jihan - Hello Poetry

if you gave me a bracelet i'd wear it till it rips if you wrote me a letter i'd learn all the words by heart

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Jan 16, 2023

Jan 16, 2023 at 11:11 PM UTC

if you gave me a bracelet i'd wear it till it rips if you wrote me a letter i'd learn all the words by heart

love is complicated and happy and sad and relaxing and anxious all at the same time do you even love me why do you love me? how can you love me when i'm so broken when i'm so ruined when i'm so ugly do you even have a clue how messed up i am i can't even tell you how i feel properly and i'm vomiting out the words on pages of letters emails i will never send letters you will never read my depression? you don't need to know your girl is perfectly fine she's whole and not broken and not bruised and not hurt i love you baby i love you you are the stars in my sky you're a whole constellation and this is love this is love this is love is this love? can you call this love

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Jan 14, 2023

Jan 14, 2023 at 7:21 AM UTC

can you call this love

love is complicated and happy and sad and relaxing and anxious all at the same time do you even love me why do you love me? how can you love me when i'm so broken when i'm so ruined when i'm so ugly do you even have a clue how messed up i am i can't even tell you how i feel properly and i'm vomiting out the words on pages of letters emails i will never send letters you will never read my depression? you don't need to know your girl is perfectly fine she's whole and not broken and not bruised and not hurt i love you baby i love you you are the stars in my sky you're a whole constellation and this is love this is love this is love is this love? can you call this love

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i break i cry i scream i hide i die a million times inside i dream i jump i fly i fall i fall. i fall. i fall. i fall. and i die a million times inside

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Jan 14, 2023

Jan 14, 2023 at 7:09 AM UTC

i break

i break i cry i scream i hide i die a million times inside i dream i jump i fly i fall i fall. i fall. i fall. i fall. and i die a million times inside

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I get so high around you But I'm not on any drugs So tell me do you feel the same Do you float up into space too Fly with me to Neptune And to all the stars beyond I'll hold your hand and you can hold mine Take me to the end of your galaxy.

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Sep 27, 2021

Sep 27, 2021 at 1:51 PM UTC

Fly with me to Neptune.

I get so high around you But I'm not on any drugs So tell me do you feel the same Do you float up into space too Fly with me to Neptune And to all the stars beyond I'll hold your hand and you can hold mine Take me to the end of your galaxy.

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I smile at your question. You hesitated, then nodded. But I'm breaking inside. And the me inside of me Screaming at you "I'm breaking" Why couldn't you see? Why can't you see me? But I know. It's not your fault. I just didn't let you see. Can I let you see? But Will you leave me if I let you see? If you run away, please don't run away I'll never be okay if you run away Inside I'm grasping, and this way I'll never be okay either way So I say "Actually, No."

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Feb 9, 2019

Feb 9, 2019 at 7:45 AM UTC

Are you okay?

I smile at your question. You hesitated, then nodded. But I'm breaking inside. And the me inside of me Screaming at you "I'm breaking" Why couldn't you see? Why can't you see me? But I know. It's not your fault. I just didn't let you see. Can I let you see? But Will you leave me if I let you see? If you run away, please don't run away I'll never be okay if you run away Inside I'm grasping, and this way I'll never be okay either way So I say "Actually, No."

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the scars on my wrist keep increasing look normal in public inside i'm ruined i'm breaking too hard i can't believe it am i really the person i used to be the bright cheery popular girl broken inside i dreamed a happy ending now i just want a quick one i can feel it inside of me slowing down ceasing to burn and i don't want to stay here anymore

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Nov 6, 2018

Nov 6, 2018 at 5:34 AM UTC

broken.

the scars on my wrist keep increasing look normal in public inside i'm ruined i'm breaking too hard i can't believe it am i really the person i used to be the bright cheery popular girl broken inside i dreamed a happy ending now i just want a quick one i can feel it inside of me slowing down ceasing to burn and i don't want to stay here anymore

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The steel cut through my skin. The tears washed away the blood. The smile covered my pain. I didn't want to do it. I didn't have to do it. I did it. But the satisfaction You get from That cold and sharp hunk of steel.

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Oct 30, 2018

Oct 30, 2018 at 7:32 AM UTC

Cold and sharp

The steel cut through my skin. The tears washed away the blood. The smile covered my pain. I didn't want to do it. I didn't have to do it. I did it. But the satisfaction You get from That cold and sharp hunk of steel.

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I'm lost in a maze Called you I'm trying to find the way out You can't help me out So I guess I'll figure out myself Where I truly am You won't, you can't Help me No, not anymore Not when you've crushed me With your sweet little lies Me barely hanging on No, now I have to get out Because I can't bear to stay here Anymore.

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Apr 17, 2018

Apr 17, 2018 at 10:54 AM UTC

Leaving

I'm lost in a maze Called you I'm trying to find the way out You can't help me out So I guess I'll figure out myself Where I truly am You won't, you can't Help me No, not anymore Not when you've crushed me With your sweet little lies Me barely hanging on No, now I have to get out Because I can't bear to stay here Anymore.

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When I get home Wash off my makeup Take off my fancy clothes Look into the mirror And see myself for the first time today. One broken girl Is who I really am I'm full of cracks And soon to fall apart. Would you love me, even when I'm so broken? Would you keep me, even though I'm so cracked? Or will you abandon me, when you find out the truth And leave disgusted by the truth? Are you willing to love the shy, broken girl Instead of the outgoing, popular one? Will you love me to the core Or do you only love my outside? Will you love my true self Or do you only love my mask?

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Apr 5, 2018

Apr 5, 2018 at 10:28 AM UTC

Masked

When I get home Wash off my makeup Take off my fancy clothes Look into the mirror And see myself for the first time today. One broken girl Is who I really am I'm full of cracks And soon to fall apart. Would you love me, even when I'm so broken? Would you keep me, even though I'm so cracked? Or will you abandon me, when you find out the truth And leave disgusted by the truth? Are you willing to love the shy, broken girl Instead of the outgoing, popular one? Will you love me to the core Or do you only love my outside? Will you love my true self Or do you only love my mask?

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Being 15 You realize, Life's not a dream. People think You are more than just a teen. Life gets confusing, Everyone you ever knew changes Nothing really makes sense anymore, Now that you're 15. Love, studies, friendship, betrayal, Everything gets mixed up. You might see someone in a completely new light And someone might see you that way But nobody understands You might be annoyed with everyone Or love one person passionately You'll never feel home And feel all alone, And no one will understand That when you're 15, You're nothing more Than just A teen.

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Mar 21, 2018

Mar 21, 2018 at 11:46 AM UTC

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Being 15 You realize, Life's not a dream. People think You are more than just a teen. Life gets confusing, Everyone you ever knew changes Nothing really makes sense anymore, Now that you're 15. Love, studies, friendship, betrayal, Everything gets mixed up. You might see someone in a completely new light And someone might see you that way But nobody understands You might be annoyed with everyone Or love one person passionately You'll never feel home And feel all alone, And no one will understand That when you're 15, You're nothing more Than just A teen.

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