jocelynkay - Hello Poetry

It was a time of great misery Ashes choked the air The kingdom is burning they screamed The general was slain, caught unaware The sights were grotesque, frightening Rubble and mangled bodies everywhere Crying children, their voices disappearing abruptly one by one Debris gleaming gold in the harsh glaring sun They looked like demons, covered in crimson Horned helmets and heavy axes The very ground trembling at the bloodlust they had unleashed The destruction they had visited, upon this once beautiful land Let me take you by the hand Lead you through the tale Of this nation’s last stand And how it came to be for naught

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Oct 27, 2018

Oct 27, 2018 at 9:16 AM UTC

Part 1

It was a time of great misery Ashes choked the air The kingdom is burning they screamed The general was slain, caught unaware The sights were grotesque, frightening Rubble and mangled bodies everywhere Crying children, their voices disappearing abruptly one by one Debris gleaming gold in the harsh glaring sun They looked like demons, covered in crimson Horned helmets and heavy axes The very ground trembling at the bloodlust they had unleashed The destruction they had visited, upon this once beautiful land Let me take you by the hand Lead you through the tale Of this nation’s last stand And how it came to be for naught

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Have I fallen to this extent Has this consumed me too far This wasn’t my intent I just wanted to show you the brightest stars But I broke your heart And now mine feels like it has too I wanted to escape This world, this reality This reality in which we can’t be together anymore I’ve been keeping score Of all my sins, all my failings, all the things I did I don’t need to write them, the memories are vivid, And devastating They torment me every day I miss you in every single way The way you smiled, the way you sang and the way you teased The way you would sulk when you weren’t really pleased The way you shined, the way you walked, the way you made my heart stop Tis a cruel thing memory No escape, no release And so I try and forget In any way I can I drink, I travel and I wait For those times to fade Wounds of the flesh heal over time, But heartbreak only gets worse Am I shackled by my own chains? Do you feel the same way? Do we both regret that time gone past and that The spaces between us have never seemed so vast I wait for a sign, A sign that you could again be mine

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Oct 26, 2018

Oct 26, 2018 at 8:01 AM UTC

It doesn't fade

Have I fallen to this extent Has this consumed me too far This wasn’t my intent I just wanted to show you the brightest stars But I broke your heart And now mine feels like it has too I wanted to escape This world, this reality This reality in which we can’t be together anymore I’ve been keeping score Of all my sins, all my failings, all the things I did I don’t need to write them, the memories are vivid, And devastating They torment me every day I miss you in every single way The way you smiled, the way you sang and the way you teased The way you would sulk when you weren’t really pleased The way you shined, the way you walked, the way you made my heart stop Tis a cruel thing memory No escape, no release And so I try and forget In any way I can I drink, I travel and I wait For those times to fade Wounds of the flesh heal over time, But heartbreak only gets worse Am I shackled by my own chains? Do you feel the same way? Do we both regret that time gone past and that The spaces between us have never seemed so vast I wait for a sign, A sign that you could again be mine

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Do you see The wonder in this life Even if it has its pitfalls Deep and unsavoury Isn't the feeling in your stomach a sign you're alive? That racing thrill That sweet sweet pleasure The first sip of tea in the morning The last ray of shine before night And yet Despite these wonders Despite my desires I cannot find it in me to be happy I am distracted My thoughts return only to you and how we cannot be I drift in this glorious yet unforgiving sea Will my love forever be a secret Will I always clutch my heart in regret As I think of what could have been The sights we would have seen I want to be the shoulder on which you lean It will never be reality pity

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Oct 17, 2018

Oct 17, 2018 at 9:53 PM UTC

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Do you see The wonder in this life Even if it has its pitfalls Deep and unsavoury Isn't the feeling in your stomach a sign you're alive? That racing thrill That sweet sweet pleasure The first sip of tea in the morning The last ray of shine before night And yet Despite these wonders Despite my desires I cannot find it in me to be happy I am distracted My thoughts return only to you and how we cannot be I drift in this glorious yet unforgiving sea Will my love forever be a secret Will I always clutch my heart in regret As I think of what could have been The sights we would have seen I want to be the shoulder on which you lean It will never be reality pity

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Did Buddha get it right Are there lives past and unkempt Is Karma directing our actions To what do we owe these painful, painful sanctions Follow me through the journey Of a time gone by The child, born in rye Dazzling his divinity, Unsung his rhyme Tis a time t’will change the world Sin his undoing Burdensome his load The constantly burning sting Of humanity And its struggle towards redemption Is it because You gave up That we no longer see You Is it because we cannot be saved It burns. It has burnt all my life Has consequence not extracted its toll Pound for pound Extracted its toll I shall see the light I shall push forward I’m no coward The road to heaven is paved in thorns But oh Fate Behold my rebellion As I hurtle to salvation - Jocelyn Kay

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Oct 16, 2018

Oct 16, 2018 at 5:20 PM UTC

Hide and seek

Did Buddha get it right Are there lives past and unkempt Is Karma directing our actions To what do we owe these painful, painful sanctions Follow me through the journey Of a time gone by The child, born in rye Dazzling his divinity, Unsung his rhyme Tis a time t’will change the world Sin his undoing Burdensome his load The constantly burning sting Of humanity And its struggle towards redemption Is it because You gave up That we no longer see You Is it because we cannot be saved It burns. It has burnt all my life Has consequence not extracted its toll Pound for pound Extracted its toll I shall see the light I shall push forward I’m no coward The road to heaven is paved in thorns But oh Fate Behold my rebellion As I hurtle to salvation - Jocelyn Kay

