Drunk one day
you wrecked the car
beer in the console
pretending to be sober
mom yelled at you
could sense the pain
came home one day
and saw you left us
crying on the phone
it had been a month
just wanted to know why
don't know what you said
couldn't get past the tears
was never the same
when you came back
you tried to love Brian and I
but I could sense
that you didn't
no matter how much stuff you bought us
you have a family now
you love them in ways
you could never love us
I still love you dad
do you hear me?
I love you dad
I forgive you and I love you
and I know someday you will love me too
May 17, 2018
May 17, 2018 at 8:14 PM UTC
I do what I do to put my daughter through college one day
so she will never have to do what I do to get payed
i chose this life, no one but me
but you cant tell me it wasn't destiny
when I got kicked out
living on my own
never had a stable home
and always feeling so alone
Searching for answers in people that never had them
self-medicating so I didn't have to feel so bad and
brook was getting older
weight crushing down on my shoulders
money owed everywhere
and then I had to stare
my baby in the eye knowing I had nothing.
I gave up everything.
I know im worth more
than this money on the floor
I know I will be talked about and humiliated, belittled and affiliated
with the filth of life
and everyday I cry
wondering why this had to be me
but when brook looks at me
I know that we will always have money
and she will never have to be homeless or hungry
or be anything less than what she's meant to be
she will always be happy, the way things are supposed to be.
Jun 8, 2015
Jun 8, 2015 at 12:53 AM UTC
Watching the way
you slept at night
waiting for me
to come home from
my third shift shift
job, I ran my
fingers through
your hair
and kissed every
scar on your skin
and hoped that you
were having a good
dream and knew even
while you slept that
somebody loved you.
Jul 22, 2014
Jul 22, 2014 at 5:50 PM UTC
The first person I loved bruised my body
Everyone always wonders why I'm so up and down.
Why its hard for me to be stable
Or strong
Or wanted.
I wonder
If there is something wrong with me
And if that is why no one can love me.
May 19, 2014
May 19, 2014 at 9:01 PM UTC