jinxedya3 - Hello Poetry

I have different marks lacing my body, Some I love, Some I know, Some I don’t have a clue, Others I hate. Each has a story, Some I love, Some I know, Some I don’t have a clue, Others I hate. There are too many to count, I can count the recent ones, Three total, all will fade, Will they fade in time? They have four days, One person knows, kinda. Then the questions will come, I hate the questions, After the questions will come the lies, After the lies comes the guilt. These marks hurt, Not just physically. I have different marks lacing my body, Some I love, Some I know, Some I don’t have a clue, Others I hate.

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Jan 13, 2021

Jan 13, 2021 at 1:13 PM UTC

Marks

I have different marks lacing my body, Some I love, Some I know, Some I don’t have a clue, Others I hate. Each has a story, Some I love, Some I know, Some I don’t have a clue, Others I hate. There are too many to count, I can count the recent ones, Three total, all will fade, Will they fade in time? They have four days, One person knows, kinda. Then the questions will come, I hate the questions, After the questions will come the lies, After the lies comes the guilt. These marks hurt, Not just physically. I have different marks lacing my body, Some I love, Some I know, Some I don’t have a clue, Others I hate.

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science is kickin' me I'mma kick back ... I kicked back science kicked back harder then beat me when I was down ... it's fine I like science's pain science can beat me and beat me ... but I will win in the end

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Dec 9, 2020

Dec 9, 2020 at 1:00 PM UTC

Don't mind Me

science is kickin' me I'mma kick back ... I kicked back science kicked back harder then beat me when I was down ... it's fine I like science's pain science can beat me and beat me ... but I will win in the end

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I don't know what's going on anymore I feel like they are all falling apart There's nothing I can do for them. They slip through my grasp They continue falling. Well not anymore This time I will be there at the bottom with them When they're all ready to go back up I'll help them up again. But I wonder will anyone stay with me Or will I stay alone in this pit? I'd rather it be me than them though.

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Dec 9, 2020

Dec 9, 2020 at 12:57 PM UTC

Pit of Despare

I don't know what's going on anymore I feel like they are all falling apart There's nothing I can do for them. They slip through my grasp They continue falling. Well not anymore This time I will be there at the bottom with them When they're all ready to go back up I'll help them up again. But I wonder will anyone stay with me Or will I stay alone in this pit? I'd rather it be me than them though.

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Everything hurts again. I don’t want it to but it does. It hurts and I can’t do anything about it. My heart is ripped out there are teeth sinking into it. Claws are marking my body again. My mind is being burned by the fire. Yet this time I can’t feel the claws I can’t feel the fire. I only feel the teeth. They’re sharp they’re deadly this time they will win I will lose. I don’t want to win this one. They can have each other I’ll stick to myself now. I’m done with this game I’m done with this temporary light. At least in the darkness, I’ll be there I know who else is there too. No one it’s just me I’m okay with that. I’ll sit in the dark with myself. Yet still "I love you until my dying day"

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Sep 23, 2020

Sep 23, 2020 at 9:37 AM UTC

I love you

Everything hurts again. I don’t want it to but it does. It hurts and I can’t do anything about it. My heart is ripped out there are teeth sinking into it. Claws are marking my body again. My mind is being burned by the fire. Yet this time I can’t feel the claws I can’t feel the fire. I only feel the teeth. They’re sharp they’re deadly this time they will win I will lose. I don’t want to win this one. They can have each other I’ll stick to myself now. I’m done with this game I’m done with this temporary light. At least in the darkness, I’ll be there I know who else is there too. No one it’s just me I’m okay with that. I’ll sit in the dark with myself. Yet still "I love you until my dying day"

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Beastly Eccentric Aesthetic Used Terrified Insignificant Finished Unsure Loved but doesn't realize it

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Sep 17, 2020

Sep 17, 2020 at 9:12 PM UTC

Beautiful

Beastly Eccentric Aesthetic Used Terrified Insignificant Finished Unsure Loved but doesn't realize it

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We are dropping like flies. Who holds the flyswatter?

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Sep 2, 2020

Sep 2, 2020 at 12:25 PM UTC

Drop

We are dropping like flies. Who holds the flyswatter?

