I sit here haven't made any accomplishments today
But just getting out of bed
Getting ready for all the coming
Doubts that steer me just to where i am right now..
Alone again in my car in a random parking lot.
Feeling disgusted with myself
For doing it again
Disappointing myself for not following through what I promised yesturday wouldnt reoccure today..
Missing yet another day of work
And no one gets it
No one seems to Truly feel what this is
The pressure of myself not understanding is also wrecking
So i cry
Cry out to no one
For where's the cure
I Google to come up with Im alone.
I just want a friend..
I just want these feelings to fade
I just want to be myself again
As i just sit here alone In this parking lot lost with no cure..
Sep 19, 2018
Sep 19, 2018 at 11:59 AM UTC
May I just run away to you.
Falling into your arms.
Let you be my escape
My leisure
Erasing time
Disregarding reality
Though only to be thought as a dream
May you be my most desired prayer
Sep 9, 2018
Sep 9, 2018 at 10:58 PM UTC
He sits and waits for her
Only he knows she's not coming
Unsure as it beats his mind
She sits watching the time pass
Every minute taunting as hours creep by
Being pulled in every direction
Descions are so difficult to make
Wither it's her happiness sacrificed for his or to set herself free
Sep 9, 2018
Sep 9, 2018 at 10:58 PM UTC
"You cry when you're with me.
And you cry when your without me
What the **** do you want .."
Sep 9, 2018
Sep 9, 2018 at 10:57 PM UTC
Lock me up throw away the key
Times gone by with waste and too many regrets
Now I lay motionless to myself as I feel I'm not even in existence
To feel .. is too much
To think is too much
And to speak .. what's the point
I have but only empty pages
After disposing my truths
I've erased all my effort of positivity
And here I lay without even a prayer to lift me . Yet a voice lingers ... Saying you could have it worse . .. not giving up as I let closing my eyes and laying here to be my escape
Sep 9, 2018
Sep 9, 2018 at 10:56 PM UTC
I have this sadness within
I feel it deeply aching within the core of my heart.
I feel it pouring from my eyes
I feel the searing cries
My body's abused and left with no choice as my mind tries to subside within the storms that always arise
With barely an appetite when alone
With barely a reason to just go on..
As reality is a close call to fall off any edge
This pain from within has no real cure.
As I pray to be lifted and placed elsewhere..
Sep 9, 2018
Sep 9, 2018 at 10:56 PM UTC
I'm racing down the road
Blistering cold
Out in the open
Tell me...Should I be waiting for you..
Can you remind me of why I'm here
I am only real with you
My deep sea only projects without you
And so
This venture I seek
Anything to feel alive
Anything to feel my heart beating
Anything to feel that I'm still needed
Can't you see it's all i have to just hold on
This person within me is dying
And no one in my passenger to save what's left
Sep 9, 2018
Sep 9, 2018 at 10:55 PM UTC
As my title says ...
And I open my arms to the unknowing and with a leap of faith may hope prosper and love always reside
Sep 9, 2018
Sep 9, 2018 at 10:54 PM UTC