jd-relznak - Hello Poetry

Welcome to hell Bukowski brain Shut up Or shut down I’m in a bar My bar Talk to me But don’t listen I don’t care Suffering is inevitable Go away She’s mine.... It’s my life All mine My bar

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Mar 9, 2019

Mar 9, 2019 at 3:44 AM UTC

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Welcome to hell Bukowski brain Shut up Or shut down I’m in a bar My bar Talk to me But don’t listen I don’t care Suffering is inevitable Go away She’s mine.... It’s my life All mine My bar

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You know when you can’t have something? And it takes over your soul? All encompassing. The world. That certain sparkle in her eye. Space and time collide, the light. Mornings are the worst Because she sleeps so far from me. It’s cold and dark but I get up and go. Do the things and wait till afternoon When she decides to talk to me, That’s when I truly wake up. And the things around me turn interesting. That’s the “fire” In all those songs!

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Feb 8, 2019

Feb 8, 2019 at 4:13 AM UTC

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You know when you can’t have something? And it takes over your soul? All encompassing. The world. That certain sparkle in her eye. Space and time collide, the light. Mornings are the worst Because she sleeps so far from me. It’s cold and dark but I get up and go. Do the things and wait till afternoon When she decides to talk to me, That’s when I truly wake up. And the things around me turn interesting. That’s the “fire” In all those songs!

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I **** my self with Alien thoughts. ******** Overthinking... Lost in a forest. I’m alive... Not dead yet. Alcohol... My reality is, Empty, Grabbing hands with Insanity. Which way is out?

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Feb 8, 2019

Feb 8, 2019 at 4:11 AM UTC

Exit

I **** my self with Alien thoughts. ******** Overthinking... Lost in a forest. I’m alive... Not dead yet. Alcohol... My reality is, Empty, Grabbing hands with Insanity. Which way is out?

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Sehnsucht! Strangles my Soul She Swims inside Suffocating me Sehnsucht!

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Feb 8, 2019

Feb 8, 2019 at 4:09 AM UTC

Sehnsucht

Sehnsucht! Strangles my Soul She Swims inside Suffocating me Sehnsucht!

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All the things.. That happened To me when I was little; They broke me And they made me. It’s not their fault or mine. It is what it is, And through trials And tribulations Here I am. Alone and afraid. I have a friend I love. Queen of lights. Broken but brilliant. My morning light. Burning up inside. Like the stars, But different! That’s what I think of When I wake up. So strange. A thinker... My maker’s muse. I’m amazed Every day. This is gay... And she would Laugh at this. But here I am!!!!!! Pitiful and perplexed. Talking to myself. Alliteration for An alien mind. I’ve died a few times. I don’t care if die again, I don’t, Karolina... I don’t care.

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Feb 8, 2019

Feb 8, 2019 at 4:08 AM UTC

I don’t care

All the things.. That happened To me when I was little; They broke me And they made me. It’s not their fault or mine. It is what it is, And through trials And tribulations Here I am. Alone and afraid. I have a friend I love. Queen of lights. Broken but brilliant. My morning light. Burning up inside. Like the stars, But different! That’s what I think of When I wake up. So strange. A thinker... My maker’s muse. I’m amazed Every day. This is gay... And she would Laugh at this. But here I am!!!!!! Pitiful and perplexed. Talking to myself. Alliteration for An alien mind. I’ve died a few times. I don’t care if die again, I don’t, Karolina... I don’t care.

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What is happening? Another addiction? Or a real reaction? Self defense mechanism? Bandage for a broken heart? Some stimulus for a sad soul? She reminds me of myself. Before breaking to bits... After already being broken By bad breaks And bad company. I laugh now... She’s so snarky. Hilarious and smart. What was I thinking? Who are you? Where did you come from? How do you know these things? Rainbow turns to white. The light! This feels alright. Is my heart healed? (My head hurts still) And I’m afraid This is crazy. It’s insanity!!! “Hey, Pretty Lady!” Deep and dark. Destroys me. My mind melts down (Distracting!!! ******* rainbow!) Dark queen of lights. My morning star. Brilliant and bewildered, Beautiful angel, Broken... Like me. 8-1-2018

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Feb 8, 2019

Feb 8, 2019 at 4:05 AM UTC

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What is happening? Another addiction? Or a real reaction? Self defense mechanism? Bandage for a broken heart? Some stimulus for a sad soul? She reminds me of myself. Before breaking to bits... After already being broken By bad breaks And bad company. I laugh now... She’s so snarky. Hilarious and smart. What was I thinking? Who are you? Where did you come from? How do you know these things? Rainbow turns to white. The light! This feels alright. Is my heart healed? (My head hurts still) And I’m afraid This is crazy. It’s insanity!!! “Hey, Pretty Lady!” Deep and dark. Destroys me. My mind melts down (Distracting!!! ******* rainbow!) Dark queen of lights. My morning star. Brilliant and bewildered, Beautiful angel, Broken... Like me. 8-1-2018

