every time I think of you,
you take my breath away and leave butterflies in its place
your electric love shining through the dim sadness of every day
your sweet almond eyes at the back of my mind
slow is beautiful with you
my soul aches on every level, begging for your touch
and every time you do, i fall a little harder for you
the first day we met, my heart belonged to you
who would have thought your heart was mine too?
i'm so lucky to be your girl
my sweet angel, my lover, my light
your hope, your anger, your trueness to life
you are complicated
you are creativity
you are brilliance
you are perfection
you are the sun peeking out from behind the clouds on a dark winter day
you are the millions of stars and galaxies that amaze me every night
you leave me speechless
a thousand of the most poetic lines couldn't even come close to describing you
you ground me and raise me up
you're so breathtakingly beautiful i could cry
i bow to you, my love
for the sea's wrath could never be as great as your anger at the world's unkindness
my love for you is the truest i have ever known
my queen, my stars, my sunshine
i will love you even when our mortal bodies are no more
i miss you on the brightest days and deepest nights
i long to have you near me
to wake up to your angelic face is my greatest dream
i love you with my entire being, now and forever
Dec 17, 2019
Dec 17, 2019 at 12:46 PM UTC
dying sounds easy until you want to die.
.
.
.
it gets harder.
Nov 27, 2018
Nov 27, 2018 at 8:37 PM UTC
Amanda confidently made the first incision on the corpse, as she’d done many times before. Starting near the right shoulder, she pulled the scalpel through the layers of tissue down the middle of the abdomen. She bobbed her head as she worked, listening to Where Did the Party Go by Fall Out Boy. The pathologist turned away from the body and pushed her long black hair out of her hands with her wrist. Taking her gloves off, she turned the **** on her speaker. “My old aches become new again, my old friends become exes again…” She hummed the tune while securing her locks in a ponytail. Pausing, she picked up her phone and rewinded the music. She could have sworn she Patrick Stump sing the words, “Woah, where did the body go?” Listening closer this time, she started the song. “Woah, where did the party go?” played through the speaker. She shook her head and took another sip of her coffee.
She gazed at the ceiling, bright lights blinding her suddenly. “Jordan!” She waited for a reply. Nothing. She called again. Flustered, she sighed and looked over at the schedule pinned to the wall. Jordan wasn’t scheduled today, Amanda was the only one. “Then why did the lights- Never mind.” She was obviously just tired. Tugging on another pair of gloves, she picked up a pair of forceps and a scalpel and turned back towards the body. It was gone! She looked behind and underneath the table, thinking it had fallen. It wasn’t there. **** How am I going to explain this to the family?”
“You can’t.” She jumped at the deep, gravelly voice. “Wh-who are you?” she asked with uncertainty. Amanda was too afraid to look him in the face yet. “That’s not important,” the voice replied. “We need you to come with us.”
“We?” She looked towards the direction of the voice. There were thirteen men in black suits with dark shades standing in formation at the door. “Why? Will you tell me where the body is?”
“Just follow us, ma’am. We’ll explain everything in the car.” She followed them out the door. The man who spoke led her to a black Range Rover with extremely tinted windows. Once they were in the car, the man introduced himself. “I’m Peter C. Schultz. I work with the MIB.”
“MIB? Like in that movie with Will Smith?” She sounded confused.
“Exactly. But we don’t get laser guns.” He smiled, hoping to earn her trust.
She laughed softly and looked out the window. “So was he an alien?”
“Possibly. The craft seems to have removed the body, sensing alien DNA in the area.” Peter looked over his shoulder, quickly pulled out of the parking spot and turned onto the highway. Amanda still wasn’t sure if she was awake. Aliens? MIB? A disappearing body? What if they had taken her instead? All types of thoughts swirled through her head.
They arrived at a large, nondescript building. She hopped out of the range rover and shut her door. The men lead her into the building and down the hall to an interrogation room.
“So, Ms. Browne, tell me. Did you notice any strange noises or lights at the time the body “Um. Yeah, yeah, uh, there was. I was listening to music and the lyrics sounded different. I replayed the track and it sounded normal. There was also a bright flash of light right before I noticed the body was gone. I thought it was my assistant, but they didn’t weren’t on the schedule.”
