I keep on playing this game,
while going insane,
my brain feels like mush,
too much kush? Smokin in the bush,
don't push, calm and quiet,
ill throw a riot, just to fight it,
does that sound dumb?
to me, its just plain fun,
am I a **** for being numb?
pain feels like a run in the slum,
while buzzing on high lungs,
never feel like I am done,
so what's up?
in this deserted space,
because I am here,
looking for the nervous rain,
searching for minor pain,
that I would play again.
that's facts
May 14, 2022
May 14, 2022 at 7:45 AM UTC
This is a little shade of depression,
my younger days I'm remembering,
thinking of all the pain I'm in.
I'm feeling like I've been so caught up in my own dam lies,
I have never seen the fires this bright,
I burned,
I forgot all the lessons I learned,
I'm hurt,
and I've been suicidal for a while,
and still, I'm in denial,
my thoughts are being vile,
while going through this trial,
called life, it brings strife,
the trial of fire brings desire,
I'm tired, of being tired,
I'm getting told to keep on trying,
I'm fighting,
cuz there's no more hiding,
listen to what I'm writing.
(Singing chorus)
I'm hearing voices all around me,
I'm feeling darkness creep upon thee,
I'm giving up\nIve had enough
No more smiling it's too tough. (X2)
Every since day dot I've thought a lot,
maybe too much, but I Never thought of such,
don't touch,
this is precious,
I take the measures,
I curve the edges,
I burn the letters,
my verse it betters,
my curse it feathers,
the earth it tremors,
my demons are mad,
and they feen when I'm sad,
they beam when I'm mad,
but I feel kinda glad,
with a glass in my lap,
my pen and my pad,
the first smile I've had,
my rhyming is back,
yes, my demons are black,
they carry an ax,
but I carry a sword,
chop, chop I'm bored
(Singing chorus)
I'm hearing voices all around me,
I'm feeling darkness creep upon thee,
I'm giving up
I've had enough
No more smiling it's too tough.
(X2)
Mar 17, 2021
Mar 17, 2021 at 4:07 PM UTC
R.I.P Larry (11 August 2017)
You know what hurt me the most,
Larry's last words dying on the phone,
"make it better with your dad, u know u love him son"
those words stuck in my head
the scars have begun,
don't think I'm writing for fun,
cuz I tried,
u turned your back like it was a lie,
Larry's last wish
I'd defied,
he didn't know the real you,
was that a factor,
through his eyes,
you were a caring chapter,
the very next page
and I was the laughter,
the very next day
was disaster,
Larry had passed,
I didn't do what he had asked,
when I told him I would,
deep in my mind, I was hoping I could,
deep in my thoughts, his words are still put,
deep in my heart
I hate you for good
Farther,
mother,
Brother,
sis,
someone pull me from the abyss,
Larry, I'm a sorry soul,
I tried for you but now I fold,
Farther,
mother,
Brother,
sis,
someone pull me from the abyss,
Larry, I'm a sorry soul,
I tried for you and I can't let go.
Mar 17, 2021
Mar 17, 2021 at 4:01 PM UTC
Yeah, where is the award for not been home,
I'm all alone,
Mumma won't pick up the phone so slip in a zone,
shift to my own,
without a clue,
I grew,
without a way,
I would stay,
yeah when I was weak I would pray
and I was hoping for an answer,
from this so-called master in laughter,
cuz we raised with lies,
and swooped when were high in the sky,
but imma die without a tear in my eye,
yeah,
imma strive to defy this mastermind,
it's just a way to escape my plastered mind,
to escape my fathers crime,
so I shine when I can with a pen,
these words I will bend to my friend,
the demons won't trend,
the feening will end,
and ill make myself great again
this **** always feels the same,
I'm ashamed of my name,
my aim is the fame in this game,
the family put Webb to shame so I'm just a noone,
trying to be someone,
and its no fun,
getting a house and a job,
the fear of the cops,
or getting jumped in a parking lot,
yeah,
I think a lot,
that's just a few I thought I'd plot to prove my spot,
to stick in your head think about next weeks rent,
when u only got a dollar 20 cent to your name
but still ill write these bars
hoping that it sparks entertainment in my cause,
cuz I feel rather tainted when I'm painted with a public profile,
defying the mask I cast my words on your part since the start.
