Would I be forgiven,
if I lay with my cheek
pressed flat against the *****
of the grass,
sparkling
with last nights rain that came
in startling sheets,
as heavy
as the shame, wrapped
around my heart in threads
woven
out of calculated missteps,
Would I awaken
as fresh and fragrant
as their small green bodies
bodies that bend softly
under the kiss gifted
by the morning mist,
shivering
under frosted silver cloaks
in anticipation
of the suns awakening.
Tell me, would I be forgiven?
Oct 17, 2024
Oct 17, 2024 at 11:45 PM UTC
You are delicious
A feisty bite of life
with a variety of sweet and spice
And a soul that dances through this chaotic life with hypnotizing abandon.
You are soft
Yielding as a kitten before it's learnt to use it's claws
But not for long
A fiery zest runs under
Your smooth complexion
Pushing and questioning authoritative boundaries
Grounded, you seek the meaning to spirit
The ache in your feet as they try to dance out the beat
In a rhythm mysterious and timeless.
The searching in your veins
That pulled you to faraway places in an effort to find that voice
That was calling.
But this caller is ethereal
Some would say - not real.
You and I both feel
This energy winding through us
Connecting our souls
To moss covered knolls and oceans that stretch for miles.
This energy shoots to the sky
Which is only a threshold to the universe
Where spirit dances freely
Unchained from human beliefs and limits.
You have touched the infinite, my love.
That sparkling desire
To connect and surrender
Is so strong, it's almost
Painful.
If only we are mindful
We can release ourselves to the sublime divine and swim in the unfathomable
With human relationship our trampoline to a higher
Empowerment.
Oct 18, 2019
Oct 18, 2019 at 1:45 AM UTC
I'm shattered
To be selfless
To be respectful
To give you freedom
I've shattered us.
This tearing pain
Rips my heart to shreds
And the child inside me yells to bring you back
But I can't.
These fingers clutched
Too tight for too long
No matter how painful and wrong this seems
It's needed.
I love you as the ocean loves to move
With a depth that seeps into my bones because you are pure magic
bliss and love.
Why must my heart want to wander so?!
To keep you and my integrity too
Is a battle already lost
We both know you deserve full complete love
And my being stutters at the idea of forever because somewhere,
threads of discovery are calling
And to not heed them would be lying.
But,
I'm still trying
To figure out why my heart is telling me to lose you
when losing you feels like dying.
Oct 8, 2019
Oct 8, 2019 at 3:04 AM UTC
I am infinite
Powerful, commanding soul movement
Floods my system
Limbs lightened
My senses, reborn.
Look at this beauty
I have created
Coals of strength
Burn hot in my heart
Giving courage to my spirit
Giving voice to my soul
This strength and power are mine
I am worthy
I am a goddess
I know what I want, what I need.
I can communicate
Touch
My deepest feelings
Fear, running cold and quick like an adder
Anger, burning hot and furious
an under skin fire
Power
Yielding, bending and holding my infinite being
I am power
I am change
I am love
I am healing
I.
Am.
Infinite.
Oct 8, 2019
Oct 8, 2019 at 2:50 AM UTC
These storms
awaken waters
within
raging with passion
that never
Quits
I'll take you
hold you
love you
caress you
mock you
shake you
laugh at you
and dance with you
Then
Leave.
Time is but
exploration of eons
years happen in
instances
And moments can last
forever
We are
dream walkers
earth shakers
ocean talkers
Parting seas of insecurities
Doubts painting
histories
we can choose
not to live out.
each breath
a choice
of freedom
each breath new and
unexplained
retain this wonder
and wander
alone
to your expansive hearts content
For lessons
in pine trees dripping emerald tears
on peaks each footstep brings closer,
Are what build you strong.
Roots of soul
working through your veins
the framing to become
anything
and everything
You are.
Dec 6, 2017
Dec 6, 2017 at 4:20 PM UTC
I reel in the silence of my own heartbeat
This familiar aching embarrassment
Spreading through my limbs
And instead of facing the hurt that pulses underneath, I embrace
The racing molten lava burning through my veins.
Explosive, I strike out physically
The energy throbbing behind my furious eyes as slick mitts slap dull against worn canvas
The sweat that mats my hair, dripping into my eyes to leave a residual sting,
Is chosen over tears
That have been shed over one far too skilled at yanking my heartstrings.
