Creativity cannot be conjured,
Without a little madness.
It is in the crazy that we find,
the beauty beyond us.
Strokes of paint mean nothing,
without a story or emotion.
In our medium we find ourselves,
Creation and Destruction.
The world here calls me a lunatic,
An amateur, a monstrosity.
But today you label me 'crazy',
Tomorrow you label me 'visionary'.
Jan 27, 2021
Jan 27, 2021 at 10:11 AM UTC
My heart is a sea,
Dark azure and green,
Its waves crash and turn,
Goodbye, dear sanity.
My feelings are the tides,
Upon shores it rides,
A sapphire marvel,
Beyond which it hides.
My happiness is an ocean,
always churning in motion,
going back and forth,
An unstable emotion.
My sadness crawls deep down,
in the darkness I drown,
it holds on to me,
and sits with a guilty crown.
My waves are ever-moving,
Its height ever-looming,
I am never the same shade,
I am tea ever-brewing.
But this is the way I am,
the way I move and frolic,
the way I dance and fall,
the way I lie and crawl.
I am an emotional being.
I am okay,
then I am not,
and that is okay.
Jan 27, 2021
Jan 27, 2021 at 10:02 AM UTC
I miss(ed) you
the girl with black hair
who loved the blue sky
and breathed in fresh air
I miss(ed) you
who had no cares in the world
who came home to no worries
in her mother's arms she curled
I miss(ed) you
who lived as a child
when friends gathered round
born free and wild
I miss(ed) you
who had innocent eyes
who dreamed of fairies and mermaids
and didn't worry and sigh
I miss(ed) you
who didn't cry when things were tough
who held hope and beauty within
who didn't fake a laugh
I miss(ed) you
who wasn't stressed day and night
who could hug her parents close
whose days shone bright
I miss(ed) me
what happened to the years
I miss(ed) mom and dad
when their eyes didn't fill with tears
I miss(ed) me
it's hard leaving you behind
it's hard leaving young mom and dad
it's hard not looking back
I miss(ed) me
I miss(ed) coming home
I miss(ed) dreaming
I miss(ed) loving
I miss(ed) me.
Aug 11, 2020
Aug 11, 2020 at 11:43 AM UTC
You ask me why I left
well here's why.
It's because I realized that
my life is mine.
Maybe you think I'm selfish,
well aren't you too?
You said we would support each other
but nothing was ever true.
You had your dreams,
and I watched as they grew,
I guess I forgot,
that I had dreams too.
You said that I'm selfish,
but maybe it's because you didn't understand,
that in a relationship,
it's not about being in the upper hand.
You said that I'm selfish,
it's because you failed to see,
that even someone like me,
had things I wanted to achieve.
Maybe that's why I left you,
maybe I was wrong,
Maybe I should've told you,
that I wanted to be strong.
You say the past is in the past,
yet you want to start all over again,
I agree that the past is in the past,
but I'm sorry, this is the end.
I've found someone else,
and I hope you do too,
someone who wasn't as "selfish" as I was,
someone who can sacrifice for you.
We all have a soulmate,
I once thought it was you.
But the tides have passed,
the sun has set,
and nothing can be reset,
because I've found someone new.
Oct 8, 2018
Oct 8, 2018 at 11:20 PM UTC
I don't know how many times I've used this word,
Not that I really care
Sometimes I use it too often
Sometimes I don't even dare
I don't understand it's complexity
I can't get around its simplicity
Saying it alone is odd enough
It makes me feel quite queasy
Mar 15, 2018
Mar 15, 2018 at 8:57 AM UTC
You say you love her,
But does love last a minute,
Stop lying through your teeth,
You know this is ********
You say you need her,
Yet you "forget" to call her back,
Stop lying through your teeth,
It is a heart that you lack.
You say that you don't mean it,
Yet you do it again today,
Stop lying through your teeth,
I've stopped believing in what you say.
You say you're sorry for everything,
I see the sincerity in your eyes,
You've stopped lying through your teeth,
Yet my heart has already turned to ice.
Mar 7, 2018
Mar 7, 2018 at 5:42 AM UTC
Daydreaming
of better things
of lovely things
of saddening things
Daydreaming
of Him who I wondered
ever really loved me
or did it mean no more
Daydreaming
of the life that was not mine
the life I left behind
the life I could not find
Daydreaming
of something I do not deserve
yet yearn for
with no reserve
Daydreaming
of things so harsh and deep
the ocean swallows me whole
and into quicksand I seep
Daydreaming
of the life I thought I desired
of the life I was inspired
but never became reality
Daydreaming
of better things
that became worser things
That became dangerous things
Daydreaming
Of things I don't understand
Yet yearn for
What nonsense, I am.
Mar 5, 2018
Mar 5, 2018 at 8:52 AM UTC
Just last night Someone was feeling down
Someone came to me
Someone did not know me
Yet Someone trusted me
Someone told me her troubles
and though I did not know
the pain Someone was expressing
The pain Someone did not show
I carried on with Someone
I talked to Someone as a friend
I boosted Someone's confidence
I let Somone vent and rant
Someone thanked me with happiness
Someone called my words beautiful
So now I wonder
Who was it that consoled who?
Mar 5, 2018
Mar 5, 2018 at 8:48 AM UTC
I'm living for
all the love in the world
All the love you're giving me
All the love I'm receiving.
I'm living for
all the love in the world
The love they're looking for
The love they're needing.
I'm living for
all the love in the world
The love they're expecting
the love they're never receiving.
I'm looking for
all the love in the world
The love they're hoping for
the love they're living for.
I thank you for
all the love in the world
The ones I wasn't expecting
The ones when I wasn't looking.
I'm praying for
all the love in the world
The ones that are coming
and the ones that are hiding.
Mar 5, 2018
Mar 5, 2018 at 8:38 AM UTC
I believe that you're telling the truth,
I believe you when you say,
You're not talking to me,
Because you're busy today.
I believe you all the time,
even when we fight,
Because no matter what we went through,
I always believed you were right.
I believe you when you're smiling,
The background noise fades out,
Those eyes so calm and glistening,
But the voices continue to shout.
I believed you all this time,
and yet when I thought we were fine,
I look into the mirror,
And realise we've already lost our time.
Feb 22, 2018
Feb 22, 2018 at 6:41 AM UTC