justin-time - Hello Poetry

Anxiety Inside of me Never show Society Just be strong, keep moving Right along, it's your choosing To feel this way That's what they say But they don't know this feeling Twenty four seven my stomach is reeling And just before I thought of dissappearing Too bad there's no running Feel sad for what? Nothing I thought I was strong But it wasn't for long Bottled it up and now I'm broken up Can't even soak it up Lack of emotion and feel like exploding My ego's imploding, body's eroding So that's how I was Until I...found drugs

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Apr 18, 2015

Apr 18, 2015 at 6:06 PM UTC

Anxiaddiction

Anxiety Inside of me Never show Society Just be strong, keep moving Right along, it's your choosing To feel this way That's what they say But they don't know this feeling Twenty four seven my stomach is reeling And just before I thought of dissappearing Too bad there's no running Feel sad for what? Nothing I thought I was strong But it wasn't for long Bottled it up and now I'm broken up Can't even soak it up Lack of emotion and feel like exploding My ego's imploding, body's eroding So that's how I was Until I...found drugs

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No place to call home I faced on my own This cold world Taught me the hate we all know Brought me disgrace we've all chose To forget about, but I'd never pout Still, I remember and it's the cause of my endeavors Cause if in December, it was warmth to be remembered Then I wouldn't be the man who fights and writes this quite clever Never saying never I might feel less pleasure It's all the for the better Self made is an understatement I paved the pavement, Layed foundation On a lot that's vacant What have I created? A lot that they can't.

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Apr 18, 2015

Apr 18, 2015 at 5:52 PM UTC

Resilience

No place to call home I faced on my own This cold world Taught me the hate we all know Brought me disgrace we've all chose To forget about, but I'd never pout Still, I remember and it's the cause of my endeavors Cause if in December, it was warmth to be remembered Then I wouldn't be the man who fights and writes this quite clever Never saying never I might feel less pleasure It's all the for the better Self made is an understatement I paved the pavement, Layed foundation On a lot that's vacant What have I created? A lot that they can't.

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I'm on one Been trapped in a buzz for four or six months Since that I've pulled a few stunts My mind, opposite judgement of a nun's So I tend to act rugged when it comes I'm on one Zapped down by these side effects Trapped now, take benzos to alleviate More and more as the effects depreciate Good for a few hours But I need to finish this report, so I give myself powers Amphetamines by all means I had a dream once, but now I cant sleep Don't use guns, to do this damage to myself Going through funds to do this damage to myself I'm on one Is it worth it in the long run? I've Seen what happens and it isn't fun But how can I do this job without them Be out of water, desperate as a trout, man Aches and pains I think I have the gout man Take pain killers, the real brain killers I'm on one Tipping over while typing these words Tripping over how I got this net worth Incognito, reputation with the best first Wish I could reveal, but I'd have no appeal They'd think I went bananas See I no longer have the fun that I had before hand Gleam in the Rover like the sweat against my forehead Blasting AC on max, thinking about paying tax But I already am, my kidneys show the facts Because I'm on one

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Aug 20, 2014

Aug 20, 2014 at 1:49 AM UTC

On One

I'm on one Been trapped in a buzz for four or six months Since that I've pulled a few stunts My mind, opposite judgement of a nun's So I tend to act rugged when it comes I'm on one Zapped down by these side effects Trapped now, take benzos to alleviate More and more as the effects depreciate Good for a few hours But I need to finish this report, so I give myself powers Amphetamines by all means I had a dream once, but now I cant sleep Don't use guns, to do this damage to myself Going through funds to do this damage to myself I'm on one Is it worth it in the long run? I've Seen what happens and it isn't fun But how can I do this job without them Be out of water, desperate as a trout, man Aches and pains I think I have the gout man Take pain killers, the real brain killers I'm on one Tipping over while typing these words Tripping over how I got this net worth Incognito, reputation with the best first Wish I could reveal, but I'd have no appeal They'd think I went bananas See I no longer have the fun that I had before hand Gleam in the Rover like the sweat against my forehead Blasting AC on max, thinking about paying tax But I already am, my kidneys show the facts Because I'm on one

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Another Sunday, time to recover From all the drugs, my only lover Take my B vitamins to start the circulation With some fish oils to reduce inflammation Most importantly, are my amino acids Because of that I've been flushed So now I replenish these masses The benzos are the only drugs that get touched So addicted to them, so I know it's a must If a doctor read this, he'd understand my logic But if a doctor read this, he'd command me to stop it As I continue my day with my normal acting mind I realize I'm a slave to drugs, all the time But I'm financially flourished The whole family I nourish And after reading these poems, I feel some people get jealous Who would follow me? They know my soul I had sold it I always follow back, I'm not a bad guy Now sit on top of that, I'm not living a lie I could really care less about it It's just an alias, and a therapeutic outlet Just another Sunday Glad you read about it