I succumb to the hot fire flood
Pounding fists into bags worn and tattered
A scream of frustration building behind clenched teeth
Unwilling to voice the pain
Of distance gained through meaningless conversation.
The hurt of unexpressed sentiments held back to create space
For my insecure imagination.
This wall of rage rolling across the shattered surface of
heartache at being
ghosted.
Once again.
How hard is clear communication?
I kneel at the heart of my exasperation
My own lack of courage.
The kind of bravery allowing one to speak real words of feeling.
But it hurts when you don't respond
like you used to
And your words - cut short - hold little meaning
seemingly altered and unforgiving.
This jostled dissonance mocks my vulnerability
So instead of defaulting to crying
I bypass tears and scream
Fists flying.
Nov 1, 2017
Nov 1, 2017 at 2:27 AM UTC
Follow that burning you feel in your bones. That tingle of pure fire running through your veins
Ignite your soul.
there is so much I would love
to see
These trees
wrap their arms around my blossoming soul; my true home found in the purest laughter of the wind
and the dancing call of the creek
I am you and you are me
we are everything
To be anything. Moment. Living present to recieve our presence. You are only ever here. Now. Embrace the breath found in these rolling forests
our glittering banks
Embrace your breath.
We are freedom. Living simply, living peacfully. We are love. Embrace this moment always.
The sun brushes kisses upon my upraised face
bringing warmth to my soul
opening in delicious appreciation of the wonderful heat that he is.
Everyday. bestowing kisses and asking nothing in return.
What can be more beautiful
then that?
Take this body. Release tension. Breath deep. Breathe to remind. You are anything. Everything. Take your body and live in your truth. Imagine if you did, how free you would be!
My soul is expanding, wide open hugging the earth in all her glory. So diverse, so intricate, so simple. She is everywhere. Fingers of wind running through my hair, salty kisses of the ocean, brushing my toes. The burbling laugh of mountain streams hopping rocks in their journey of release.
There is no search. There is only now, and the enjoyment of the chickadee calling goodmorning to the toes of sun running between the cedar trunks. There is only now. Breath.
I am you and you are me.
we are everything
Apr 13, 2017
Apr 13, 2017 at 1:47 AM UTC
Surrender
Surrender to flow
Surrender to emotion, fluid in my veins
Surrender to breath caught between the shards of my rib cage
Surrender to the ink lines left dark on sun kissed skin peeling with layers of memories
Surrender,
To love, the wind teasing at strands of garlands strung through mother natures hair, flowing
Surrender, body to stream, floating in silken arms folding my aching soul into insatiable depth
Surrender
To the shadows nipping at my consciousness, ruling my inner mind and dampening my heart.
heart beating strong, insistent, true.
Surrender, past flames of heat
burning to ash my hatred, my fear, my shame
Surrender, to the infinite love
released from white hot coals
Surrender.
Feb 5, 2017
Feb 5, 2017 at 11:30 PM UTC
My body is accustomed now to your absence
Fingers no longer reaching across rumpled blankets for warmth
That is no longer mine.
My mind is accustomed to your absence
Thoughts moving beyond the future we built
Finally freeing me to dare to dream where you are not
Daring me to build a life, grasp opportunities
Soley for my own souls fulfillment
no longer tied to yours
But still, my heart is not accustomed
I drift into the dream world, content
Only to find your face dancing through the interwoven tapestry of my subconscious self
I wake to find your laugh imprinted on the underside of my lids
And my heart betrays me with its subtle ache
Despite these nighttime relapses, I am releasing you slowly
Bit by bit my frozen fingers are pried off of memories too sweet to forget
Forced to drop expectations I built in your fading words
I am learning the anger that rides beside the sadness
Is only temporary blindness to the wisdom of love you brought me
The wild dance of freedom you injected in my veins
The otherworldly rush of adrenalin through my body
I am learning I have the right to be angry but also
that is is too powerful
an emotion to
waste on you
You who does not want any part of my erratic heart
This is the simple knowledge that is allowing me to shed this skin
you've left me drowning in
and to breathe free air
once again.
Jan 3, 2017
Jan 3, 2017 at 11:40 AM UTC