justvannesa - Hello Poetry

Still trap in the midst of nowhere Lost in the void of self doubt Stepping in the pile of nails I feel myself spinning in the whirl of self made confusion Is it necessary to blame someone , for what am I now? Or should I face the facts? The facts that still haunting me until now, The facts that slapped me straight in the face. It is a fact beyond this unreasonable doubt A fact that competes my fantasies Or is it my ****** past that still chokes me Or is it me that is afraid to face the facts.

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Feb 1, 2018

Feb 1, 2018 at 6:37 AM UTC

Trapped

Still trap in the midst of nowhere Lost in the void of self doubt Stepping in the pile of nails I feel myself spinning in the whirl of self made confusion Is it necessary to blame someone , for what am I now? Or should I face the facts? The facts that still haunting me until now, The facts that slapped me straight in the face. It is a fact beyond this unreasonable doubt A fact that competes my fantasies Or is it my ****** past that still chokes me Or is it me that is afraid to face the facts.

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Shame me to the crowd drown me into the pit of mud destroy my weaknesses lead me into your endless wickedness If all of this things will satisfies you, then you wont hear a word from me. But, my dear remember this All of this things will be a mark of your disgrace.

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Feb 1, 2018

Feb 1, 2018 at 6:37 AM UTC

Swallow your own shadow

Shame me to the crowd drown me into the pit of mud destroy my weaknesses lead me into your endless wickedness If all of this things will satisfies you, then you wont hear a word from me. But, my dear remember this All of this things will be a mark of your disgrace.

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Am I a Dumb or you are A Numb? As the sun shines in the east, As the wind whispers in my ears, As the time continuously passes by, My love for you never last. You're my Halley’s Comet. You're my dream come true. Every time our eyes met, Heaven and hell collide. You’re the heat that keeps me warm In a cold breeze. Your touch lightens up my nerves Oh darling! My love my one and only Why did you ignore me? Am I hallucinating to think of you every single day? Am I too pathetic, when I daydream of you every second of hour? Oh darling! My love my one and only Why didn’t you feel my presence? Are you too numb? Or am I too dumb? To love you this way.

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Feb 1, 2018

Feb 1, 2018 at 6:36 AM UTC

Am I a Dumb or you are A Numb?

Am I a Dumb or you are A Numb? As the sun shines in the east, As the wind whispers in my ears, As the time continuously passes by, My love for you never last. You're my Halley’s Comet. You're my dream come true. Every time our eyes met, Heaven and hell collide. You’re the heat that keeps me warm In a cold breeze. Your touch lightens up my nerves Oh darling! My love my one and only Why did you ignore me? Am I hallucinating to think of you every single day? Am I too pathetic, when I daydream of you every second of hour? Oh darling! My love my one and only Why didn’t you feel my presence? Are you too numb? Or am I too dumb? To love you this way.

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My stubborn saturation, brought me into the world of random strangers Strangers whom I found on a wide circuit of millennial connections Most of them are like wild boar, trying to find food that will fill their unsatisfied soul But, some of them are like stars, that will still shine; even during dawn. Until, I found him; my morning star That random connections, makes everything stop; at the moment, I saw him I really adore his sparkling eyes, like a star that still shines, before sunrise The way he stares at me, he always gives me tachycardia (a rapid heartbeat) The tune of his gentle voice is like an angel playing a harp in a serene manner Though his accent, is somehow confusing; but, I know our souls will intertwined to connect on one point. “The world is round, you will reach the same point if you start traveling like a circle” Little he knows that, I’m pointing it out to his pure soul; that I can see through his eyes I will never get tired staring at his face His presence that fulfill my empty soul The way he laughs, makes my blood pressure rise, that’s why my cheeks get red He generally, got me going crazier I know life is too unfair, to ended up so unexpectedly So unreasonably and so fast Now, that I found him, the one who make me more alive again.

