it's like all the pain
and numbness
in you,
echos through me,
and I absorb all that,
until my heart
can't take it anymore
then I overflow
Aug 20, 2018
Aug 20, 2018 at 4:39 PM UTC
when it collapses,
it feels like the end of the world
but it felt like that so many times
and it hasn't ended
so I don't even fear anymore.
Aug 20, 2018
Aug 20, 2018 at 4:36 PM UTC
I think it's sad that
everyone sees and tells me
I'm special and extraordinary
and my own mom
can only tell me what
a horrible daughter and person I am
Aug 20, 2018
Aug 20, 2018 at 4:35 PM UTC
- you don't have to fear life and people so much. it'll be alright. you have to let go more in order to enjoy things.
- you don't have to be ashamed of yourself. don't live life up to people's expectations. everybody has flaws, you know? so it's okay to be weird.
- you have to take your chances. be bold. you'll be much happier when you do.
- try to talk more with people. surprise them. be spontaneous.
- don't take so long overthinking. just live, just feel.
- remember that you do not need anyone who doesn't need you.
- treat yourself with respect and demand that from others as well.
- don't be afraid to speak up.
- don't be so judgemental, ok? people are so much more than what they appear.
- value your family. they're the only thing you truly have.
- go out of your comfort zone. it'll make you grow.
- take your time to grow
- do not let fear stop you from doing what you want.
Jul 26, 2018
Jul 26, 2018 at 1:55 AM UTC
it hurts
when I talk about
my insecurities and feelings,
but I still do.
I shouldn't have to hide them,
should I?
but when I do open up
you act like they were a joke.
Hahaha,
ain't no fun.
Jul 9, 2018
Jul 9, 2018 at 4:15 PM UTC
they say you should
stick around the ones
that care for you
and put you first,
but what if you don't have
any of those?
what if you love too deeply
but not a single soul
seems to feel the same about you?
Jul 9, 2018
Jul 9, 2018 at 4:13 PM UTC
I don't know what happens
inside me.
It's all fine
but in a second
it ain't anymore.
A "little" unsteady.
I just feel too much happiness
or too much sadness
or nothing at all
Jul 9, 2018
Jul 9, 2018 at 4:10 PM UTC
You've been on your own
all your life
til the point you almost got used to it.
Used to the silence
to the cold crying nights
and the embrace of loneliness.
Still,
a little voice inside you screams for
something
someone
anyone
to tell you you're meaningful,
'cause it never felt like it
Jul 9, 2018
Jul 9, 2018 at 4:09 PM UTC
wish I could delete you
from my memory
and erase me from yours.
whish I could detach our past
and exclude this reality
in which we're apart
and not right for each other.
maybe if we met
another time and place
I wouldn't have ******* it up.
you would be free
and we could work it out.
Yes,
I still persist thinking
that someday there will be an us.
Jul 5, 2018
Jul 5, 2018 at 1:15 PM UTC
it's been eight months
eight ******* months
you two are dating
and my heart still races every time
i see you.
and I still get this overflowing feelings
I can't deal with.
why?
why can't I get over it?
why does it still feel so weird
and confusing?
why is it never ever completely
over for me
even though you've moved on?
Jun 30, 2018
Jun 30, 2018 at 9:48 PM UTC