I turn the lamp on my nightstand off
The light blue one with stickers on it
Suddenly the entire room goes dark
And I can’t seem to breathe
Worrying that something will stab me from behind
A soft click is heard
Then a bright light follows
The phone on the nightstand has turned on
As if the small blue rectangle of light could
Ward off all of the darkness
If only it would
May 18
May 18, 2026 at 1:56 AM UTC
How do you erase
Something that doesn’t exist,
Blank to begin with
May 12
May 12, 2026 at 11:23 PM UTC
The people upstairs
Always have their TV on
After 10
We can always hear it
My dad gets mad every time
This time he blows
Hammer in hand
He climbs onto the sofa
and starts to bang on the ceiling
You can hear it ringing
The TV doesn't stop
He starts yelling
BE QUIET
But the response is thudding
Lots of them
Probably them kicking the floor
As hard as they can
I come out of my room
To stare at my dad
See him cursing under his breath
The hammer left black marks
On the white paint
Apr 26
Apr 26, 2026 at 10:12 PM UTC
Darkness consumes me
I cannot see anything
The lights turn back on
Apr 20
Apr 20, 2026 at 1:44 AM UTC
Water streams through the filter in the kitchen
Running until the water runs out
Every once in a while
We change the filter
Replace it with a new one
Since the old one gets clogged up
It seems I have one too
Endlessly keeping back my words
The ones that end up never being said
The ones that stop right there
At the back of my throat
Until it chokes me
Except my filter,
It never gets changed
Apr 15
Apr 15, 2026 at 10:34 PM UTC
Who did they see
When I told them
that I hate myself
That I don't believe in myself
That I'm so much worse than everyone else
Did they see the girl
Who stays up until 1
on Google meets with her friends
To cope
Did they see the girl
Who feels pressured
Not to make any mistake
To be the perfect kid
nobody asked for
Did they see the girl
Crying in her head
Because of everything around her
Has just gone wrong
No.
No they did not.
What they saw
Was their own child
Their baby
So unprotected from the world
Did I hurt them
When I told them the truth
That I wished that I was better
That I wasn't myself
Who I hated so much
I could see in their eyes
All the pain
Hearing this from their kid
So I vowed
Never to hurt them
To keep everything inside
Everything that should never
Have been let out in the first place
If that means keeping them safe
Apr 3
Apr 3, 2026 at 11:27 AM UTC
Oh how time flies
when you're having fun
Oh how time flies
When the assignment's due
at 11:59 tonight
Oh how time flies
When you're bingeing that TV show
You found on YouTube the other day
Oh how time flies
As you keep growing up
Looking back at those photobooks
Filled with the pictures of the younger
You, smiling, laughing, giggling at the camera
wishing you could go back in time
Become innocent and happy again
No care in the world
No stress put on your shoulders
No assignments to procrastinate on
You're told to enjoy the present moment
but
How?
How with all of the things going on
The too busy schedules filled with
soccer practices
Math Team meets
Book clubs
School and homework
What time do I have left for myself
Other than 2 in the morning
after finishing only some of
My homework that piled up already
How?
Oh how time flies
and I wish I could go back again
Mar 24
Mar 24, 2026 at 9:58 PM UTC
Friends
They alway know
What to do
What's happening
How to help
What to say
How to comfort someone
When they need it the most
Me
I never know
What to do
What's happening
How to help
What to say
How to comfort someone
When they need it the most
When they notice that
Something is wrong
Whole speeches materialize
About how they care about you
How you are loved
How we would be empty without
You
All I can do is ask
What's wrong?
Are you okay?
Nothing else comes to mind
Nothing I can do to help
I just feel so
Useless
So bad at being a friend
A big stupid coward
Who can never do anything
To help anybody
Mar 19
Mar 19, 2026 at 11:00 PM UTC
Sitting in the corner of my bedroom
Holding back burning tears
Willing them to stay,
Along with the heavy chest
That won't get any lighter
And so they won't hear
I force myself to be silent.
No
No I'm not crying
I'm fine
I'm fine but the tears start falling
I look down to they can't see all of
The panic
The worry
The frustration
The fear
of messing up
Mar 19
Mar 19, 2026 at 10:55 PM UTC
How hard it is
Just to say one
Small
Word
A favor asked
From a friend
When they could clearly
do it themselves
But when I try to refuse
A bombardment of
Please
Just once
Only this time
Come flying my way
To try and stay stubborn leads to
Guilt
But saying
Yes
Just feels like
Giving in
Mar 19
Mar 19, 2026 at 1:55 PM UTC