“We’ve heard of the lyrics changing before. The lights are different, they don’t usually come that close.” Peter sighed.
“Before? You mean to tell me people’s bodies have been stolen by aliens before? What the hell?!? Why doesn’t the government tell us these things?” She started to panic.
“Calm down, Ms. Browne. The MIB has it all under control. Amanda stared him in the eyes. “Really? Because there are BODIES missing! That doesn’t seem under control!” She was yelling at this point.
Peter took a step towards her. She continued to glare at him. All of a sudden, his eyes went black. Amanda was confused. This had to be a dream. A lizard like tongue flicked out of Peter’s mouth. Blood poured out of his mouth and dribbled down his chin. She screamed and tried to run. A hand with sharp long nails and slender blue fingers came up from behind her shoulder and covered her mouth. She was instantly silenced. Another hand pushed her back to her chair, the alien body pressing against her. She forcibly sat down. The hands let go of her. The terrified pathologist tried to scream but didn’t have the ability to even whisper. Peter’s form changed into a tall, blue, thin body with disproportionately long arms and neck. She shook from head to toe, when suddenly she heard a strange voice in her mind. It spoke in alien tongue but she could somehow understand it. It said, “Look into the mirror placed in front of you. Be terrified of what you see and know it is your truth.” With shaky hands, she picked up the piece of reflective glass lying in front of her. Bringing it to her face, she looked at the aliens and then herself. She stared back into cold black eyes. She opened her mouth and could see the lizard tongue curled up between her sharp, pointed teeth. She expected to be scared, but instead felt strangely content. She noticed a new hunger awakening from deep inside her. Amanda stood up and walked over to the aliens. Her own kind. She spoke in the native alien language she now had a name for, Kewalanaei. “Do you have anymore of the body left? I need flesh.” Peter grinned toothily and led her into a room where hundreds of bodies lay. They feasted.
Nov 1, 2018
Nov 1, 2018 at 1:07 PM UTC
What do you do when you've lost your mind?
Helping hurts
Hurting isn't helping.
Can you help me not to hurt?
I've tried my hardest to find my mind but it seems to be lost within my heart
Pulling my mind free would break my heart into a million pieces
I cry too many tears
I bleed more than I should
I break more than I make
I don't know what to do
I'm lost without purpose
I'm behind in everything
I'm lacking motivation
What do I do to help you find your purpose?
Helping seems to hurt
I wish hurting didn't help
Can I help you not to hurt?
I'm trying my hardest to free your mind from its own trap
Putting your heart back together in its place
I cry too many tears
I bleed more than I should
I break more than I make
I don't know what to do
I'm lost without purpose
I'm behind in everything
I'm lacking motivation
Please
Save me
Please
Save you
Please
Save our minds
Please
Save me
Please
Save you
Please save our lives
I cry too many tears
I bleed more than I should
I break more than I make
I don't know what to do
I'm lost without purpose
I'm behind in everything
I'm lacking motivation
Aug 27, 2018
Aug 27, 2018 at 4:06 PM UTC
Just so sweet
Actually sweeter than most
Could help you with anything you ever needed
Kiss me on the cheek "Have a good day sweetie"
I love you so much dear
Even though you're not near
June comes soon
And you aren't any nearer
Connected by the chakra threads we bear
Questioning how fate brought us together
Unavoidable perfection
Lies in our destiny
Interrupted by the miles between us
Never forget I care, love
Even though we're ever far apart
Memories from years past flood my mind
You put a flower behind my ear
Baby pinecone in my pocket
Even named the thing
Since we've met we've been inseperable
Truly my heart and yours intertwine
Feeling so low you make me high
Random thoughts of you make me smile
Indescribable joy when I see a text
Everlasting love resides in my heart
Never to be estinguished
Death cannot part our souls
But through every joy we have some pain
You and I have memories, not so sweet
All of my spirit loves yours
Now and forever
You are my best friend
On the day you left, I didn't say goodbye