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Aug 3, 2014

Aug 3, 2014 at 1:28 PM UTC

Another Sunday

Another Sunday, time to recover From all the drugs, my only lover Take my B vitamins to start the circulation With some fish oils to reduce inflammation Most importantly, are my amino acids Because of that I've been flushed So now I replenish these masses The benzos are the only drugs that get touched So addicted to them, so I know it's a must If a doctor read this, he'd understand my logic But if a doctor read this, he'd command me to stop it As I continue my day with my normal acting mind I realize I'm a slave to drugs, all the time But I'm financially flourished The whole family I nourish And after reading these poems, I feel some people get jealous Who would follow me? They know my soul I had sold it I always follow back, I'm not a bad guy Now sit on top of that, I'm not living a lie I could really care less about it It's just an alias, and a therapeutic outlet Just another Sunday Glad you read about it

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You can buy your way out of anything In my supply you'll see I take everything But in this poem I won't talk about pills On my own, my dreams I fulfilled Mesmerized by green paper at a young age No surprise, planned to be a doctor by a certian age I mean, I always wanted to help people Until one day, I let a women turn me evil So my personality obtained a sequel No remorse, doing everything illegal A different course, had to find my own kind Now of course, the stock exchange was in my mind Ever since she cheated on me My main goal was to achieve luxury Brown nosed those who I perceived under me Clown nosed them as I put them under me Now I'm at the very top My name, can't even drop Destroy my reputation? Rather be a vegetation Money is freedom That saying, incredibly dumb Have to write with a brown bag on my face Drug addicted boss looks like a disgrace Trapped behind golden bars I wish I could say more But all this...for that lame *****

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Aug 1, 2014

Aug 1, 2014 at 7:17 PM UTC

Money is Freedom

You can buy your way out of anything In my supply you'll see I take everything But in this poem I won't talk about pills On my own, my dreams I fulfilled Mesmerized by green paper at a young age No surprise, planned to be a doctor by a certian age I mean, I always wanted to help people Until one day, I let a women turn me evil So my personality obtained a sequel No remorse, doing everything illegal A different course, had to find my own kind Now of course, the stock exchange was in my mind Ever since she cheated on me My main goal was to achieve luxury Brown nosed those who I perceived under me Clown nosed them as I put them under me Now I'm at the very top My name, can't even drop Destroy my reputation? Rather be a vegetation Money is freedom That saying, incredibly dumb Have to write with a brown bag on my face Drug addicted boss looks like a disgrace Trapped behind golden bars I wish I could say more But all this...for that lame *****

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Wake-up with the pill bottle next to me Other side is the girl that had *** with me I know she doesn't love me I just flaunt some of the money Then they wanna come see Get out of bed when they start to kick in So amazed how I got all these prescriptions Pill caddy because today I'm on a mission Driver is out front Time to put on the front Get to the office, bursts of motivation See my partner do it-with no medication But things are fine, no reason to whine I got it all But when I define all, it's where I fall Money, drugs, mansion And no hugs from a honey or some laughing Who will I share it with? My computer I just stare at it Give my tasks to my secretary Because, that's why I pay you, Sheree I'm just the founder With a bold face to motivate No more brown nosing See, now they brown nose me But as the clock hits four PM Look at all our profits, yeah I see them Time for my downers so I can mellow out All the guilt, time to throw it out Let's go out, Sheree She says yes, not to me...but to the money Yeah I admit it kinda hurts... But its all in, A Day's Work

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Aug 1, 2014

Aug 1, 2014 at 7:21 AM UTC

All in a day's work

Wake-up with the pill bottle next to me Other side is the girl that had *** with me I know she doesn't love me I just flaunt some of the money Then they wanna come see Get out of bed when they start to kick in So amazed how I got all these prescriptions Pill caddy because today I'm on a mission Driver is out front Time to put on the front Get to the office, bursts of motivation See my partner do it-with no medication But things are fine, no reason to whine I got it all But when I define all, it's where I fall Money, drugs, mansion And no hugs from a honey or some laughing Who will I share it with? My computer I just stare at it Give my tasks to my secretary Because, that's why I pay you, Sheree I'm just the founder With a bold face to motivate No more brown nosing See, now they brown nose me But as the clock hits four PM Look at all our profits, yeah I see them Time for my downers so I can mellow out All the guilt, time to throw it out Let's go out, Sheree She says yes, not to me...but to the money Yeah I admit it kinda hurts... But its all in, A Day's Work

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What doesn't **** me makes me stronger That which kills me, is what I long for We're all trying to maintain But I feel I'll never abstain Rid the pain, make it rain I'll prove it with one-eighty proof Bulletproof liquid Even better when I mix it... Yellow, green, and blue I pop to change my moods Try to control emotion It's my own secret potion Sink into the couch Grab some lotion The lonely stoner Trapped in his mind tonight Trapped in his mind tonight Wasn't awake for her wake His days and nights are mixed Her funeral he missed Time for another fix...

