This mess of thoughts
too many to bare
Don't even look at me, if you're gonna stare!
See what I'm doing right for a change
I wish...
Told my mom its been like 10 years
Please let me grow
have faith, not fear
Sometimes I cry because I am judged SOOOO much
Get Up, wipe away your tears!
You started this Kristy, noone else to blame
This endless cycle that nobody can tame
not even meditation, medication
I know that's not right
2 appointments today, lets get this **** right!
Mom said start making a list
even my lists are manic or I lose them...
Wish me luck for I'm on the edge
If I can step back, I might get to LIVE
Kristy Robertson
6/12/2020
Jun 12, 2020
Jun 12, 2020 at 6:55 AM UTC
So, I met a cool bartender, her name is Megan
She's good people, even when I'm beggin
For a free shot, a free beer, her phone number...
She won't give it to me and that's a ******
She looks kinda like Pink but even more HOTTT
And because of her, this bar is my new favorite spot!
Megan always gives me attitude, but it's just her way...
Of saying keep dreaming girl, "I'm not gay!"
I do think she would make a real good friend,
and someone that I would stick by til the end
Megan did almost warm me about this slutty girl
When I look at Sara now it makes me want to hurl
She went home with 4 people in a week, not including me
(Megan said she almost warned me, but didn't think it was her place to say)
I guess I can see why, this girl claimed she wasn't even gay!
I just hope I didn't catch something from this *****
If I did, it's gonna be on , like a light switch!
I told Megan that is so not my style
I don't know why I am going so wild
Sara kept touching me and I told her to stay away,
So Megan helped get her off me...
And I need to tell her thanks for that, if I may!
I know I say this every other day,
I guess it's just e coping; it's just my way
But I definitely learned this time!
and now I think I'm done with this little rhyme
Jun 11, 2020
Jun 11, 2020 at 4:25 AM UTC
I see your true colors pouring down
I seeked answers, and the worst I found
I’m running fast, but my feet are on the ground
Don’t you dare try to make me look like a clown
I know your game and I’m tired of it
And I won’t get over it in a bit,
nope not ever
You got the wrong girl on this one, this time
Different time, different mind
It’s not that hard, just be kind
And this is the reason I have to be done
It’s hard, but I know it’s what I need to do
This is Goodbye forever, this time
ALL IT TOOK WAS A HURRICANE
Jun 10, 2020
Jun 10, 2020 at 5:42 AM UTC
She says I’m just a distraction (referring to herself)
This is simply not true
If I ever had you in my life I’d make **** sure to never lose you!
I’d do anything in my power to make all of your dreams come true!
It makes me happy to think of breathing your air
And it kills me that someone else gets to, just seems unfair!
We argue because passion is soooo strong
When we are not seeing eye to eye, we both say we don’t care..
We distance ourselves when it becomes too much to bare!
Fatal Attraction... Some Say
I dream of feeling your embrace after a long day
I’d truly sit and listen to every word you had to say!
I just want to hear about your day!
We have gone years without as much as a greeting
But when we do meet, my heart can’t stop beating
Out of my chest... so many thoughts..
Now I’m a MESS
What are you thinking? No clue...
Do I have to guess???
Fatal Attraction ... some say
Doesn’t really matter how it started
I’m sure we’re both stronger for it now,
at this Point!
You say it’s hard to build something that starts out like that
0 to 60 in 2 seconds flat!
You say you fee like you just walked out of the twilight zone
What does that even mean? Is your mind blown?! 🤯
I’ve never loved anyone how I loved you!
You already used to help when I was feeling blue
Just talking to you instantly puts me in a better mood
And when I can’t I feel like I’m about to come unglued
Fatal Attraction... Some Say
How many times do we try to walk away?!
But in the end we will never stray
It doesn’t really matter what anyone else thinks
In life, people judge no matter what
Like you are the patient and they are your shrink
that REALLY stinks!!! 😷
But sometimes I think “they” are ALL wrong?!
We would build together, our bond is soooo strong 💪
Be honest with yourself (for a change)
Please come back to me and stay
It’s always been you!
My one ☝️ true love 💕
You love me and I love you more!
Why don’t you think we deserve each other... we would NEVER get bored
Fatal Attraction, some say...
She’s my light, my sun ☀️, my moon 🌚
Makes me want to shine bright 💡
But she’s happy being “content”
I was too, until we met
Or hung out I should say
Before that one night I didn’t even know your name
Fatal Attraction? ...
No, SOULMATE
Please give me a chance,
Let’s have our 1st date!!!
Jun 7, 2020
Jun 7, 2020 at 10:00 AM UTC
Love is a strong emotion, so is hate!
That’s why it can be hard to find in between
I want to find “in between” with you
Let’s get together, make some food!
Walk, talk, be goofy and spontaneous like us!
