joe-allay
Indian
As much as we need an air to live... writing is also an air for me to live..., / its the way of expressing myself to this world and the way i vent my pain and loneliness to this world. It gave me the freedom to live and to the will to live more and made my pain worthwhile... / / I've been writing for quite a while now. But my writings were too vulgar, brutal and demonic, so after battling my life though the woods of pain, anger and loneliness I came to realize that by writing those ain't gonna ring the freedom bell. / / My writings are based on my experiences in this barren land of thirst and hunger. They are real to me and that is why I am still alive.Coz I still have a reason to live, to tell the world that after pain there will be joy and thats how life is."Pain always defines freedom". Peace..
If i die tomorrow
Do remember me not
Shed no tear for a broken soul
I wish to be apart of you
I gave you my all
But i die alone
Please don't step on my grave
I don't deserve your shadow
Not in my lifetime
Not in afterlife
My spirit will carry on
But will not hunt you down
Live your life forgetting i ever exist
Thats the last thing i have for you.
Sep 16, 2019
Sep 16, 2019 at 12:32 PM UTC
Let's pretend we're lovers tonight
Hold me close and be mine
Things I would've said but not done
Yesterday's gone... today we're late
Mysteries in our heart
That hurts us both
Wish yesterday again
Won't be late to show you all
Won't die like today I am
Differences, lets keep it for now
Complications, lets leave it all behind
Coz, tonight I'm yours
Don't think about tomorrow
Let the night decide
And be who we are......
Feb 7, 2013
Feb 7, 2013 at 1:01 PM UTC
Bury your fears, and let it go..
don't hold back, catch the blowing winds and ride towards the sun..
let the pain strengthen your soul..
hold on to the train of your faith...
Leave the past coz its not worth regretin' to drag you down from the beauty of this life...
take a breath and fly like an eagle spreading thy wings to reach the freedom bell...
coz in the end ...what you believe is what you get...
Jan 16, 2012
Jan 16, 2012 at 11:38 AM UTC
If Im ever going to let you go,
I will bury all the pain we had,
The places we've been,
The laughter and all the joy,
The rising sun and the enduring rain across our lives.
The sound of love in our hearts,
The sound of your name written in my heart,
The stars that we paint under the lovers moon,
the cry of love ringing in my ears...
And most of all...
I'd rather leave this life and free myself from the pain which will
never be the same again.
i miss you.. wish we could be together.
Dec 6, 2011
Dec 6, 2011 at 9:32 AM UTC
Sometimes when you feel alone
Someday that I have to go
Not Through my hands
You can't keep looking down
All the things that we have done
Coz I'll be gone someday
To the land of no return
Don't you drop a tear and drown
Close the old chapter
Face the world as it is
Coz I won't come back home
This is a world of loneliness
All the pain that arise
I can't keep this on
To the front door
And now
Don't cry for me till the day
I'm going home to the land of the angels
Burry all my past, leave it all behind
Don't you think of me
Coz I'll be gone to the land of no return
You will never see me
Lying next to you
But I'll always be there
Guiding you right through
So, don't you cry anymore
Burry all the past
Leave behind the times
That ain't gonna help
There'll be times when you feel cold
Holding down what you got
But always remember that
I'm always there with you
My spirit will guide you through
Leading you off the cold
Nov 22, 2011
Nov 22, 2011 at 10:28 AM UTC
Would you help me if I fall
Would you rise when I drown
Will the words of silence be broken
The life that were never lived
Will it be worth fighting for
Is it worth dying for a reason?
Or living for a reason?
The things which you've sacrificed for
Will they be realised tomorrow
The pain that you bore
The life that you've craved for
Will this life let you live
Is there life after death
Or will they burry you with your dreams
When the life you dreamt of
Got drained off with the pouring rain
Will it be worth steping on it again
Or what if you fade away with shame.
They said that life is a test
But what if you don't realise it before the sun rise
If the changing seasons leave me behind
Will love be a lie
Will dying be for living
But no one told me the fact
When the soul departs
Is there heaven or hell??
Why some have to grief out this world of sorrow.
Hope the shooting star will leed me to my home.
