Even though I'm the one who's going soon,
it feels like you're the one leaving
I can feel you pulling away and I think
it's too soon to miss me but you already do
Four months are not that long and I know
it doesn't mean that much to you
Four years ago I thought I would never
feel like this again but I already do.
I guess it's nice to have someone to miss
but I don't want nice. I don't want to
leave you again, I don't ever want to leave
you please come with me I love you.
Mar 17, 2016
Mar 17, 2016 at 2:08 AM UTC
I see you in my dreams every full moon,
Your eyes black, hair dark, skin golden,
Lifting out a hand for me to take.
I see your smile but know it's illusion,
Dismissing your needs for affection,
Waving you away with a flourish.
You refuse to leave, remain to haunt
This house like a ghost, but never silent--
Every night in my ear, a whisper of your regrets.
And within my dream, I dream
And fantasize about taking a guitar string
From my guitar that you said you'd fix.
I walk up behind you as you stare
At our beautiful reflection in the mirror,
And pull that silver string around your neck.
But ghosts can walk free,
Those invisible people who inflict scores of pain,
Memories too much for one to bear
Yet I feel nothing.
Oct 28, 2015
Oct 28, 2015 at 3:15 PM UTC
I want to live in your veins beneath your skin
I want to tangle myself up in your life
I want to feel all your pain, sweet pain
I want to share in your light (when it burns)
I know you’re weak right now
I don’t want to take up your time
But I have to find you tonight
and make you mine, all mine
Let the rush flow through you
Write your memories down on my skin,
on my skin
Tell me that you love me too
Pull me deeper, pull me in (to you)
Mar 11, 2014
Mar 11, 2014 at 12:35 PM UTC
I turned around
and let it go
I was following the cold
With a bright red scarf
tied around my throat
Looking for safety in the white snow
I left the salty sun behind
along with the new flowers of spring
And I raced towards the shade,
and the icy winds that blow,
with arms open wide.
A shiver is a happy thing,
it means I'm going home
The cold never bothers me
I dance because I can
and I sing as I go.
Mar 7, 2014
Mar 7, 2014 at 3:20 PM UTC
I've been wandering this world for awhile
Getting lost at every turn but always
finding my way home
I've been in love with him for awhile
Messing up every chance but always
finding my way back to him
But I've been on this journey for too long
I haven't seen his face,
I haven't been home in months
and I don't know if I'll be coming back.
I think being lost
is where I'm supposed to be.
Mar 7, 2014
Mar 7, 2014 at 3:05 PM UTC
I want to.
Today, I want to.
But tomorrow the sun will rise and change my mind
And I don't like regrets.
Maybe by summertime, I'll still want to.
Today, I want to.
But in the summer the days will be longer and you'll change your mind
And it will be too late by then.
If I knew that it wouldn't change things
If I knew that I would still be the same
I would want to.
But I can't.
Dec 26, 2013
Dec 26, 2013 at 10:01 PM UTC
I am no longer a mermaid.
Once upon a time I swam in the sea
And watched relationships sail past.
I saw lovers on land and I wished
to be part of that world.
I am no longer a mermaid.
I cast off my scales and my tail
And I gave up my voice
For no man, but for me
And I grew legs, long and lean and strong.
I am no longer a mermaid.
I grew a mane and a tail
And I set off into the wild
And I ran for so long that
My feet grew hooves.
I am a stallion.
I run free and solitary
I do not see the ocean any more
I see no people, no ships, no lovers.
I am free.
Oct 29, 2013
Oct 29, 2013 at 8:12 AM UTC
I can't remember the shape of your face,
the curl of your hair,
the warmth of your smile
but I remember your eyes
and the way they look
when you look at me
I can't remember if I still love you
or if you have good taste in music
or if you can dance
I don't remember the sound of your voice
but I remember the way
it feels when you hold me
Oct 20, 2013
Oct 20, 2013 at 3:10 PM UTC
I don't need you.
I don't want you.
I don't need anyone except me,
I don't want anything except what I have.
I'm enough for this thing we call life.
They all let me down,
even the ones I trusted most,
for years and years on end.
I'm so incredibly happy,
Now that I know it's just me,
my thoughts, and the world
on this journey.
No one will ever be
enough for me
Nothing else could
ever be enough.
I expect perfection
and I'm always disappointed
the only thing that's perfect,
that's real
is me, is nature,
is the universe.
Sometimes I let others in,
but just to the guest room
and they never stay
more than a night.
They leave through the window
without a word
And it is good.
I am an island.
My song, my voice,
my thoughts, my secrets
are only ever for me
and the winds when I whisper them
or the oceans when I shout into the darkness
and no one will ever hear.
Oct 9, 2013
Oct 9, 2013 at 3:46 PM UTC
My questions are never answered
This city isn’t even real
This late at night
You can’t trust how you feel.
I want to be closer,
but you like to keep your distance
I have no control
in this stupid little dance.
Hello, what’s your name?
Your eyes don’t speak to me
I miss the sparkle.
Just let me be free.
Oct 5, 2013
Oct 5, 2013 at 6:32 PM UTC