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Feb 1, 2018

Feb 1, 2018 at 6:35 AM UTC

That thing called destiny

My stubborn saturation, brought me into the world of random strangers Strangers whom I found on a wide circuit of millennial connections Most of them are like wild boar, trying to find food that will fill their unsatisfied soul But, some of them are like stars, that will still shine; even during dawn. Until, I found him; my morning star That random connections, makes everything stop; at the moment, I saw him I really adore his sparkling eyes, like a star that still shines, before sunrise The way he stares at me, he always gives me tachycardia (a rapid heartbeat) The tune of his gentle voice is like an angel playing a harp in a serene manner Though his accent, is somehow confusing; but, I know our souls will intertwined to connect on one point. “The world is round, you will reach the same point if you start traveling like a circle” Little he knows that, I’m pointing it out to his pure soul; that I can see through his eyes I will never get tired staring at his face His presence that fulfill my empty soul The way he laughs, makes my blood pressure rise, that’s why my cheeks get red He generally, got me going crazier I know life is too unfair, to ended up so unexpectedly So unreasonably and so fast Now, that I found him, the one who make me more alive again.

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Physically complete but mentally void of everything Longing for your affection and recognition I did my best but still it wasn't good enough Little did you know that I'm longing for you to find me again.

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Feb 1, 2018

Feb 1, 2018 at 6:32 AM UTC

Longing

Physically complete but mentally void of everything Longing for your affection and recognition I did my best but still it wasn't good enough Little did you know that I'm longing for you to find me again.

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The moment you broke and teared me down , you already lost me you lost me: in the midst of love and hate, joy and sorrow, prosperous and agony I'm your ragged doll and you played me like a ventriloquist did Your sweet tooth and tongue twisted lies swirl me under your words and promises Until I found myself lost inside your abyss world of fantasies You consumed me and left nothing but a hole of emptiness of everything that I used to have inside me Until I realized, that loving you is too much to bear I gave my world to you I allowed you to step in and take the wheel of my life but you let me drift away You lead me to your wants and needs You drowned me to your poisons, knowing that it'll **** me and you allowed that to happened Your selfishness, was my big eye opener Being dumb ascertained my innocent soul and mind Trapped in your manipulative fantasies I once was your slave and not anymore Now, I'm free from you Breathing purely Holding the wheel of my life again because finally I'm free from your chains incandescently happy without you.

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Feb 1, 2018

Feb 1, 2018 at 6:31 AM UTC

You lost me

The moment you broke and teared me down , you already lost me you lost me: in the midst of love and hate, joy and sorrow, prosperous and agony I'm your ragged doll and you played me like a ventriloquist did Your sweet tooth and tongue twisted lies swirl me under your words and promises Until I found myself lost inside your abyss world of fantasies You consumed me and left nothing but a hole of emptiness of everything that I used to have inside me Until I realized, that loving you is too much to bear I gave my world to you I allowed you to step in and take the wheel of my life but you let me drift away You lead me to your wants and needs You drowned me to your poisons, knowing that it'll **** me and you allowed that to happened Your selfishness, was my big eye opener Being dumb ascertained my innocent soul and mind Trapped in your manipulative fantasies I once was your slave and not anymore Now, I'm free from you Breathing purely Holding the wheel of my life again because finally I'm free from your chains incandescently happy without you.

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Caught the exact word right through her mouth My existence was no longer present through her eyes because I'm no less than a shadow to her. Little you know that you enlightened me with your light There's a demon inside me summoning my entity Forever be hiding in my shadows.

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Feb 1, 2018

Feb 1, 2018 at 6:30 AM UTC

Shadow

Caught the exact word right through her mouth My existence was no longer present through her eyes because I'm no less than a shadow to her. Little you know that you enlightened me with your light There's a demon inside me summoning my entity Forever be hiding in my shadows.

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I used to listen to your endless whines I used to swallow your curses I used to accept your blames I used to embrace your beats I used to all those things that I used to be, around you I follow you everywhere, like a dog wagging its tail but you never noticed me in the midst of this risks I'd given my all to you, even if you **** me inside You never acknowledge my good deeds You never appreciate my great efforts You never see me in between triumph and failure Because you never there at all, and I used to this.

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Feb 1, 2018

Feb 1, 2018 at 6:24 AM UTC

Used to this

I used to listen to your endless whines I used to swallow your curses I used to accept your blames I used to embrace your beats I used to all those things that I used to be, around you I follow you everywhere, like a dog wagging its tail but you never noticed me in the midst of this risks I'd given my all to you, even if you **** me inside You never acknowledge my good deeds You never appreciate my great efforts You never see me in between triumph and failure Because you never there at all, and I used to this.

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