You have no idea the full extent of what’s goin’
because you have been so consumed with your own pain and suffering.Believe me I do understand you and don’t blame you at all.
You have been through hell and back and I’m sorry for how trying that has been. I’m in hell too..and it *****
I’m tired of achin’, my emotional reserves are all draining…
It has been raining…
Sorry but I’m finally leavin’.
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 7:09 AM UTC
i purposely didn’t write poetry for you when i was still stitching back all the torn pieces.
i know all of them would be loaded with shits,unimaginable pains and sorrows.
and only would reveal words that should be left unspoken and things meant to be hidden.
i’ve waited when I no longer ache and completely move on far unreachable.
my love, yes, i welcome you to have a taste of your own medicine.
but remember my dearest, i now realize some people are not worth the second chances.
so… i will never write and long for you again.
Isn’t wonderful my darlin’?
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 7:01 AM UTC
It’s been a while since today…
Oh worry not, am okay…
Everything has been taken away…
Nothing anymore can break me.
See, am just fine without anyone…
The old me maybe is gone…
…I intend no pun,
head on, am completely done.
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 7:00 AM UTC
under my wounded pride, i always say you never had me.
that you were just one of my fantasies granted, like how cinderella met her prince.
i know these are feelings never to share with you anymore.
that at least for once, I’ve kept something of me you didn’t know and realizing it, is my crowning glory.
The real enemy is myself… i easily completely reveal all of me, limitless and never ending.
as i slowly unfold myself unto you.. you started drifting apart. i feel it and i’ve never been so afraid in my life.
i tried to ignore what i was feeling…drowned in the thoughts that you could do more.
that you are someone unlike them. someone who will knock me down yet will pick me up after.
day after day, you witness how i messed up. how weak i was and how i couldn’t stand for myself. how i could no longer handle the situation and i cling unto you for strength. you began to tremble too… lost for words and started doubting if it was all we will ever be.
like a snow in winter, you become cold, and i burnt. yes, not all that burns is hot. i look into your eyes, i see a girl on fire. i thought she was flaming with undying endearment for me.
yet I remember, your eyes are mirrors and i am looking at my own reflection.
with careful planned moves, your gear shifted. instead of going forward, you reversed back. you look past of the girl you once adored.
all you see is a woman so torn that you decide you would love her no more. then you ended it all without a warning.
i hated you…i hated you that instead of blaming the situation, you blamed me. that instead of facing it on, you exited the easy way out.
you utter words that cut me into pieces, cause wounds that only “longevity” could heal.
listen, i carry the invisible scars that will forever bleed.
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 6:59 AM UTC
we all ***** up once in a while.
we have ups and downs, we twist and turn,
taking one baby step forward
then turning a giant leap 100times back.
get up. get going.
re-create your storyline.
make your original script
and be your own hero.
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 6:55 AM UTC
there was me and you
they said we were magical
that’s all we are now
just a “past”, a “was” a “were”
a fantasy that ONCE real.
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 6:54 AM UTC
Thank you for bailing me out when i am a prisoner of myself,
…. for staying late when shutting my eyes would keep me awake
…for staying afloat when I drown in the ocean of grief
…for the tranquility while I fish In the troubled sea
am sorry am in the middle of a battle myself would need to win
…until i resolve this war am not worthy of anything
…i enjoy too much the sound of my silence
…i love this quiet violence
Thank you and am sorry for trying to fix me broken.
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 6:52 AM UTC
iloveyou
“still” is a state irrelevant
because
i never for one second
doubted that i do
of course you’ve hurt me
like there’s no more tomorrow
i hold that in
my heart of hearts
because i know
ilove you
and that’s okay
you don’t have to
love me
back again anyway
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 6:48 AM UTC
tell you things that shouldn’t matter any longer;
i take comfort
that i could hurt you
no more
no disappointments
and failed expectations
i can most safely affirm
you still remember
i once told you
iloveyou more than my heartaches and pain.
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 6:46 AM UTC
then you pushed me away
and now i am stuck
waiting for you to say
you are pulling me back
the door’s closed
but not locked
you say
i tried the ****
turned clockwise and counter
it’s not movin’, it’s jammed
so i ask, is there someone else than me?
no one’s knocked yet
you say
the door is closed but not locked
you repeat
but how come i need a key?
i slammed the door
and there
i was hurt once more.
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 6:44 AM UTC