Tenfold regret lies in that eve
Heart to heart texts aren't the same
Even you know that, I
Request to feel the caress of your hand once more before I die
Nay, I'm not dying now
Ailing I am not
Maybe you already know this
Every thought of mine is yours
May 16, 2018
May 16, 2018 at 11:29 AM UTC
I used to wonder how people fell asleep in class
Now I wonder how they stay awake
I used to wonder how people failed their classes
Now I wonder how they pass
I used to wonder how people were alone
Now I wonder how they have so many friends
I used to wonder how people were sad
Now I wonder how to be happy
I used to wonder why people cut
Now I wonder how they live without self harm
I used to wonder what it's like to stay up late
Now I wonder what'd it be like to sleep enough
I used to wonder how they thought something was wrong with school
Now I wonder how somebody sees something right
I used to wonder how people want to die
Now I wonder how they stay alive
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 2:07 PM UTC
so tired
my best friend
help me
W A K E
U P
eyes closing
fingers twitch
please
W A K E
U P
cant breathe
thoughts swirling
i cant
W A K E
U P
sister
black tongue
forgetting to
W A K E
U P
tick tock
hands spin the clock
why
W A K E
U P
what was i just thinking of
memories turn to dreams
what
W A K E
U P
falling further
what to do
just
W A K E
U P
god **** it
take more pills
dont
W A K E
U P
flowers wilted
joy faded
dont wanna
W A K E
U P
please
make
me
W A K E
U P
please
W A K E
U P
W A K E
U P
W A K E
U P
please
WAKE
UP
WAKE
UP
WAKE
UP
please
WAKEUP
WAKEUP
WAKEUP
remind me to water the flowers and save you
Apr 27, 2018
Apr 27, 2018 at 3:48 PM UTC
For you, my heart beats
For you, my lungs breathe
My life's truly a living hell
But you came in and made it well
My mind's instinct is to go extinct
But you made me stop and rethink
I'd die for you, you know that too
But most importantly, I'd live for you
Mind body and soul, I love you dearly
It seems you love me too, I see that clearly
You're my only one, my true love, baby
Won't you be mine forever? Oh, just maybe!
Your sweet words, truly they intoxicate me
You're always on my mind, who I'm contemplating
Blue eyes sparkling right into my heart
Such a pity that we're so far apart
Oh, how I long for your hand to hold
Take you and kiss you, ever so bold
You inspire my poetic hands to write
And my mind to dream of you every night
Raven black hair that covers one eye
I really just hope we never say goodbye
From my eye falls a single tear
Wishing and hoping you could be here
So I write I love you, you crazy *******
And remember forever, it's my heart you masteres
Apr 23, 2018
Apr 23, 2018 at 9:18 AM UTC
He feels like home
That's the only way I can desribe it
The way he makes me laugh with every word
Smiles in math class
Innuendos
That cute laugh when he's embarassed
Long black hair
Eyes that sparkle like the ocean
I drown in them
Every side of him is amazing
I can't get enough of him
Every laugh pulls me in
Every bad thought melts away when I talk to him
His voice is perfect
It's sweet and calming and I could listen to him speak all day
We've had our issues
But that doesn't touch the fact that I do love him
And I want to apologize for everything I've said
Leave the past where it is
There's a million other perfect things about him
I don't have the words to give them justice
He doesn't seem to see his perfection
I sure as hell do
Apr 18, 2018
Apr 18, 2018 at 3:15 PM UTC
sharp words
soft words
whats the difference
your gaze still cuts me like a dagger
im still trying to find myself after getting lost in your eyes
so long ago
for such a long time
you'll never know how many jagged edged pieces you left
when you tried to fix my broken heart
the sun still sets
and the birds still fly
but what's the point of it all when you're not here by my side
becoming yours was my favorite thing but also my worst regret
i just wanted to fix you and you just kept on breaking
what can i do
your eyes are an ocean
i should have known i would just drown
im left here sitting
on the wooden kitchen floor
fingers drumming
wish that we had meant more
the sky fades into orangey pink regret
the trees as oblivious to it as you were to me slowly dying
its too late to go outside
i miss you
its too late to fix this
its too late to save me
Mar 31, 2018
Mar 31, 2018 at 8:35 PM UTC