berried in my heart crushing my lungs my hands raw from trying to pull your roots out so i can breath my heart is sore from trying to yank them out i only made it worse for my self now in pain suffocating
I drank this summer away to forgot about you it only made it worse because how could I forget someone who had grown inside my chest who left scars welts bruises and busted lips upon my fragile body so i drank to become numb and it worked
Now i see you around town it still hurts like the roots have grown deeper and get yanked as they grow tight around my lungs leaving me gasping for air
Now i have him he cant find a place in my chest which is now a jungle of your trees
Jan 31, 2016
Jan 31, 2016 at 12:36 AM UTC
The nights i cant sleep
Because the marks you left
Still sting
Still throb
The bruises you left shine in the moonlight
The welts on my arms still swollen
The nights i cant sleep
Are for remembering
How i loved you even when you left marks on my body
Jan 30, 2016
Jan 30, 2016 at 9:52 PM UTC