Mar 17, 2021
Mar 17, 2021 at 3:31 PM UTC
I want to keep writing, but I'm dying to find the rhyme,
my mind is numb and on the run, and I'm feeling so dumb,
I gave up everything for a bit of fun,
a bit of dope, that made me lose hope,
I'd grab the rope and wish to choke,
letting those thoughts soak till my heart broke.
Yeah
Use to wish I was famous with pockets of dough,
while out on the road living a life I don't know,
and that **** made me real,
I started turning down a deal, I don't want to be the one to ****
I'd feel I was chill until someone would peel making me tilt and grab a knife wishing I could carve out their insides,
so I hid all my feelings and made myself a tranquil,
no emotions now and I'm thankful,
use to being so hateful, now I walk and I am faithful to a fault,
you couldn't pick me for a bloke who use to make loads selling dope,
Nah couldn't pick me for a dude who plays the guitar, or drives a ****** car Nah,
just wanna blend in,
just wanna be a face,
just want to be a nobody,
for no one to know my name,
and that's real, make no mistake, I could bake a cake and all you'd say is
"Thanks, uhhhh Blake?"
I Always thought I was useless until I found the truth,
and now I'm a short shot from being as good as you,
I always told myself, I could never be a star,
now I tell myself, that I should never give it up,
yeah, I'm use to getting hate,
use to getting blamed,
use to getting ****
so I guess we're all the same.
(What a shame)
I'll fight to stay tranquil,
I'll decide when I'm tasteful,
If you don't like this little taste fool,
You can get out of my Facebook.© Kaleb Webb 2020
Mar 17, 2021
Mar 17, 2021 at 3:23 PM UTC
Yeah this is my life
Its kinda ****** tho
I just need a girl by my side, someone too hold all day and all night, i just wanna ride or die, no more or im out my mind, no more imma walk outside, no more or imma leave goodbye.
Im done with the ******* around, i need a ***** more solid then ground, i need a ***** who don't give a **** and i need a break from all that is fake, ill give it a shake, your the icing on cake, well mine, thats fine, i hope, your kind.
Well That can be taken in 2 ways, either **** or a golden glaze, i just hope this is a decent maze, i just hope your a great chase, might just need your number incase.
Hey, look, listen, shh, your, looking, pretty, grr,
Hey, you, gorgeous, girl, im, feenin, you aswell,
And I don't mean too be rude, maybe i seem a tad loose, im feenin a few, I'm looking at you, ill sneeze, Just say bless you, im blessed by an angel, I need too be thankful, im out for unfaithful, ill fight for my tranquil.
Ive been ****** around since i was a kid, Mentally and physically im sick of the **** uncertainty is a crime, and pain is the time,
Unfaithful brings doubt, and i dont wanna shout, but if that be about, **** it im out!
Look i don't think that im perfect, im far from deserving, my thoughts are beserk, but your presence gives me feeling of hurt cuz I'm not in your shirt, give me that perk, im far from a **** i remember all the lessons ive leaned, so lets read the same book for a turn,
Im changing,
Even though every day i wake up im still blazing,
Going through this **** yeah i think im changing,
This is my life but im still hating.
Aug 12, 2020
Aug 12, 2020 at 3:07 PM UTC
You know what hurt me the most, Larry's last words dying on the phone, "make it better with your dad, you know you love him son" those words stuck in my head the scars have begun, dont Think I'm writing for fun, cuz I tried, you turned your back like it was a lie, Larry's last wish I'd defied, he didn't know the real you, was that a factor, through his eyes, you were a caring chapter, the very next page and I was the laughter, the very next day was disaster, Larry had passed, I didn't do what he had asked, when I told him I would, deep in my mind I was hopeing I could, deep in my thoughts he words are still put, deep in my heart I hate you for good
Farther, mother, Brother, sis, someone pull me from abyss,
Larry im sorry soul, i tried for you but now i fold,
Farther, mother, Brother, sis, someone pull me from abyss,
Larry im sorry bro, i tried for you and i can't let go.