When we were together it was toxic
But it’s been a LONG time and I think we have both grown
Let’s leave the past in the past
Start new and see ...
What our friendship could really be!!!
Jun 7, 2020
Jun 7, 2020 at 5:46 AM UTC
My best friends name is Lindsay
We like to go and dance
I specialize in the drunken techno prance
Dancing to la la la la la/ la la la la la/ la de da da da
A random guys says and I quote, "Shake what you mamma give ya!"
That's so funny ****
And makes you want to do anything but sit!
We got to go in VIP- up above
DJ Caffeine was up there and the captain of love
He lives to say "make some noise motha fucka's" A LOT
He can't think of anything else to say when put on the spot
Loverboy is a very ugly guy
When you look at him it makes you want to cry!
The girls in the thong contest were *****
but they bared all on stage, which took some guts
The place was surrounded with Russians and Hicks,
But I did learn some new glow stick tricks!
Lindsay had three...and was almost gone...
Like a switch it turned dance mode on!
The drink of choice was *** On The Beach
But that ugly guy was such a leech
That guy was such a bisnatch
That was all up in my motha f'n bis-nass
We owned the stage for half the show
surrounded by objects that glow
"Mind distortion was the name of the thing,
And when we left Lindsay got asked to be a model for a magazine!
She said all she wants to do is sleep
Cuz the guy kinda looked like a creep
So we went back to Jamie's apartment and slept on the floor
up eight hours later and out the door
We decided to go shopping,
But once we started we felt like dropping
Me,Merri Lindsay and Jimb went to a party when we got home
I got really drunk, and really ******
I got to talk to a lot of people I hadn't seen in a while;
I was so happy all I did was SMILE
Lindsay was sad, so I hugged her a lot
It seemed like the right thing to do at that stroke of the clock!
Jesse's dad came out in his whity tighties and said "f'n leave!"
That was the funniest moment of the night, I do believe!
Tim had a party too, but nobody went
By the time we left Lowell, we were all spent
So our weekend turned out to be really fun
And now I think this poem is done!
May 18, 2020
May 18, 2020 at 11:13 AM UTC
I've been running so fast, and I need to slow down
Before my whole word comes crashing down!
I've already hit the ground, but I got back up
And I'm ready to go another round!
Found out today it's a miracle I'm here
Now everthing that was blurry, seems so clear!
I couldn't have asked for better family and friends,
And I can't believe I wanted to call it the END!
4/26/10
May 16, 2020
May 16, 2020 at 10:37 AM UTC
Its nice 2 have someone to care.
You don't just find that anywhere.
You are so kind and sweet,
God meant 4 us 2 meet,
at this moment and time,
and 4 us 2 share our little rhymes.
We will see each other again and when we don't you will always be my friend.
I feel your soul when you speak,
don't hesitate to call if you are feeling weak.
I will be there for you,
for you are one of the many few,
who accepted me for me and
who understands how people really need to be.
May 16, 2020
May 16, 2020 at 10:28 AM UTC
Went to Carbondale to save my friend,
That was the night my life almost came to an end!
Pretty sure my kids saved my life, thank God they were there,
Pulled up to the wrong trailer and almost got shot, now that wasn't fair!
The ***** said get of my f...ing property and I asked if she knew where Kane stayed.
***** said no, so I called him and prayed!
Thank God he answered the phone, that probably helped too
When I got there Lizzy was passed out drunk and that kinda blew!
I realize it was the middle of the night,
But I had to save Lizzy, just knew it was right!
She was out and my kids wide awake,
The next day was fun, we went to the lake!
Southern Illinois is a beautiful place,
But everyone there is crazy and I knew I needed to return to my home base!
Brayden played the bongos and Karissa the tamborine,
Lizzy was so impressed, she gave them a large cuisine!
Brayden was such a mess,
I wondered why I even got him dressed!
We went to the castle park, that was cool though,
Both of my kids were just like "Woah!"
It was good to get back,
And out of that ghetto shack!
I like taking them on adventures,
And I hope they will always remember!
May 16, 2020
May 16, 2020 at 10:24 AM UTC
I can't explain where we are
But I could see this going far
I can't explain how we got here
But I know it wasn't just the BEER
It SHOULD feel wrong, but it feels soooo RIGHT
And giving it up would be a LOST flight
I think I would find my way back
Because being with you would be something I lacked
Now that I KNOW, I can't pull myself away
And if you want me, I am here to stay
Just know that I care
and want to SNUGGLE like a teddy bear
Not that they snuggle, but they FEEL nice
So do YOU, that's why I am not taking anyone's advice
When I'm "with you", it's a feeling I can't explain
And when you're not with ME, I feel PAIN!
So lets embrace this for what it is
And not worry about THEM, cuz it's none of their biz
YOU are more than just my friend,
And I never want what WE have to end!
May 15, 2020
May 15, 2020 at 4:36 PM UTC