tell me what you're scared of, baby!
don't call me that
why are you so quiet?
no need to whisper!
i am screaming, you are just not listening
who burnt those marks on you soul, sweetheart?
i am not your sweetheart
why so upset? does it hurt when i put my finger there?
**** you for saying that
why would i ever want to hurt you?
because you like to see me suffer
is that what you want, suffering?
of course not
why hurt yourself then?
it wasn't me
then who was it?
don't ask that ******* question
less cussing, more loving!
just tell me what you want
i want you to be happy, honey!
i am as happy as can be
you are lying to yourself!
shut up and let me be
if only i could, baby girl!
but you won't let me go!
i want you to leave, please
with you every second of every god **** day
until you give me answers, angel!
Feb 22, 2023
Feb 22, 2023 at 5:33 PM UTC
she is not the person you want
she will never be
even less so what you need
or think you need at least
she is chaos
just like you
don't fool yourself though
two negatives don't cancel each other out
your jokes make her laugh, happy as can be
a moment of plain thought passes
they drive her up the roof
you want too much
she can't give it to you
you expact too much
she shys away from you
you tell her to do what she wants
but she doesn't understand the meaning of those words
she feels duty and responsibility
not just to herself
she cries, changes her mind, all smiles
while you talk like there is no tomorrow
you think she is upset
when really there are just a million thoughts behind her eyes racing one another, nowhere to go, nowhere to be, nowhere to hide
she cannot be nice to you
don't you understand?
she cannot be kind to you
don't you get why?
you want it all from her
but she can only give you pieces, small and broken
there is no whole left to give
Feb 22, 2023
Feb 22, 2023 at 5:30 PM UTC
it was nothing like i had expected
but of course not
it was less
less dramatic, less emotional, less draining
your car came to a halt
you casually leaned out of the window
"jump in"
as if we had just seen each other yesterday
two years came to feel like two days
and i was relieved
relieved to know that you are real
we didn't fight, we didn't cry
we were just us again for three breaths
i have missed you, my friend
it was the perfect end
Jan 13, 2022
Jan 13, 2022 at 9:47 AM UTC
everytime i think i have finally arrived
found happiness
in the empty, hot desert
found some shade to rest in
midday comes
the sun shining bright and hot from above
no place to hide
nowhere to escape to
Jul 7, 2021
Jul 7, 2021 at 6:42 AM UTC
i was searching for the moon
the one you've been staring at
but i ain't waiting for the moonlight
because i'd rather see what's on the other side
Jun 13, 2021
Jun 13, 2021 at 12:10 PM UTC
tomorrow will come
today i need more, so much more
today i want to hold on to you
smell the sweet smokey scent of your hair
as the softness of your lips mixes with the goosebumps on my neck
today i don't want to forget
focus on you, just you
laughing away my past and future
injecting fear with every word
tomorrow will come
the return to my daily hell
of scraping you off my skin
Mar 23, 2021
Mar 23, 2021 at 1:44 PM UTC
“i loved you a little“
a little bit of madness
a little bit of sadness
a little bit of life
a whole lot of you
Feb 28, 2021
Feb 28, 2021 at 6:13 AM UTC
three small words
the first time
i felt sick
could not believe
never heard before
never felt before
called you foolish
but only after
did i understand
your painful truth
people always leave
and so did you
Feb 1, 2021
Feb 1, 2021 at 4:49 PM UTC
i have this picture in my head
unrealistic
of me returning
to the place where it started
breathtaking fall colors
as if i had never left
of me dialing
hands shaking
i hear your voice
have counted the days i didn't
"i'm back"
Nov 19, 2020
Nov 19, 2020 at 10:05 AM UTC