I looked at my hands the other day.
Really looked.
I saw the flesh, and the sinew, and the odd curves as the tendons snake their way back into their home
I saw my right ring finger;
Remembered there was a scar
And I looked,
For a while.
And I saw it
Faded but there,
Clear and standing.
Brazen roughness against the smooth porcelain.
I remember an event,
I'm not quite sure.
A fall.
A scrape.
A tumble.
Some sort of momentary tragedy.
I don't remember how it happened now.
And I found comfort in that thought.
Oct 17, 2024
Oct 17, 2024 at 5:21 PM UTC
I don't want quick fixes or easy outs,
I want struggle and decision
The end of the line, the start of a new direction
I want to love so deeply that we change trajectory to aim for the same crash
I want the chaos of space
I want to feel the weight of the world and the weightlessness of the universe
I want us to traverse the himalayas and drown in the mariana trench
Just to be reborn as a new us
A new perspective
A new life
A flower dropping petals to the compost to grow again, with all the memory of what could go wrong and how to blossom correctly this time
I want to be so enthralled in the blanket of you that I suffocate under its weight
But I am not suffocating
I am screaming, in silence
Oct 10, 2024
Oct 10, 2024 at 9:34 AM UTC
We are lonely trees in distant fields
All I can hope
Is that our roots reach out endlessly
Until they touch again
And we can grow together once more
All I want is to watch us blossom
Oct 7, 2024
Oct 7, 2024 at 7:13 PM UTC
A loss of orbit,
Her gravitational forfeit;
She no longer greets the moon
The galaxies have strayed,
From her intravenous decay;
A mind no longer in this celestial room
She cries tears of river floods,
And cascading molten blood;
That ravage at her innermost core
Now wildstorms of polluted rain,
Course destruction within sorrowed veins;
Without
Her Sun,
My ******
Cannot Endure.
Oct 30, 2017
Oct 30, 2017 at 4:00 AM UTC
Flee the scene;
Mind, take cover - No!
We must abandon ship.
The battle is lost,
Cover will not save you now;
You must let go.
As the depths rust the ship,
Its living moments reorder and recast;
Transmute and alter.
Its iron-cast reality dissolves away;
It is no longer your ship,
It is no longer your memory.
Now you may float once more,
Undburdended, unhindered - unknowing,
Until the next screaming vessel
Meanders by...
Jul 1, 2017
Jul 1, 2017 at 2:21 PM UTC
The world has cascaded;
Skies,
Have dispersed.
The wind has ferried
Our souls,
Wide
And distant,
But,
Fear not,
My dear;
For you are
Infinite.
Jun 21, 2017
Jun 21, 2017 at 6:02 AM UTC
He lied so casually;
Such little meaning in such big statements.
When he said “I love you”, did he ever truly mean it?
Has he ever meant anything? Was his whole being merely a facade?
Chasing the answers;
Does he ever truly wish to find them?
He finds depressive thoughts comforting;
So lost in self-pity, he loves to feel sadness.
Something to hold deep within.
He bleeds words onto paper, too afraid to bleed in the open;
An ever-spiraling cycle.
He knows his demons are many;
He knows his demons are self-made.
Depression grips him, as depression is relief.
Is the world even real when his thoughts are so inward and selfish?
Lost. Lost. Lost.
Do I want to be found?
Do I want to find myself?
I think not; I fear I am not the person I would like to be.
When did he turn into me?
How did this happen?
Dec 17, 2015
Dec 17, 2015 at 8:11 AM UTC
Burning blazes,
Warm hearts
Stars embrace,
Their counterparts
Dec 9, 2015
Dec 9, 2015 at 3:44 AM UTC
Two orchid petals glisten gingerly,
In the ripples of the moving pond
Two stars blaze passionately,
In the sky's veiled moonlight
Two butterflies flutter an auburn dream,
On the lilypad's emerald contrast
And two eyes radiate life and love,
As her cheekbones flush deep scarlet, and her smile steals my breathe.
Nov 10, 2015
Nov 10, 2015 at 4:16 AM UTC