Grows.
It does, all the time
Outwardly
Refusing inward growth – not gladly
Preventing self-nourishment – a crime
That, and shifts and turns into cycle;
**Infinite and self sufficient
Destructive
A singularity most proficient**
...
Paradoxical, tormenting, intrinsic
Dissonant but harmonic! The madness of an eternal philharmonic!
...
Yea, it grows
**Love,
Desire, or is it a need?**
Nov 5, 2014
Nov 5, 2014 at 7:40 PM UTC
what is Yesterday, but just memories?
memories, yet I feel the pain
but pain reminds me I am still alive
and death I am still to attain.
Today will become, once again,
the memories of tomorrow's dawn.
I learned to endure the pain
and I know tomorrow's dawn
will be a new fight to attain
victory over my old haunt.
May 4, 2014
May 4, 2014 at 11:11 PM UTC
It is cold. Through the days I found myself loathing that object of mechanical functioning, but never looked upon it with disregard. The grip is truly comfortable; the grip and its metallic curves fit my hand and its fingers...just fine. Once again, I summoned it and, without making use of it, I left it there. There, the place where it should never be taken from.
Oct 7, 2013
Oct 7, 2013 at 9:46 PM UTC
What is it?
What is it about? Maybe it's about nothing, it has no meaning.
But it is felt. It exists and it is real. Why? Because it is there.
What is this?
It is in the brain, in the chest, in the stomach.
It feels like an impending explosion.
It is a source of suffering. And it is a source of joy.
Alone, it is the ugliest thing that can ever be felt. With someone, the highest thing that can ever be felt.
What is this?
"Love"?
That word, that overused cliche of human beings? Is this it?
Well. I feel i love her. But I never thought or even imagined that love would come like this, that it existed, that I could feel it.
It is new to me. And it is killing me, but it is keeping me alive.
Alone, but I have a desire of being with her. Obviously.
Why? Why now? Like this?
Why not a year ago? When she used to like me...it would have been easier, way easier.
Irony. Turns things around. Mischievous. Why?
Why?
Love. Is it?
Let me tell you:
I hate not being with her. I hate knowing she won't be with me. I hate knowing I can't be the guy in her pictures; that someone else is.
I love her. Her voice, her big, black, beautiful eyes, her lovely ears which she doesn't like, her nice nose, her little mouth, her soft cheeks, her long black hair.
I love how she laughs, how she dances even when there's not music playing, how she says I have no cheeks, how she laughs when I tickle her feet.
Well I just used the word love too much. And hate. They both are together, they explain what I feel.
This is awful. Just horrible.
I am her friend. "Loves" me like that.
Just horrible.
Oct 7, 2013
Oct 7, 2013 at 9:38 PM UTC
Tormented by his past
And by his open mind
This sad and tired young man
Did try at last and fast
To escape from real life.
Death of young sibling,
Elder brother’s absence,
Gore and agony
Experienced in the past
From a boy who jumped at last.
This is the basic background
Of Holden’s dreadful past
And he of twisted mind
He who feels hopeless
Holden is crying in the inside.
Children game recalled
The Catcher in the Rye
Wishing he was the one
Children’s worriless lives
When everything was alright.
Mar 5, 2013
Mar 5, 2013 at 9:22 PM UTC
They have been wandering
For they have been said.
Those words;
Six, and treacherous
Of nature
From his mouth;
Galloping, flying,
With the traits of the locusts
Which fast they come;
Fast they go
Leaving the trace but nothing more,
Of what it was
And is no more;
Flaming, spoken unto me
Six words flooding into me
Devoured from me all sanity.
All that remained...
Now, no more.
May 11, 2012
May 11, 2012 at 10:28 PM UTC
*It's time
To leave,
My friend.
Your time
To live
Is gone
Today*
May 6, 2012
May 6, 2012 at 7:05 PM UTC
Walking down the stairs
Going
Keep going as far as it gets
Not knowing
Not knowing where
Not knowing why
I must get down there
After I died
Warmer
It's getting warmer
And the smoke
Won't let me see
The source of the screams
I hear ahead
As I am getting closer
To the last step,
Which will be no longer,
I know for sure
The place down there;
For it has a name
After all
And its name is Hell
I take a stand at the edge
Of the threshold bright
My will o'er the crimson ledge,
My heart desires to abide,
As a leap of faith;
A leap of justice
*For all my bad deeds,
Today I pay the bill;
Eternally destined to redeem,
My soul starts to shrill.*
May 4, 2012
May 4, 2012 at 8:02 PM UTC