jennifer-collins
I write mainly dark poetry but have a few happy poems. I tend to stick to myself in a crowd but I love meeting new people. My favorite song is Bullet and my color is black. "My momma always said life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get until you bite into it," Forest Gump. Live a little, breathe a little, and love a little. Don't judge a person by their looks, judge by their personality. Be nice because everyone is going through a hard battle. I got my heart stolen by a robber with some hiking boots on. Haha, he's my guy and everything. Just cuz I'm nice, doesn't meant I'm flirting.
My lips are open but I cannot speak
My tongue is numb, my lips are weak
So in silence here I sit
Harassed by the ever present IT
He watches me as I walk by
I think I'm okay, but I know that's a lie
As long as he's watching, I can't say a word
I wish I could fly away like a bird
They all had a sense to turn and flee
But my life has collapsed, I'm stuck in the debris
So stuck here in the rubble, I try to live
No kindness or understanding are they willing to give
So secluded in and alone in a closet off the hall
I hide as the lockers all slam, shaking the walls
I hope he won't find me, in a sanctuary here
Maybe someday my worries will just disappear
But for now...
Nov 11, 2014
Nov 11, 2014 at 11:24 AM UTC
Conversation
No Sensation
Things I've yet to say
Your words still sting
Just lingering
I hang my head in weak dismay
Thoughts of sorrow
Bar tomorrow
Keep my from the night
I walk the paths back to the past
And they all lead back to the same place
Why do I still call you name
After all this time has passed
Former feelings
Still have meaning
Voids I've yet to fill
There's moving on
It's been and gone
But I can't help but keep standing still
You affection
Stark reflection
Of how things used to be
Gotta bide my time
Gotta keep me mine
Gotta keep myself from thinking
Gotta keep myself from drinking
Nov 11, 2014
Nov 11, 2014 at 11:12 AM UTC
Life is a tornado
Spiraling out of control
This is an all time low
Falling into a black hole
This is not just a phase
Filled with so much sorrow
As I struggle through the days
Not something I will out grow
Everyone is so accusing
The faces get blurry
It's all so confusing
No new to worry
It is hard to pretend
Everything is okay
Maybe this is the end
All my eyes see is grey
The clock ticks
Seconds pass
Can I be fixed
Will this pain last
I am a wreck
This isn't what you expect
Life is heck
It just can't be perfect
Life is a tornado
Spiraling out of control
This is an all time low
Falling into a black hole
Oct 30, 2014
Oct 30, 2014 at 11:49 AM UTC
I seem like an amazing girl
Who is always so bubbly and happy
I seem like the girl who has a regular family
I seem like the girl that has no problems
Going on in her life
I seem like the girl who stays so strong
When something goes wrong
But honestly if you think
I'm that kind of girl
You don't know me at all
I make it seem that I have no problems
When that's all my life is anymore
I seem like the most happy girl
But that's just what I want you to think
I seem like a strong girl
But I'm actually weak
I wish I was that girl
That I play out to be
But wishing is all I get
To do these days
I wish, but I never recieve
Oct 30, 2014
Oct 30, 2014 at 11:41 AM UTC
Hiding in the dark corner crying on your knee
Tear stained skin gathers all around your face
Turn the lights back on and try to cover if with makeup
Hope no one calls you on your humiliating secret
You wish your life wouldn't be this way
You always tell yourself that you are going to change
Yet still you always end up back in that dark corners refuge
You know how you are supposed to feel
So you pretend that you're filled with joy
But you are the only one who knows what really lies inside your soul
Just keep away from the temptation of tears
And the dreams that gamble with death
Just lie in your mother's arms
Wrap yourself up tight knowing all the while
That tomorrow everything won't be alright.
Oct 30, 2014
Oct 30, 2014 at 11:28 AM UTC
I'm the girl who sits at the back
I'm the girl who always hides
I'm the girl that nobody speaks to
I'm the girl with no friend by her side
I'm the girl who doesn't care
I'm the girl who doesn't speak
I'm the girl who's pushed around
I'm the girl they all call weak
I'm the girl who gets no peace
I'm the girl who's all alone
I'm the girl who sits and weeps
I'm the girl who lives in fear
I'm the girl who has no use
I'm the girl that tries to smile
I'm the girl that they abuse
I'm the girl who has no life
I'm the girl who tries to run
I'm the girl whom you ignore
I'm the girl who has no fun
I'm the girl who tells no one
I'm the girl who hates my school
I'm the girl they love to hurt
I'm the girl who's so not cool
I'm the girl who wants to escape
I'm the girl who wants a friend
I'm the girl that no one sees
I'm the girl who wants the pain to end
Oct 22, 2014
Oct 22, 2014 at 1:28 PM UTC
What's up?
Only friends ask that.
What's wrong with you?
Only jerks ask that.
Where are you at now?
Only lovers ask that.
Don't want to give up
So you give in.
You've reached the ******
What the hell is wrong with you?
Only ******* ask that.
Do you like me?
Only crushes ask that.
Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaasabi?
Only dorks BFF's ask that.
Oct 22, 2014
Oct 22, 2014 at 1:23 PM UTC
I could pour my heart out to you
You say I can trust you
But people say that all the time
The never mean it
They tell your parents
Or whoever
Can you just keep this to yourself
I just pour my heart out
I don't know what it is
I just want to tell you everything
What would you say?
What would you do?
What could you say?
What could you do?
Maybe you can help
Or maybe you can't help me
Maybe you could give me hope
Or maybe I'm hopeless
I guess I'll never know
Unless I pour my heart out
Oct 22, 2014
Oct 22, 2014 at 1:21 PM UTC
I'm not hungry,
But I'm starving
I should eat,
But I can't bring myself to.
It smells so good,
yet sickening.
I know this isn't okay,
But I'm just fine.
I'm going down the drain,
But I don't mind.
It's horrid,
But it's meant to be.
Thank you,
But no thank you.
I know you want to help,
But I don't need help.
I'm not hungry,
But I'm starving
Oct 22, 2014
Oct 22, 2014 at 1:18 PM UTC
Worthless
Everyday I fight
But then, I realize that they are right
Everyday an endless strife
To get a somewhat "social life"
All the torment impales my heart
Seems there is nothing to set them apart
I come home crying everyday
I foresee no other way
Have the blade, ready in my hand
I'm ready to depart this land
Oct 22, 2014
Oct 22, 2014 at 1:14 PM UTC