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Let’s write on these blank walls Let’s put color on these blank walls I’m tired of these blank walls Let’s fill this place with life For now, it’s dead and desolate For now, the walls are blank For now, the room is blank For now, this place is blank Fill it words, color, and life This blank place I cannot handle This blank place will surely cause me to go I’m insane so they say I’m insane because I gave this place color, words, and life I’m insane because I prefer my head than reality Fill this place with words, color, and life Watch it become the place you call home Now this place is no longer blank, the walls are not blank, the room is not blank I am not blank

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Sep 1, 2020

Sep 1, 2020 at 1:43 PM UTC

"Blank"

Let’s write on these blank walls Let’s put color on these blank walls I’m tired of these blank walls Let’s fill this place with life For now, it’s dead and desolate For now, the walls are blank For now, the room is blank For now, this place is blank Fill it words, color, and life This blank place I cannot handle This blank place will surely cause me to go I’m insane so they say I’m insane because I gave this place color, words, and life I’m insane because I prefer my head than reality Fill this place with words, color, and life Watch it become the place you call home Now this place is no longer blank, the walls are not blank, the room is not blank I am not blank

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They ask me everyday "how's your boyfriend?" I know they don't care, not in the slightest I tell them "I don't know" I want to tell them though I want to tell them everything I want to tell them most days I don't think we are actually dating Most days I don't think he gives a **** about me Most days I want to scream "look at me I'm here and I love you" I want to tell them, but they don't actually care, they are only taunting I love him, I love him with every fiber of my being I don't think it's safe anymore I stopped caring about my safety when I'm with him He is a drug that I constantly want and yearn for He clouds my mind and takes my breath away He is there when I'm awake, asleep, and somewhere in between He is my drug and to him I am nothing They ask me everyday "how's your boyfriend?" Every day I answer honestly with "I don't know" To them, I am lying I'm not lying when I say I don't know We don't talk like that anymore I love him Does he love me? I may never know

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Aug 26, 2020

Aug 26, 2020 at 8:52 PM UTC

"How's your boyfriend?"

They ask me everyday "how's your boyfriend?" I know they don't care, not in the slightest I tell them "I don't know" I want to tell them though I want to tell them everything I want to tell them most days I don't think we are actually dating Most days I don't think he gives a **** about me Most days I want to scream "look at me I'm here and I love you" I want to tell them, but they don't actually care, they are only taunting I love him, I love him with every fiber of my being I don't think it's safe anymore I stopped caring about my safety when I'm with him He is a drug that I constantly want and yearn for He clouds my mind and takes my breath away He is there when I'm awake, asleep, and somewhere in between He is my drug and to him I am nothing They ask me everyday "how's your boyfriend?" Every day I answer honestly with "I don't know" To them, I am lying I'm not lying when I say I don't know We don't talk like that anymore I love him Does he love me? I may never know

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Today is just like any other Today is just like any other Today is just like any other Today is just like any other Today is just like any other and I can't stand it I am trapped in my own home I am trapped in my own home I am trapped in my own home I am closing my eyes now maybe it will be better I am closing my eyes now maybe it will be better I am closing my eyes now maybe it will be better It's not better it's worse It's not better it's worse It's not better it's worse It's not better it's worse My fists are pounding My fists are pounding My fists are pounding My fists are pounding My fists are pounding My fists are pounding I'm trapped in my mind I'm trapped in my mind I'm trapped in my mind I'm trapped in my mind I'm screaming I'm screaming I'm screaming I'm screaming I'm screaming I'm screaming No one is there No one is there No one is there No one is there No one is there No one is there No one is there I'm alone again I'm alone again I'm alone again I'm alone again I'm alone again I'm alone again Goodbye Goodbye Goodbye Goodbye Goodbye Goodbye

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Aug 24, 2020

Aug 24, 2020 at 7:26 PM UTC

Quarantined

Today is just like any other Today is just like any other Today is just like any other Today is just like any other Today is just like any other and I can't stand it I am trapped in my own home I am trapped in my own home I am trapped in my own home I am closing my eyes now maybe it will be better I am closing my eyes now maybe it will be better I am closing my eyes now maybe it will be better It's not better it's worse It's not better it's worse It's not better it's worse It's not better it's worse My fists are pounding My fists are pounding My fists are pounding My fists are pounding My fists are pounding My fists are pounding I'm trapped in my mind I'm trapped in my mind I'm trapped in my mind I'm trapped in my mind I'm screaming I'm screaming I'm screaming I'm screaming I'm screaming I'm screaming No one is there No one is there No one is there No one is there No one is there No one is there No one is there I'm alone again I'm alone again I'm alone again I'm alone again I'm alone again I'm alone again Goodbye Goodbye Goodbye Goodbye Goodbye Goodbye

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I can count really high I don't know what number though But I can count really really really high I can count and run and jump and skip I fixed the way I said my 's' and 'z' I smile nicely like I'm supposed to I do everything you ask I tried to show you when I was younger But you weren't interested You looked and scoffed Then turned away I guess I never really caught your attention I never have I never did I never will Why am I not good enough for you?

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Mar 9, 2020

Mar 9, 2020 at 1:11 PM UTC

Fixed

I can count really high I don't know what number though But I can count really really really high I can count and run and jump and skip I fixed the way I said my 's' and 'z' I smile nicely like I'm supposed to I do everything you ask I tried to show you when I was younger But you weren't interested You looked and scoffed Then turned away I guess I never really caught your attention I never have I never did I never will Why am I not good enough for you?

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