you have stars in your eyes
but i am only the night sky
so far from your reach
i am always denied
Jul 26, 2020
Jul 26, 2020 at 1:57 PM UTC
i wish i had
a way with words
to make you glad
and never hurt
when autumn leaves
cut through my arms
you were there
to heal my heart
infinity
and heartfelt smiles
you should know
you saved my life
i wish i could
help you see
just how much
you mean to me
Jul 26, 2020
Jul 26, 2020 at 1:55 PM UTC
in crowded rooms
and narrow halls
i've never felt
like i belong
i stare off
into the midst
of chattering people
that still feel bliss
i can't see
i can't hear
they tap my shoulder
but i'm no longer here
because it's dark now
i know you're gone
but i was right
and you were wrong
there is no place for me
there is no home
that's why i
should be alone
May 23, 2020
May 23, 2020 at 6:21 PM UTC
i want loneliness and freedom
but i still want to be loved
i'm unhappy and i'm unkind
but happy is something i never was
caught myself in my own arms
since nobody could handle the burden
of all my sorrow and my fears
it feels like i'm the only one hurting
May 23, 2020
May 23, 2020 at 5:54 PM UTC
i'm sad. but it's okay
i was sad yesterday
and i'll be sad tomorrow
but there's nobody here to see it
nobody to talk to
i'm crying. but it's okay
i cried yesterday
and i'll certainly cry tomorrow
but nobody will wipe away the tears
staining my dull face
i'm alone. but it's okay
i was alone yesterday
and i'll be alone tomorrow
but sometimes i'm trapped in dreams
wishing it wasn't so
May 23, 2020
May 23, 2020 at 5:51 PM UTC
i went outside today
hoping to feel something
i don't think the world
could ever be lovely
stuck inside my room
isn't all that bad
until i realized
how everything makes me sad
i don't want to see anymore
i don't want to talk
every time i try
i'm left alone in the dark
May 23, 2020
May 23, 2020 at 5:48 PM UTC
i want to be pretty
i want to be thin
i want to be
only bones and skin
i want people to worry
when i walk by
i want people to wonder
how i'm still alive
i don't eat for six days
and feel guilty on the seventh
i purge for three more
and binge on the eleventh
i wish you would worry
i wish you would care
if you don't, one day
you won't see me there
i'll die of starvation
messed up, insane, wrong
but you won't even notice
that i am long gone
Feb 3, 2020
Feb 3, 2020 at 4:55 PM UTC
i wish you would
miss me
i wish you would
kiss me
i need you to
miss me
i need you to
kiss me
Jan 28, 2020
Jan 28, 2020 at 4:41 AM UTC
i am not religious
and somehow i attract
sinners
that string me along
and break my heart
knowing that i'll
forgive them
because i don't deserve
love at all
so i cling desperately
to anybody who shows me
any affection at all
even though
they lie to me
they defile me
they cheat on me
and then apologize
they were drunk
they weren't thinking straight
they never really loved me anyway
and i take in
these broken people
and nurture them
until they're healed enough
to turn their backs on me
but who is going to
save me?
while they run off with my friend
or somebody much better than me
i am left to pick up the pieces
of my own shattered heart
and they come back to say
they still love me
but i don't trust anyone
anymore
and i walk away
somehow
i end up being
the villian
and blamed for playing the
victim
and so i'd say
to those who have wronged me -
**** you
Jan 28, 2020
Jan 28, 2020 at 4:35 AM UTC
i wish
i could tell you
i wish
i could hold you
i wish
i could kiss you
i wish
i could love you
openly
Jan 28, 2020
Jan 28, 2020 at 4:29 AM UTC