kaehaniya - Hello Poetry

i have a cousin who leaves for college in two years. she’s always wanted a pet. since she was little, elementary school. her mother (my aunt) always told her (and her little brother who’s in seventh grade) that she wasn’t old enough for a pet and that they could get one— a cat, or a dog, maybe— when she was older. she didn’t stop asking. now she’s sixteen. her mother now tells her that she’s too old to get a pet. that there’s no point anymore since she’ll be moving out soon. there was nowhere in between. no goldilocks zone. she was never just the “right” age to have a pet. i don’t know what this is a metaphor for, but there’s a bigger picture here, i know it.

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Nov 26, 2020

Nov 26, 2020 at 1:44 AM UTC

goldilocks zone

i have a cousin who leaves for college in two years. she’s always wanted a pet. since she was little, elementary school. her mother (my aunt) always told her (and her little brother who’s in seventh grade) that she wasn’t old enough for a pet and that they could get one— a cat, or a dog, maybe— when she was older. she didn’t stop asking. now she’s sixteen. her mother now tells her that she’s too old to get a pet. that there’s no point anymore since she’ll be moving out soon. there was nowhere in between. no goldilocks zone. she was never just the “right” age to have a pet. i don’t know what this is a metaphor for, but there’s a bigger picture here, i know it.

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all of this will just be a memory in the morning, they say. but what if that’s what i’m scared of? of not remembering? of being vulnerable? of not remembering being vulnerable? of just... forgetting? because, well, how would you even know if you’re going insane? would you know? would i know? but then again, would forgetting— just... forgetting— really be the worst thing?

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Nov 22, 2020

Nov 22, 2020 at 1:26 AM UTC

memories

all of this will just be a memory in the morning, they say. but what if that’s what i’m scared of? of not remembering? of being vulnerable? of not remembering being vulnerable? of just... forgetting? because, well, how would you even know if you’re going insane? would you know? would i know? but then again, would forgetting— just... forgetting— really be the worst thing?

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to make big decisions more easily.

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Oct 19, 2020

Oct 19, 2020 at 7:47 PM UTC

my one wish?

to make big decisions more easily.

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the people say good morning like they're used to me, they wave when they see me in the hall. but i know that as soon as they get close to me, they'll wish that they never had at all.

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Oct 19, 2020

Oct 19, 2020 at 7:44 PM UTC

untitled

the people say good morning like they're used to me, they wave when they see me in the hall. but i know that as soon as they get close to me, they'll wish that they never had at all.

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just know that if you ever need me, i’ll be there. i’ll always be there.

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Oct 11, 2020

Oct 11, 2020 at 9:17 PM UTC

whenever, wherever

just know that if you ever need me, i’ll be there. i’ll always be there.

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wishing for calm trying to keep it peaceful i don't feel good, so don't start it's a lot of bad things don't start, i won't struggle won't tell them **** won't tell them i wanna die don't miss me, don't wish for me make sure you outlive me hope it goes down as g.o.d. there'd be no me it was god's plan hope it was god's plan

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Sep 10, 2020

Sep 10, 2020 at 8:49 PM UTC

god's plan

wishing for calm trying to keep it peaceful i don't feel good, so don't start it's a lot of bad things don't start, i won't struggle won't tell them **** won't tell them i wanna die don't miss me, don't wish for me make sure you outlive me hope it goes down as g.o.d. there'd be no me it was god's plan hope it was god's plan

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awkward questions, awkward stares told that i'm putting on airs written out of all the prayers i don't fit into the squares

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Sep 8, 2020

Sep 8, 2020 at 1:15 PM UTC

define "squares"

awkward questions, awkward stares told that i'm putting on airs written out of all the prayers i don't fit into the squares

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