Aug 12, 2020
Aug 12, 2020 at 3:00 PM UTC
Yeah im done with this world and all thats around, its a game and frankly i aint proud, and i aint addicted, im convicted, hopefully self-evicted, im a **** head, shove a knife in my neck, whats the bet i'd survive, just to be deprived of what you call life, im done, where's the gun, that sounds fun, BANG wheres the pain, im sure id fail again, this game is driving me insane, i have a car, maybe in it i can become a star, i wont go far, a trip to the local bar, then a bridge, a tree, a semi is all i wanna see.
i come across a though late last night, if im not here to bring you all hate, then who gonna complain, no more sook, so whos to bring you pain? if im not around you cant struggle in this game, im the reason your all in pain, it follows me around, like a pet, but in debht, its gets me aswell, regardless how much i retreat to my shell. it creeps in, it seeps deep, i ******* hate who ive become, im a *** a suicidal mess, this i confess, help? **** that less its a knife through the chest.
Mar 12, 2019
Mar 12, 2019 at 12:00 PM UTC
(sorry its a bit long)
i wanna Jump, maybe i Could fly, atleast at this height ive already hit the sky, im sick of the drivebys, the drug flies, the beaming eyes, I'm sick of all this hussling, im sick of all the fuss im in, im sick of been who i am, so im sorry ma, n sorry pa, maybe now ill be a star, ill be up high, whats the change, u never noticed me anyways,
Im just living a dream to you it seems,
Im falling apart tearing at the seams,
Im breaking down im sorry world,
Today's the day i make you proud,
Look ma and look pa, dont u Understand who u are, my inspiration, my determination, been denied make my mind devide, ive got my good, and ive got my bad, u looked down when i was mad, id scare you, when i wasn't even bad, cuz u knew i was that sad, "i dont forget and i don't forgive", thats sometin u learn too live with, now it's something u have too deal with,
Im just living a dream to you it seems,
Im falling apart tearing at the seams,
Im breaking down im sorry world,
Today's the day i make you proud,
Walk a mile in my shoes and maybe you could see, what its like too be like me, gettin calls asking for deals, gettin fools waistin there meals, im dealing but cant provide my own oh so real, i feel like a peice of **** I'm getting sick of living this, i just wanna shake your hand, but you've got venom on your gland, i wanna be the bigger man, ill walk away when I can, but if im tested here's my plan, pull my gun and end this fan.
Im just living a dream to you it seems,
Im falling apart tearing at the seams,
Im breaking down im sorry world,
Today's the day i make you proud,
Look im not saying imma end this **** i may be down, but when im down my lyric is up, my verses untouched, you wouldn't think of such, but im so much, ill fill your cup, saying all that but, i know my lyric can be misread, just cuz im spitting these bars so honestly, and i know i got haters everywhere, thats part of life and part of the rap game, the walk too fame, u laugh now, but i impove with each move.
Im just living a dream to you it seems,
Im falling apart tearing at the seams,
Im breaking down im sorry world,
Today's the day i make you proud,
Im just living a dream to you it seems,
Im falling apart tearing at the seams,
Im breaking down im sorry world,
Today's the day i make you proud,
Now look into my eyes and u may see my reality, i suffer, i cry, i hate my god dam life, but i awake and thank god for my blessing, i wake up with determination, i wake up with constent fustration, and i know it sounds weak, but im on my knees, fighting a fight i cant win, the blank paper, my very own trash bin, i download my **** so i wake up hussling, and you all say too not get so personal, but ill end with a wallet full,
Im just living a dream to you it seems,
Im falling apart tearing at the seams,
Im breaking down im sorry world,
Today's the day i make you proud,
At the age of 16 im walking down the road of recovery, from ******** and drugs, been hooked on cannabis and fun, you have a family? I have none, you have hope, im looking for some, i found a shimmering light, something too aim for, the rap career, and i know the struggle, haters, feens, losein what you think you need, but take what i have, you will be Takein the clothes upon my back.
Jun 21, 2018
Jun 21, 2018 at 9:23 AM UTC
You know its funny,
one day I was nothing,
One day I was no one,
Every day on my own,
Only darkness was I shown,
Was taught to raise my own throne,
Fight and be right,
War and no law,
More and no core,
But,
Never in my life was I taught to think,
Turn around! Miss, I need a hand,
But sure thing,
I had to learn to draft my own Sphinx,
Build my own lift,
Learn my own things,
Like,
I was never taught how to drop a rhyme,
Nor how too read time,
So here in my sick mind,
I was left with torturous lines,
But hold up,
Where did the skills I possess manifest?
