And here it comes again
The lack of breath
Cold fingers
Blurry thoughts
Even if I know I shouldn’t feel like it.
I do.
It’s not an obvious jealously, though.
It’s a terrifying thought of loosing all definitions of love.
All over again.
I’m so afraid I want to run away.
And maybe disappearing is a solution.
After all, if I won’t be here, the love will be just paused, not dead.
It will wait for my return.
You, with a dozen of roses and a soft smile.
Me, healed, ready for a new start.
Mar 22, 2024
Mar 22, 2024 at 5:53 PM UTC
Why did I want to stay close to you so desperately?
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Because we got addicted to things that are bad for us.
Jan 10, 2018
Jan 10, 2018 at 11:29 AM UTC
The way we go
It's so calm
The life goes on
The time stops
We are constantly trying to find peace, love, happiness
Now I know - You can't find it, Let it go
Look around and enjoy
The life is here not there
Today not tomorrow
Don't waste your time
Smile, laugh and walk
Enjoy the way we go
Jan 10, 2018
Jan 10, 2018 at 11:06 AM UTC
If one day
Far or further in the future
I will be able to love him
At least half like I loved you
I will be happiest girl alive
Dec 10, 2017
Dec 10, 2017 at 4:18 PM UTC
First LOVE
was my imagination
very fine worlds creation
yesterday for ever
today NEVER
Dec 10, 2017
Dec 10, 2017 at 4:12 PM UTC
You saw me cry and ask
Would you like some coffee?
And with every next sip
Of black, bitter coffee
I was forgetting him
And making space for you
Jun 25, 2017
Jun 25, 2017 at 12:25 PM UTC
Just because I seem strong doesn’t mean I can be left all by myself.
Just because I wasn’t crying doesn’t mean I didn’t care.
Just because I wasn’t writing you doesn’t mean I didn’t want to talk
Just because I left doesn’t mean I didn’t want to stay
When I say it’s okey, it wasn’t, can you finally get it?
How could you take your soul away from me?
Leaving me with empty whole
That hurts every morning
Was it love if I’m so replaceable?
Just because I seem strong, doesn’t mean I will survive your lost.
Jun 23, 2017
Jun 23, 2017 at 1:59 PM UTC
Oatmeal
Biking
University
We'll
be hiking
to diversity
Smoking
Dreaming
Bitter coffee
Provoking
meeting
little bit cocky
Sunset
Despairing
Apart
Brunette
mystifying
her heart
Jun 23, 2017
Jun 23, 2017 at 7:21 AM UTC
Dear Soulmate,
Today is Valentines day. Our first one apart. I guess forever didn’t last so long... Normally I would write you personally, but you see my love, Valentines day is for lovers, not the memory of them or even love, that is still in the cage of my heart. On this special day you have someone new to celebrate with – I bet she is a very lovely girl.
Our time has finished and I accepted it. But I have to be honest too. That’s why I write this letter. The letter I will never send you, because I want you to be happy, even if it’s with her, not me.
Anyway, on Valentines day and yesterday, maybe tomorrow, maybe in a year – I want to tell you – I love you. As simple as it. You were my first love, the one you never forget.
I hope one day we will finally be on the same stage of our relationship – as a couple or just as friends. Because before you loved me too much, while now I have to accept you in someone else arms.
Jun 12, 2017
Jun 12, 2017 at 6:56 PM UTC
We went through a lot
We had ups
And we had downs
WE FOUND LOVE
But what is it?
Is it pain?
Is it happiness?
I scream
I let myself hurt you
why?
there is no answer
and there is million answers
I can control myself
And I can keep all inside
For many many months
And then it’s bad
It’s so ******* rough for so long
But then I meet you
And everything is fine
You love me, I love you
We hold each others hands
We feed each others souls
But then you leave me again
And I guess I can’t handle it
So I let myself hurt you
Killing my soul
Giving away my body
Destroying what I care about the most
Removing the pain with bigger pain
Jun 12, 2017
Jun 12, 2017 at 2:52 PM UTC