
I can't help but think that life is worth pursuing, most of the time
And of course this is my cry
The boy who begged the wolf to tell his story
That he so desperately needed to spread into the surrounding airwaves
No no that is not enough in this space of barely listening.
Print may not seem like the logical place to bleed out, but it is the only place to display my vulnerable guillotine dismemberment
Before my public execution
Remind me
This is worth it
May 19
May 19, 2026 at 4:46 PM UTC
A letter holds weight
Indistinguishable from the words refusing to settle on page
Passive ink
Helium lifting itself into the space between us
Weigh down the meaning of what this was meant to be
They told me words matter
These things we speak hold capacity within
Calloused hands
Strangle hold the palpability of possibility
Resting on the edge of my tongue
So this letter holds weight
An atomic mass that proves
We were not created nor destroyed
This right here
Always existed
We simply changed forms
Apr 27
Apr 27, 2026 at 4:49 PM UTC
This body and this mind
Sometimes do not belong to me
I often find myself breaking off pieces
Giving loans I know I can't pay back
Allowing others to see my darkness
Not remembering to fill in the gaps
Apr 14
Apr 14, 2026 at 5:07 PM UTC
We are related by blood
Yet the DNA in our veins is in high contast
Apr 14
Apr 14, 2026 at 5:06 PM UTC
I am on a floating vessel and I'm drowning
In a sea of far too loud cries with horn disguises
Begging for an audience to listen to their bravado chest pumped up sililoques
This is the too loud neighbor
The wishing well spell of more wishes that have landed in an echo chamber
Now is too much and forever enough
We will bend the fabrics of history
Gladly begging our children to swallow our smog
And praise us for our ignorance
One day giving us the proper burial ground in carbon laced clouds
Knowing we were just too much
Apr 14
Apr 14, 2026 at 4:56 PM UTC
My insides are present even though I have never seen them
Only ever thrown them up
Pulling out my self-esteem
Insecurities folded in the porcelain before me
Allow me to right myself
Chest puffed up in false confidence
Showing my boisterous inners
Hoping to land on acceptance
Building a new self image
One that loves its own
Unconditionally
Without cross-examination
Apr 13
Apr 13, 2026 at 5:08 PM UTC
I reached for my phone today
Wanting to tell you everything about nothing
Emptily expressing the deepest details of the ghost between us
Gift me your crescent ear one moment longer
A last call of slurred desperate expression
Forgive me
Drag me out of the bottle
Beat the intoxicants of father from my blood
Show me strength in separating the curves of blurred lines
Spread the gospel of the broken glass ripping at my thoat
Hoping to manufacture and disassemble yesterday
Drowning never felt so everyday
2,920 days of stories fractured under tongue and cheek
Placate my disgusting necessity for reassurance
Crash the god **** plane already
Zero gravity won't lift the weight boy
The blackbox may hear your desperate pleas
There will be no response
8 years of practicing crash landings
I reached for my phone today
How does nothing feel like everything
Nov 30, 2020
Nov 30, 2020 at 8:43 PM UTC
It was abruptly apparent to myself
Slapstick honest in the chest
Reality became emperical
When pull yourself up by your boot straps
Became an invitation to self destruction
A boot lace golden ticket
To a counterfeit perception of relief
Oct 24, 2020
Oct 24, 2020 at 12:02 AM UTC
As death became reality
He attempted to convince himself
That if he hit delete enough
Enough people would pay attention
That his flair of calm temperament
Was a siren of helicopters
Berating sleeping neighbors
Wanting everything to be worth more than he believed
Poetey became a suicide note
Causing him to stop writing
With the fear of his words becoming eulogy
Bleeding paper with cut nerve endings
Fist indented desk topping
Proving a impending bad written letter
To people that may never read
Historians have probable cause
To explain what went wrong here
Until then
This man sits in glass bottles and retained thoughts
Smiling broken happiness
Through exhausted muscles
Knowing today won't be enough
Feb 13, 2019
Feb 13, 2019 at 3:43 PM UTC
I would be lying if I told you death wasn't an option
We can choose it everyday
And most days i argue
On what the best course of action might be
Between Berlin walls and burlesque dreams
My heart has decided it's mind
Into suicide flower arrangements
Multiplying in hope that one of them might be better
Becoming a stem grown mistake
Leaf to sky
Praying to the god we call heaven
And the clouds we call hope
Make me pretty
Show the world my worth
Allow the tender fabric surrounding my inners to bring joy
Break my roots in a wish that maybe the ground can remind me from where i once came
That this earth returns us to form
Not the other way around
Eradicate the suffering so commonly accepted as the present
Nov 29, 2018
Nov 29, 2018 at 5:33 PM UTC