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Oxytocin She stayed with me the other night. She slept in my bed And I held her close. The comfort of another Little spoon. Such sweetness. I lay there half asleep In case I fall asleep completely And awake from a dream That was never real. She lights up my mind And I’m afraid of losing that. The terror of solitude. Enough is enough isn’t it? Wanting more is selfish. But I do sometimes. Body bypasses brain. Broken. Bewildered. Bemused. Addicted to a feeling? A chemical process? Action. Reaction. Repeat. I just want to laugh and live. I’m alive and dead inside. She likes me enough. But does she love me? And what do I love? The comfort of a feeling?

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Feb 8, 2019

Feb 8, 2019 at 4:03 AM UTC

Oxytocin

Oxytocin She stayed with me the other night. She slept in my bed And I held her close. The comfort of another Little spoon. Such sweetness. I lay there half asleep In case I fall asleep completely And awake from a dream That was never real. She lights up my mind And I’m afraid of losing that. The terror of solitude. Enough is enough isn’t it? Wanting more is selfish. But I do sometimes. Body bypasses brain. Broken. Bewildered. Bemused. Addicted to a feeling? A chemical process? Action. Reaction. Repeat. I just want to laugh and live. I’m alive and dead inside. She likes me enough. But does she love me? And what do I love? The comfort of a feeling?

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All the things.. That happened To me when I was little; They broke me And they made me. It’s not their fault or mine. It is what it is, And through trials And tribulations Here I am. Alone and afraid. I have a friend I love. Queen of lights. Broken but brilliant. My morning light. Burning up inside. Like the stars, But different! That’s what I think of When I wake up. So so strange. A thinker... My maker’s muse. I’m amazed Every day. This is gay... And she would Laugh at this. But here I am!!!!!! Pitiful and perplexed. Talking to myself. Alliteration for An alien mind. I’ve died a few times. I don’t care if die again, I don’t, Karolina... I don’t care.

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Sep 24, 2018

Sep 24, 2018 at 12:45 AM UTC

Karolina, Queen of Lights

All the things.. That happened To me when I was little; They broke me And they made me. It’s not their fault or mine. It is what it is, And through trials And tribulations Here I am. Alone and afraid. I have a friend I love. Queen of lights. Broken but brilliant. My morning light. Burning up inside. Like the stars, But different! That’s what I think of When I wake up. So so strange. A thinker... My maker’s muse. I’m amazed Every day. This is gay... And she would Laugh at this. But here I am!!!!!! Pitiful and perplexed. Talking to myself. Alliteration for An alien mind. I’ve died a few times. I don’t care if die again, I don’t, Karolina... I don’t care.

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What is happening? Another addiction? Or a real reaction? Self defense mechanism? Bandage for a broken heart? Some stimulus for a sad soul? She reminds me of myself. Before breaking to bits... After already being broken By bad breaks And bad company. I laugh now... She’s so snarky. Hilarious and smart. What was I thinking? Who are you? Where did you come from? How do you know these things? Rainbow turns to white. The light! This feels alright. Is my heart healed? (My head hurts still) And I’m afraid This is crazy. It’s insanity!!! “Hey, Pretty Lady!” Deep and dark. Destroys me. My mind melts down (Distracting!!! ******* rainbow!) Dark queen of lights. My morning star. Brilliant and bewildered, Beautiful angel, Broken... Like me.

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Sep 24, 2018

Sep 24, 2018 at 12:39 AM UTC

What is hapening

What is happening? Another addiction? Or a real reaction? Self defense mechanism? Bandage for a broken heart? Some stimulus for a sad soul? She reminds me of myself. Before breaking to bits... After already being broken By bad breaks And bad company. I laugh now... She’s so snarky. Hilarious and smart. What was I thinking? Who are you? Where did you come from? How do you know these things? Rainbow turns to white. The light! This feels alright. Is my heart healed? (My head hurts still) And I’m afraid This is crazy. It’s insanity!!! “Hey, Pretty Lady!” Deep and dark. Destroys me. My mind melts down (Distracting!!! ******* rainbow!) Dark queen of lights. My morning star. Brilliant and bewildered, Beautiful angel, Broken... Like me.

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Wiping away years of dust I got something in my eye. Everything dies And we do what we must. It's not you that makes me cry I simply got something in my eye.

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Mar 21, 2014

Mar 21, 2014 at 5:44 PM UTC

A Tear In My Eye

Wiping away years of dust I got something in my eye. Everything dies And we do what we must. It's not you that makes me cry I simply got something in my eye.

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