k-m-m - Hello Poetry

It has been a year and I say that too tired to stand--but still I trudge on. You were once a vine with white flowers and now you have become a treacherous maze. And I walk through every curve dodge every overhang--trying to find you again. Saying, "I love you." calling out, "I'm here for you." But your branches get bigger and your leaves grow thicker I'm searching for you and while I do I stare at some blooms, they like little memories of our past. And I become more focused on the past than getting out of the thicket And I am choked like a **** As I am strangled and I am losing my breath I think to myself "How could I be a **** when you said I was a beautiful flower?" "Why would you take away my breath when you promised me a life?" And by how you leave me I see all I needed to see.

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Oct 20, 2018

Oct 20, 2018 at 3:12 AM UTC

Labyrinth

It has been a year and I say that too tired to stand--but still I trudge on. You were once a vine with white flowers and now you have become a treacherous maze. And I walk through every curve dodge every overhang--trying to find you again. Saying, "I love you." calling out, "I'm here for you." But your branches get bigger and your leaves grow thicker I'm searching for you and while I do I stare at some blooms, they like little memories of our past. And I become more focused on the past than getting out of the thicket And I am choked like a **** As I am strangled and I am losing my breath I think to myself "How could I be a **** when you said I was a beautiful flower?" "Why would you take away my breath when you promised me a life?" And by how you leave me I see all I needed to see.

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Sometimes when I miss you, I forget you are gone When I see my love I give to others When I see the extra mile I give When I press on through my own emotion for them --I think of you. I catch myself turning for your face to find only memories. I feel you touch my shoulder after every smile I make. Now every time the world grows colder I will remember those last words you said to me Your hearty laugh your serious scowl the gallons of black coffee you drank. All seem like distant mirages that used to calm me so. You've taught me to strive for better that I can do more than love And then you taught me the hardest lesson of all --loss.

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Oct 20, 2018

Oct 20, 2018 at 2:42 AM UTC

"I'll see you soon."

Sometimes when I miss you, I forget you are gone When I see my love I give to others When I see the extra mile I give When I press on through my own emotion for them --I think of you. I catch myself turning for your face to find only memories. I feel you touch my shoulder after every smile I make. Now every time the world grows colder I will remember those last words you said to me Your hearty laugh your serious scowl the gallons of black coffee you drank. All seem like distant mirages that used to calm me so. You've taught me to strive for better that I can do more than love And then you taught me the hardest lesson of all --loss.

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I knew you never loved me By how you left me. And I knew I'd never love again Because of how you left me.

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Oct 14, 2018

Oct 14, 2018 at 10:29 AM UTC

On Read

I knew you never loved me By how you left me. And I knew I'd never love again Because of how you left me.

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It is written about the Father's judgement and how it harms but one thing I've always noticed is the Son's love always follows. For you are my sunshine, my only sunshine --and it's not just in the song that I see your love. I have grown you from an apple seed in the frozen winter ground and you have brought spring to my heart where I thought permafrost had set in for sure. You are my greatest gift and soon my greatest pain but I would endure every second and bleed out every vein.

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Oct 12, 2018

Oct 12, 2018 at 4:24 AM UTC

Son's Love

It is written about the Father's judgement and how it harms but one thing I've always noticed is the Son's love always follows. For you are my sunshine, my only sunshine --and it's not just in the song that I see your love. I have grown you from an apple seed in the frozen winter ground and you have brought spring to my heart where I thought permafrost had set in for sure. You are my greatest gift and soon my greatest pain but I would endure every second and bleed out every vein.

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As I wrap my son in pride --you wallow in your own. As I plan the future you spend the same amount of time in the past. My failure to become the child you want has prevented you from loving the grandchild I've given. So I will hide my triumphant blessing and keep him from the judgement I faced. And since I am such a horrible letdown --you have four other children to be "good enough" for you. And I would wish you greater pride in them but you already have enough in yourself. There has been much growth in myself like the grass in the spring and with that growth I see life and decay For I am learning to be good enough for my baby and not perfect for you.

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Oct 12, 2018

Oct 12, 2018 at 4:12 AM UTC

Father's Judgement

As I wrap my son in pride --you wallow in your own. As I plan the future you spend the same amount of time in the past. My failure to become the child you want has prevented you from loving the grandchild I've given. So I will hide my triumphant blessing and keep him from the judgement I faced. And since I am such a horrible letdown --you have four other children to be "good enough" for you. And I would wish you greater pride in them but you already have enough in yourself. There has been much growth in myself like the grass in the spring and with that growth I see life and decay For I am learning to be good enough for my baby and not perfect for you.

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I'd tell you to go to hell but you've created it like a fire within me. You cant hate me for things you've done before you cant slam an already closed door For I have locked you out and the key is in cement You cant own what was never yours you cant borrow what you had already stole For I have locked you in a jail and mangled it shut and I cant be yelled at anymore and I cant be the one to scream for help at that your cold shoulder.

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Oct 12, 2018

Oct 12, 2018 at 3:08 AM UTC

Never Yours

I'd tell you to go to hell but you've created it like a fire within me. You cant hate me for things you've done before you cant slam an already closed door For I have locked you out and the key is in cement You cant own what was never yours you cant borrow what you had already stole For I have locked you in a jail and mangled it shut and I cant be yelled at anymore and I cant be the one to scream for help at that your cold shoulder.

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