From the milk in my mum's chest?
The bruises on my left leg?
Or just these messy scribbles of words,
Hey, ley needs a pay of pure hay?
That's a shame, I write the same,
Nothings changed my writings still lame,
But that's just it,
When I started scribbling these words down,
I always feared my fathers sound,
The things I wrote,
The pain he took time to provoke,
It changed me,
I guess it kinda made me,
Rhyming made my mind free,
Found my tree of purity,
Or is it my deepest sympathy,
Maybe rhymes are just me?
Like,
I can't explain my inner pain, without writing a song about love,
I can't walk around, without a beat playing louder than drums,
I cant say a few words, I gotta spit them all,
I guess that's why my songs, they ain't ever small,
I won't say I love you,
Instead,
Back at the start when I fell for you, never did I think I could be worthy of you, cuz
When I was younger I had a dream.
I was kicked out with nowhere it seemed.
I never thought the face I had seen.
Was the one right there, within my reach,
And,
Looking at the girl of my life only saddens me, why ain't you my wife, years and years I Could carry on my search, for the treasure that lurks, me and you like clockworks,
Now baby,
I wake up every day with a frown cuz your not in my lounge,
I see the morning dew, and instantly think of you,
Baby this isn't 1 or 2 days of the week,
Its every day I cant see,
You or the happiness you give,
Me or how u make me free, N ill sit in bed for hours, fantasising me with super powers, so I Could, give you what you wanted, soar like an eagle if you wanted, be right there when you wanted, id be, something like how I see you, my angel, super hero, sometimes my restraints, and for that you have my forever thanks, even if I go insane, your walking me up n down love lane, my love for you, higher then any plane, top score of any game, higher then I get n thats insane, but it's true, too you ill stick like glue, call me coo coo, ill say so's you, you'll know im right, cuz together we'll fight, baby for you ill fight any blight, ill save your kite, Run through the night, all for this great highlight, of the vision I see every time, I look at you, I look at me, the only thing I do not see is the ring that shall bound us together, but I can see, you walking down the isle, then standing across from me, can I hear the vowls already? Or am I over ready, wanting you so very, to be in my arms more than any, or am I just lost again? I'm sitting here, maybe i need more pens, perhaps more friends, more enemy's, well that's a tease, for you I'm on my knees, begging please, take my hand, allow me too be your man, and protect you, never would i neglect you, even if by gods I was sent too, baby you'll never understand how glad I'm that I met you.
You know its funny,
one day I was nothing,
One day I was no one,
Every day on my own,
Only darkness was i shown,
Was taught to raise my own throne,
Fight and be right,
War and no law,
More and no core,
But,
Never in my life was i taught too think,
Turn around! Miss, i need a hand,
But sure thing,
I had to learn too draft my own Sphinx,
Build my own lift,
Learn my own things,
Like,
I was never taught how to drop a rhyme,
Nor how too read time,
So here in my sick mind,
I was left with torturous lines,
And that's where we are today,
I write these words but these words are my shame
In my mind, all they doing is dragging my name
And here i am, i aint looking for fame,
Just wanna show people my lane,
Show you what its like to be insane, dude,
Feeling like your wrapped up in chains, rude,
Take a bullet straight through your brains, mood,
Feeling rain dripping pain, true
Now ain't nothing more painful then your mother crying,
Cuz in your hospital bed you are dying,
With the doctors hiding,
On the walls sits your writing,
A terrifying sighting,
Only inside now are you fighting,
And yeah i ain't been there before,
So you may ask what I'm spitting it for,
Maybe my sister, maybe bit more,
But I'm telling you now, were rotten to the core, of that i am sure, hents why my lines are all raw, and my mind is all sore.
And i don't plan on spiting ****
If I'm saying it, you can assume I'm living it, and it may seem easy, the way i am putting it, but deep in my mind i'm dripping, slit
Dec 17, 2017
Dec 17, 2017 at 11:22 AM UTC