whenever i'm around her
i just shake in the knees
she's so cute
gah, why does she have to be so cute
whenever i'm around her
i just want to fall to the ground
gripping my chest
screaming
"it's not fair, why are you so cute"
you see i do stupid things like that
whenever i'm around you
i say ultra dumb things
it's become predictable
it's become annoying.
but she puts up with me
and she smiles
wow what a cute smile
i could spend all day
drawing her smile
her love would just **** me
Mar 25, 2013
Mar 25, 2013 at 1:18 AM UTC
i just want to live in a small little cottage
in alaska
studying giant squid and sharks
with three dogs.
a husky, a samoyed and a great pyreneese.
and a beautiful little girl, named valerie.
valerie is my dream, she's one of the reasons i'm excited to have kids.
she's going to be great, i can just tell.
i already love her.
but i don't want her to grow up to resent me
all kids end up hating their parents
and moving to some obscure place
like alaska.
please, valerie. don't hate me.
i will love you unconditionally.
no one's going to hurt my baby girl
please, baby, i promise you
you can tell me whatever.
i won't judge you.
you can be queer, trans, whatever.
i'll call you vladimir if you want.
anything, you can be anything.
i'll love you forever.
please
valerie
please come soon.
Mar 24, 2013
Mar 24, 2013 at 10:59 PM UTC
well i do,
and it's sad.
guys treat girls like ****
just to get in bed with them
guys will blame women for everything that happens to them
but it's never the guys fault
oh no
he was provoked
by her clothing
she was inebriated, so i thought that gave me licence to have my way with her!
why is it whenever a guy is sexually assaulted
you don't hear about the clothing he wore
or about how much alcohol was in his system
it's just a
"you're such a strong brave soul, god bless you"
why is it people treat women like ****
why?
it's dumb.
i get really ****** about all of it.
i get really ****** that people assume i'm gay, because i won't holler at women and make them extremely uncomfortable
i just wan't to be courteous, why is that considered homosexual?
why is being homosexual a bad thing?
why is it i'm held to a certain type of stereotype
why are women held against even more stereotypes?
that's horrible.
Mar 24, 2013
Mar 24, 2013 at 10:45 PM UTC
i was appalled by it
cut cut cut
why would anyone ask that
popping pills
they said they wanted to know because they were looking to do it too
taking too much laxative so i'll make myself sick
i said no
ripping body hair out
why would i consciously let someone hurt themselves
ripping the hair on my head out
that's wrong
clawing at my arms
why even ask me?
burning myself on the stove
i won't tell you.
Mar 24, 2013
Mar 24, 2013 at 10:35 PM UTC
you are my motivation, for everything.
the reason i begged so hard
to move back home
even though this move wasn't too terrible
was you.
you don't like me, that's fine
i don't mind it.
i just want you to be in my life.
doesn't matter if we're just friends, or whatever the **** we call it.
i love you.
i love you i love you i love you.
i hope you know i do
and i always will
i
love
you.
Mar 24, 2013
Mar 24, 2013 at 10:30 PM UTC
i just want to know
has my life been worth the fight.
i have died a thousand times,
just wondering.
am i really cut out to be something?
am i going to make a change?
nope, probably not.
i don't matter to people.
one day i'll be gone and dalton and morgan and meagan and stefanie and zac will all forget about me.
the only reason they talk to me is because i let it slip that i was feeling particularly suicidal that day.
the stories didn't help, i don't care about how you got kicked out of school for a month for showing up trashed.
it's not the same as what i go through. i appreciate the effort but please stop.
one day i'll be gone, and dalton and morgan and meagan and stefanie and zac, will forget about me.
oh how i hate fourth block math.
Mar 15, 2013
Mar 15, 2013 at 11:32 PM UTC
it comes naturally to me
i don't know why
i like the way it rolls off my tongue
the taste it leaves on my mouth
after it's been said.
sometime's i'll just say it out of nowhere
it makes sense to me.
it's as simple as breathing
and just as necessary too.
Mar 15, 2013
Mar 15, 2013 at 11:28 PM UTC
i'm not him
although our names are similar, i suppose?
but we're very different.
one of the things is, he's the apple of your eye
he's there with you
and i'm stuck down here, in another state.
oh how i hope he doesn't take that privilege for granted.
i understand though, what's not to like about him?
what's there to like about me?
i'm not bitter. just upset.
because i was never really "over you"
i wasn't ever really "in love" with you.
i'm in love with the idea of being together though
oh, what a fairy tale!
i'm down here, suffering.
because i don't get the chance to see that lovely face of yours.
i'm not love sick, i'm dying for love.
your love,
oh how sweet it would be.
Mar 15, 2013
Mar 15, 2013 at 11:25 PM UTC
imahipsterbuffalo asked you:
It gets better. I promise. You're not alone. You're beautiful and irreplaceable. Remember that.
you tell that to everybody, don't you?
this seems so rehearsed, so calm. like you really don't care.
why even bother messaging me if you're not going to say anything original at all.
Mar 15, 2013
Mar 15, 2013 at 11:08 PM UTC
everything is dumb
gender is dumb
sexuality is dumb
school is dumb
everything is just dumb
why can't i just stay inside all day and sleep
i can deal with the bed sores
**** it i'd take those over algebra two honors any day.
why can't i just live how i like, without people telling me i'm wrong.
Mar 15, 2013
Mar 15, 2013 at 11:05 PM UTC