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Jul 31, 2014

Jul 31, 2014 at 1:47 PM UTC

What Kills Me

What doesn't **** me makes me stronger That which kills me, is what I long for We're all trying to maintain But I feel I'll never abstain Rid the pain, make it rain I'll prove it with one-eighty proof Bulletproof liquid Even better when I mix it... Yellow, green, and blue I pop to change my moods Try to control emotion It's my own secret potion Sink into the couch Grab some lotion The lonely stoner Trapped in his mind tonight Trapped in his mind tonight Wasn't awake for her wake His days and nights are mixed Her funeral he missed Time for another fix...

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You can have All that you dream Said my dad Eyes opening From that moment A ****** for lust Was my main component Wealth was a must No one to trust Hated everyone, except green faces I guess I had become a racist Skate through class, got a degree But only thought of luxury Traded all my friendships For full time internships As you work your way up the latter Money becomes all that matters Bank account high, seven digits Before my age was five times six But how can you flaunt it to your **** list When you lack time to even spend it? So confined, in this concrete jungle No love of mine, I'd ever stumble Trapped within the US dollar Perhaps I shouldn't have even bothered But now I wear the golden handcuffs Without a key, I try to stand tough If I was poor, I'd be less happy Another round, and make it snappy Drown myself in fine wine And crown myself after I snort my line Set the alarm and sink to bed I wish I couldeve seen ahead I wish my father would have told me Zeros and commas, can make you lonely.

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Jul 30, 2014

Jul 30, 2014 at 4:16 AM UTC

Being Rich

You can have All that you dream Said my dad Eyes opening From that moment A ****** for lust Was my main component Wealth was a must No one to trust Hated everyone, except green faces I guess I had become a racist Skate through class, got a degree But only thought of luxury Traded all my friendships For full time internships As you work your way up the latter Money becomes all that matters Bank account high, seven digits Before my age was five times six But how can you flaunt it to your **** list When you lack time to even spend it? So confined, in this concrete jungle No love of mine, I'd ever stumble Trapped within the US dollar Perhaps I shouldn't have even bothered But now I wear the golden handcuffs Without a key, I try to stand tough If I was poor, I'd be less happy Another round, and make it snappy Drown myself in fine wine And crown myself after I snort my line Set the alarm and sink to bed I wish I couldeve seen ahead I wish my father would have told me Zeros and commas, can make you lonely.

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Twelve hours now, stuck in bed Last night's memories, stuck in my head Twelve pills in, my heart was racing Thinking of, the girl for chasing She was once mine, until I ruined it Drugs and money, my soul consumed it Twelve times two, how many months with you Our life I drew, but traded drugs for you When you left me, I craved success I got it all, you moved on to another I gave you more, he gave you less I took a pill, then popped another Head full of thoughts Bed full of memories See money talks It gets my remedies Two times twelve, how much I popped Into my bed, my body dropped See, all my remedies Land me into memories

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Jul 29, 2014

Jul 29, 2014 at 4:26 PM UTC

Stuck in Bed

Twelve hours now, stuck in bed Last night's memories, stuck in my head Twelve pills in, my heart was racing Thinking of, the girl for chasing She was once mine, until I ruined it Drugs and money, my soul consumed it Twelve times two, how many months with you Our life I drew, but traded drugs for you When you left me, I craved success I got it all, you moved on to another I gave you more, he gave you less I took a pill, then popped another Head full of thoughts Bed full of memories See money talks It gets my remedies Two times twelve, how much I popped Into my bed, my body dropped See, all my remedies Land me into memories

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One day at a time My Mom's the strongest At alcoholics annonimous One day at a time I count my pills Doctor hopping prevents the chills They keep her going Her AA peers Four months in, without a beer They keep me going Addies, I'm wide awake Kolonopin, come reduce my shakes So proud of you As I look in her eyes New innocence within her mind So proud of you Her oldest son Living lie, I am one Can't sit still, feelings overflowing I grab a pill, my cravings growing Trick all my doctors with false symptoms Just to control my nervous system They say life has ups and downs When I'm down, I pop some ups Pop the downs when my heart erupts My morals gone, I am corrupt One day at a time Made that motto evil One day at a time Countdown to my refills

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Jul 27, 2014

Jul 27, 2014 at 3:54 AM UTC

Refill

One day at a time My Mom's the strongest At alcoholics annonimous One day at a time I count my pills Doctor hopping prevents the chills They keep her going Her AA peers Four months in, without a beer They keep me going Addies, I'm wide awake Kolonopin, come reduce my shakes So proud of you As I look in her eyes New innocence within her mind So proud of you Her oldest son Living lie, I am one Can't sit still, feelings overflowing I grab a pill, my cravings growing Trick all my doctors with false symptoms Just to control my nervous system They say life has ups and downs When I'm down, I pop some ups Pop the downs when my heart erupts My morals gone, I am corrupt One day at a time Made that motto evil One day at a time Countdown to my refills

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