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I Clutch at that fraying thread There’s another Man To keep rigid is all I can I approve And I trickle into Judgement I will never express it. Never show an inkling. I would never approve of such behaviour Are you mine? Can anyone be another’s I shall never know Ah my small, personal insignificant woe I am small in the scheme of things I know I can’t fly, there are no wings But to take that chance Is so tempting That feeling of the improbable The longing of the unimaginable Lady love Know that I will never tell you Or be fu*kin creepy about it I will be the last bastion The last port of emergency To make you happy is all I need My soul is yours, as is my fealty I shall hide my feelings In eternal sleep - Jocelyn Kay

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Oct 16, 2018

Oct 16, 2018 at 4:57 PM UTC

To be dealt with in another life

I Clutch at that fraying thread There’s another Man To keep rigid is all I can I approve And I trickle into Judgement I will never express it. Never show an inkling. I would never approve of such behaviour Are you mine? Can anyone be another’s I shall never know Ah my small, personal insignificant woe I am small in the scheme of things I know I can’t fly, there are no wings But to take that chance Is so tempting That feeling of the improbable The longing of the unimaginable Lady love Know that I will never tell you Or be fu*kin creepy about it I will be the last bastion The last port of emergency To make you happy is all I need My soul is yours, as is my fealty I shall hide my feelings In eternal sleep - Jocelyn Kay

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Barely Together - Jocelyn Kay How is it I hold myself together When you’re around me And I can breathe The air around your skin How is it I don’t cry always Don’t collapse, don’t capsize Every atom of me aching as I watch you be someone else’s Selfish I am, the pain is of my own making I’m happy you’re happy, but I’m shivering and tired I’ll hold it together But only for you You don’t need to know, you don’t need the drama I’ll hold it all in And try to be me Feeling my insides exploding Calm, outwardly Was this meant to happen? Did I mess up a past life Is there really just one Destiny? Where do I find peace Where do I find solace Where do I find the happiness that I seek Where am I headed Where will I land Will it just be another barren island All we can do is hope, Cling to that everthinning rope To change is to die, and I’m broken inside Will you leave me? Will time split our paths in two? Will I get to see you? Can I still love you Is it answers I seek? Or shallow distraction I don’t believe in You. But help me Lord

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Oct 16, 2018

Oct 16, 2018 at 8:03 AM UTC

Barely Together

Barely Together - Jocelyn Kay How is it I hold myself together When you’re around me And I can breathe The air around your skin How is it I don’t cry always Don’t collapse, don’t capsize Every atom of me aching as I watch you be someone else’s Selfish I am, the pain is of my own making I’m happy you’re happy, but I’m shivering and tired I’ll hold it together But only for you You don’t need to know, you don’t need the drama I’ll hold it all in And try to be me Feeling my insides exploding Calm, outwardly Was this meant to happen? Did I mess up a past life Is there really just one Destiny? Where do I find peace Where do I find solace Where do I find the happiness that I seek Where am I headed Where will I land Will it just be another barren island All we can do is hope, Cling to that everthinning rope To change is to die, and I’m broken inside Will you leave me? Will time split our paths in two? Will I get to see you? Can I still love you Is it answers I seek? Or shallow distraction I don’t believe in You. But help me Lord

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Survivor - Jocelyn Kay I did it all so he couldn’t hurt me again I ended up hurting myself He’s gone, a whisper in the wind But he haunts the deep dark memories within His hands, unwelcome His breathe stale and lips dry To forget is impossible The drugs erase everything else Tis a terrifying pain, the pain of times gone by You feel it through the numbness It creeps up on you, sly Family and friends Mean very little now They didn’t know how to help, And a part of me believes they didn’t even care to try How do I wash this filth off my skin Scrubbing till streams of blood run down my limbs Have you ever had a scar The size of your whole being Throbbing Singing tales of times best forgotten The scars outside lasers can wipe The wounds inside I can only hide And so I live, Day to day Hour to hour Getting through it, slowly Shakily At first But then with grace.

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Oct 16, 2018

Oct 16, 2018 at 8:02 AM UTC

Survivor

Survivor - Jocelyn Kay I did it all so he couldn’t hurt me again I ended up hurting myself He’s gone, a whisper in the wind But he haunts the deep dark memories within His hands, unwelcome His breathe stale and lips dry To forget is impossible The drugs erase everything else Tis a terrifying pain, the pain of times gone by You feel it through the numbness It creeps up on you, sly Family and friends Mean very little now They didn’t know how to help, And a part of me believes they didn’t even care to try How do I wash this filth off my skin Scrubbing till streams of blood run down my limbs Have you ever had a scar The size of your whole being Throbbing Singing tales of times best forgotten The scars outside lasers can wipe The wounds inside I can only hide And so I live, Day to day Hour to hour Getting through it, slowly Shakily At first But then with grace.

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