You broke my heart over the course of a month.
I was on my knees and on the verge of tears
When I first realized we could not be saved but,
I endured it all in hopes that somehow, it would all work out in the end.
I pray,
Every day,
That the love of your life never makes you feel as unwanted and replaceable as you made it seem that I was, my love.
I wish someone had prayed for me, too.
Mar 14, 2016
Mar 14, 2016 at 2:00 AM UTC
Irreparably broken and utterly foolish heart of mine,
What have I done to deserve such losses?
Was she merely a feat too big to accomplish?
Why am I so emotional?
How..
How
How could she forget so easily?
She can have all her declarations of love back.
That way she can give them to her new lover.
All I ask of her is that she keep the ones I gave to her
Because like her I'll never love another.
I felt like what we had was the start of forever.
Why didn't you feel the same?
Jun 17, 2014
Jun 17, 2014 at 2:47 PM UTC
You are more than just "curiosity".
You are definitely not "just a phase".
You are more than that.
You are the air I breathe.
Because without you I would suffocate.
You are what keeps me afloat.
Because without you I would sink.
You will always be before anyone else.
Even myself, because without you, I would not exist.
**Time will not change the meaning behind the words we have expressed towards each other.
This world shall never break us apart.**
Because we are forever and always.
Apr 2, 2014
Apr 2, 2014 at 9:16 PM UTC
Our true thoughts are enclosed inside our own little sanctuary.
They seem safer there, than out into the world, where our opinions can be agreed with and our questions can finally be answered.
We'd be shot down on the spot if we go against what society wants us to think
Can't shine brighter than others.
Always be yourself- society
No, no. Not like that
Well, then.
My bad.
We are taught to think critically and embrace our intellectual minds.
So when we dance like no one is watching,
Write like there are no boundaries,
Fall in love indiscriminately and wholeheartedly,
And riot against society's guidelines,
Why do people act like they never saw it coming?
Teachers and motivational speakers of today aren't just enlightening the minds of so many young and promising people.
They're creating an army
Mar 25, 2014
Mar 25, 2014 at 10:30 PM UTC
I refuse to let go of you.
You've left an anchor fastened into the depths of my heart.
I dare not to remove it,
For it's what keeps me from losing my mind in the dark, dark sea of my own conflicting thoughts.
Please stay with me forever.
You are loved and wanted by many
But how many of them actually need you
The way that I do?
Mar 23, 2014
Mar 23, 2014 at 1:56 PM UTC
Engulfed in flames
I burned to ash
Then flew away into the blustery wind.
I am nothing.
Nothing but a speck of dust suspended by just the will of others.
I live because others want me to.
And it's ridiculous how I still feel the urge to please and fill the lives of others with joy,
Yet I feel numb.
The tears flow every night
And perhaps it's my own fault.
Funny, though.
Whenever I'm around you
All those thoughts of dropping dead
Or killing myself
Just vanish.
Even though you're the reason why I've gone suicidal,
I'm still deeply, truly, unconditionally in love with you.
It's toxicity courses through my veins.
I always thought I would die for you.
Now I'm remorsefully accepting that I will die,
Because of you.
****
Why do I keep loving you?
Mar 21, 2014
Mar 21, 2014 at 11:12 PM UTC
Don't take it personally, my love,
But I want him to break your heart.
I want you to feel pain.
I want you to feel what I felt when you said you missed him.
I want you to feel lost.
I want you to feel brokenhearted.
I want you to feel clueless.
Because all you gave me were mixed messages of love, desire, and admiration.
Now I won't lie to you or myself.
I still have this unconditional love for you.
It's foundation blossoms from the pit of my stomach.
But I hate you so much.
And it kills me to see you hurting
Because I know you hurt enough already
And I wish I could take away all that hurts you.
I'm no superhero though, but I'm certainly not a villain either.
I'm just a bystander caught in the crossfire.
I wish you could stand in my shoes, at least once.
And be able to understand the rush of emotions that flows through my head whenever you fall into my line of vision.
The only way that will ever happen is if you hurt.
Hurt as passionately as I hurt for you.
I hate you almost as strongly as I hold love for you.
But please, don't take it personally.
Mar 15, 2014
Mar 15, 2014 at 11:03 PM UTC
You kissed me.
And it led to my whole world spiraling out of control.
My faith was restored, I vowed I would return the favor, and I found myself falling even more irreversibly in love with you.
It's like when you realize that those implausible but evidently hopeful wishes at exactly 11:11 p.m. really do work.
But I think way too much for my own good.
I think about things too in depth and then I just break my own heart.
Make bizarre and ignorant conclusions,
Like you're just playing around with me.
You don't mean it when you say you love me.
Or maybe I'm the one interpreting all those signals in all the wrong ways possible.
But how else would a fool in love interpret a kiss from the one they hold so close to their heart?
Maybe I just understand what it is my heart wants me to.
And I guess that's why I hate suffering through relapses such as this one.
Because I love too hard and too much, and I always end up hurting in the end.
Mar 13, 2014
Mar 13, 2014 at 11:07 PM UTC
Just for one moment, I wish you could see what it's like to love someone like you, because you rule
Everything around me.
And I'm sure that then you would understand how speechless I get when it comes to describing something I don't have a full understanding of.
Nothing I ever say will help me overcome this obstacle as long as my love for you perpetuates, and as far as I'm concerned my love is
Everlasting.
Two too many times, you've broken my heart, and it's a shame because you didn't even realize it. I know you didn't mean it, and it wasn't even your fault, but I swear that you're so provocative and
Tantalizing without trying. And I guess that's what makes you so special, so different from the rest. That is why I long to be
Emancipated from this restriction of love.
You shall forever be carved into my memory,
And forever carved into all that I do.
Because not a moment goes by that you are not intruding in my most sacred and and inner thoughts.
Mar 12, 2014
Mar 12, 2014 at 10:16 PM UTC
Ever get that feeling where there's so much to say
But then you pick up your pen and bring out your notebook
And you just sit there, and fail to write what it is you even wanted to say?
That's how I feel whenever I write about you
And it's so discouraging because it seems that there is so much flowing through my mind whenever I fail to keep my thoughts anywhere else but you.
It's because she is everything
All that goes on in my head before writing even one line is simply just you
Those booming voices, blissful delusions, ignorant realizations, unwelcome ****** recollections of long-ago, humorous admiration,
It's because she is everything
Yes, you are everything.
Everything I think about, everything I dream about, everything I talk about, everything I write about, everything
And I really don't think that that's fair, my love.
That is why I strive to be your everything.
Yes, I want to be the one that creates those booming voices in your head
I want to be the one that makes you have those blissful delusions
I want to be the one that initiates you to make those ignorant realizations
I want to be the one that brings those unwelcome ****** recollections of long-ago
to you
And I can go on and on about everything that just the thought of you does to me
But I dare not waste your time any longer
Because the way I feel could be sufficiently expressed in any moment-no matter if I'm miserable, infuriated, ecstatic, or anything- by just two words.
You're everything
And I bet that that's the reason why at times it seems there's so much to say, when in reality there really isn't a need for it.
Mar 4, 2014
Mar 4, 2014 at 9:49 PM UTC