Nov 10, 2011
Nov 10, 2011 at 2:19 PM UTC
The scorching sun on the bare willow
Under the naked sky in the open world of cry
The silence inside the livid soul
The agony of the past left back
The blood no more bore the pain
Changing weather left it all behind
Cold spine stretched out the flesh
Not a face in the mirror
All left blank and dumb
Crawling for the life to set it free
The darkness descending on the tombstone
Reminds only of the life in pain
All those lies I've put myself unto
All those days counting down the sun
I find no place to rest my soul
I wonder, were they all a part of me
Or am I just letting this life to be miserable
Though the world was beautiful when I owned it
But when it owned me
No flowers to bloom in this life of thirst
The clutches of this world never let me go
Freedom from the agony and pain
Life without remorse
A pure drop of water
A clear blue sky with the lark's spreading the spirit of life
A touch of love
The wings of an eagle catching the winds
The joy in the eye of a child
The smile from a blind man
Were all what I long for from this hollow soul of loneliness.
Jul 27, 2011
Jul 27, 2011 at 10:21 AM UTC
look around you,
and feel the air in the breeze,
filled with the freedom of a 1000 years.
dismay and pain that your soul bore,
leave them to the blowing winds,
turn around and welcome the life you've dreamt.
life that you've never known,
life that you've dreamt of, for a million years.
just a step ahead,
count the life you've lived,
sorrow or fullness,
its the choice that you made.
rainy days on your left,
but the sun ain't far away,
reach for the light from the corner of your heart,
hidden, forgotten for ages of time.
your life, written in the books of fear
fear of the unknown,
that put you away from the bell to ring.
just a step away from a 100 miles your on.
choice are yours.
striving for the life,
scared to leap further,
read the people ahead,
can you just hold back,
carrying your miseries to the promise land.
fade away those endless nightmares,
slaggin' you back to lose,
no time to wonder why,
this life's too short to end this way.
waiting for the right time,
but it will end before your time is true.
the clutches you put on,
hang them over to the bars of this reckless world of cry.
coz in the end,
its how you play in this barren land of loneliness,pain and sorrow.
Jul 26, 2011
Jul 26, 2011 at 6:49 AM UTC
A paper in black
Filled with a pen, pouring out the pain.
The cry of a thousand years
The warmth of this life
No more stretched into the spine.
Dried leaves on the ground with no life to give,
The desperate cry leaves you with a deaf ear.
You search and cry
But you won't see through the other side
The lies of this life will fade you away
When emotions torn out this life
Tried to run but ain't that easy
Only to loose yourself and crumble down on your knees again.
I couldn't face it just I know that I can't take it anymore
Free like the water; but life is like a water at the palm of your hand
They say that everything have a reason
Will it be worth living waiting for the reason
But what if I rest my soul and never know the reason
I'm a prisoner of myself
Jul 19, 2011
Jul 19, 2011 at 11:18 AM UTC
Walking through the dark clouds of emptiness,
I gazed upon the stars in the sky
High up in the air, when my life was drifted away,
Far away from this world of sorrow
To the place I've never known.
There I saw a women in tears,
With her knees on the floor
And her hair hanging down her shoulder.
Her eyes filled with pain and the fear inside,
The agony from her face,
The fear from her weak body,
The cry from her heart,which were never heard.
The blood she shed, were all dried
Which were never felt.
Not knowing what my heart bleed for,
I face myself to the mirror.
Nothing more do I saw
Then the emptiness out of me,
The thirst for what was not known.
A knight with a broken soul.
An angel in dispair.
The lies behind the thruth.
Faith that were trounce
Eroded by the seasons of life.
The fear which were never known.
The strength which betrayed the mind.
I heard a drop of water from a distant
When i drift my mind off the soul.
Nearer when I face
Fainting, do the sound gets.
My eyes were folded from the light to gain.
The weakness I hate,
Are now my strength to acquiant me which were never known.
I cut of my sight to gain the light.
But the dops were still apart, waiting for a life to hold them.
The love that were departed
Were only what my hate cries for.
Then my soul was given back to me.
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Jul 18, 2011
Jul 18, 2011 at 12:05 PM UTC