Why do I bother with love
It only leads to me falling apart
Sep 20, 2015
Sep 20, 2015 at 10:59 PM UTC
I wish someone would see me and just think "wow"
I wish someone would be scared to talk to me
I wish someone wanted my nose or my smile
I wish someone thought about listening to my voice for hours
I wish someone found me interesting
I wish someone envied anything about me
I wish someone thought about my laugh
I wish someone brought me up in conversation
I wish someone would call me beautiful
Just for once I wish people viewed me as I viewed them
I feel like I pass by so unnoticed
Sep 18, 2015
Sep 18, 2015 at 11:35 PM UTC
I guess I'm just not who you thought I would be
Because I have a cold heart and I have cold feet
Can you feel them radiating from me?
I don't know why I tried to compete, I always end up in defeat
I truly thought I could be more this time
Of course for you but also for I
I want to be ethereal, I want to be a miracle
I'll never be a thing but used material
should I try to love you or love myself?
I don't know which one would be worse if it didn't work out
It's been so long since I was important to you but I have no doubt
This is what it's always been about
Sep 18, 2015
Sep 18, 2015 at 11:22 PM UTC
I thought I was in love but the only thing I was in was denial.
Sep 9, 2015
Sep 9, 2015 at 7:42 PM UTC
I will never be mysterious and ****
Charming or beautiful
Talented, unattainable
With a smooth voices and a soft chuckle
I will always laugh too loud
Talk too long with a choppy voice
Have frizzy hair and a crooked smile
Awkward and accident prone, boring
I'll never be my ideal thought of beauty
Will I ever be okay with that?
Aug 18, 2015
Aug 18, 2015 at 12:28 AM UTC
Don't fall in love
It'll never work out
Be nothing instead
It lasts forever
Aug 8, 2015
Aug 8, 2015 at 10:59 PM UTC
Maybe I feel such hate for myself
because I've given all my love away to everyone else
Aug 6, 2015
Aug 6, 2015 at 12:02 PM UTC
Even though you left I think I'm the one whose suffering from loneliness
Each breath I exhale burns like I'm running out of oxygen
I carry a weight around but I'm not sure what it is exactly
is it the memories or who I was supposed to be?
I can't find an answer, not even sealed in a kiss
I thought I believed in true love but this can't be it
The confusion blurs my vision and I ask everyone to speak twice
because I can't see the small details I appreciated once in life
Everything seems to rehearsed and predictable
I want some pain that at least I can control
I am used and unwanted I wish I could burn this shell to the ground
My body is aching for abuse because it has no reason now
my mind is screaming at me but all you hear is silence
I can't even die right, what a coincidence
I wish I could say I am nothing but that is not the case
I am a failure, a betrayal, I am my worse mistakes
I want to be free from the prison that is my own mind
the cell walls are my flesh I can cut bars into any time
Where is the happiness I was once promised?
Why is the world so ******* dishonest.
Aug 5, 2015
Aug 5, 2015 at 9:00 PM UTC
I saw a photo of you
and all I could think about was dying
so I cut myself with my mom's new knife set
and I cried in the shower for hours
Jul 9, 2015
Jul 9, 2015 at 2:22 PM UTC
I felt insignificant
small, unimportant
until I was the reason for scars
Jun 27, 2015
Jun 27, 2015 at 9:14 PM UTC