Please forgive me
I know not what I do
I’m living in a bubble and I can’t see through
Walking in a daze, an ambient haze
That’s so thick that I’ll never really see you
I walk around in a dream, while my life passes me by
I’m filled with fear, it floods my head
And I don’t even know why…
The voices in my head,
They ebb and flow, and startlingly grow
If only I knew how close I was
To the stillness that speaks
To the light that shines and ultimately sublimes
Opens your eyes to the wonders around
And even the sights and sounds
The one word that will change your life
Take you up to new heights
Now always remember,
That word is…
Surrender
Sep 11, 2013
Sep 11, 2013 at 6:06 PM UTC
As the sands of time
Slowly slither, silently on
As you try to grab a hold
It siphons through your fingertips
The harder you squeeze
The faster the flow
But when you open your hand
Spread your fingers wide
a small pile settles in the palm
When you hold on
It suffocates suddenly, simply still
But loosen your grip
And life flourishes as you will
Change is the only constant
Always remember the simple truth, that
people are in your life for three reasons:
For a reason
for a season
or for a lifetime
Each one as important as the other
but none so important that you can't live without
each one just a lesson learnt
So be grateful for each moment well spent
Because after all...
All we ever seem to do is say goodbye
Jun 20, 2013
Jun 20, 2013 at 6:38 AM UTC
I see you lying there
Your skin golden and bare
I look deep into your eyes, but all I can see
Is her looking straight back at me
They say she found someone
He’s smart, cute and handsome
And she’s happy as can be
Funny that she used to say that about me
She was mine and I was hers
But time is cruel it stagnates,
Loses the vibe and separates
I've never been good at goodbyes
I miss you, no one can compare
But I know your still out there
Smiling, golden, beautiful
I just pray that he’s suitable
I miss you
I love you
Goodbye
Jun 5, 2013
Jun 5, 2013 at 6:59 AM UTC
If you could be anything, what would it be?
Would it be large and strong, or humble like a flea
I've asked myself that question a hundred times
And even felt lost sometimes
Now the animal for me is a duck
Graceful and elegant, filled with poise
And never one to quack as noise
Under the water, away from the light
Its tiny legs kick with a bite
Each and every kick back and forth
Let’s it head further north
Forth in the direction you want to be
So kick those feet and join me
Towards your dreams…
May 2, 2013
May 2, 2013 at 4:13 PM UTC
I’m sorry about your scars
And all this pain you’re feeling
I try to cover my eyes
But I still see you bleeding
I wish I could change who I was
Who I’m supposed to be
If I could go back in time
Wrap you in a hug
And protect you from the world
That bites and cuts and knocks you down
Brings tears to your face
Covers up your grace
I'm sorry...
Life is hard, it favours the bold
We're too young to feel this old
May 1, 2013
May 1, 2013 at 4:22 AM UTC
I pray Cupid comes to me
Comes to set me free
Shoots an arrow deep into my soul
And fills that gaping hole
Gives me love like never before
Because lately I’ve been craving more
Maybe I should let you go
But how am I to know
Its been a while that I’ve been hanging on
And its finally starting to feel wrong
Your not the angel I once thought you were
Maybe you’re just a filthy *****
I was lost and now I’m found
I came back down to the ground
I am turning into someone to be
I am not the ghost you are to me
May 1, 2013
May 1, 2013 at 4:21 AM UTC
For background - read "The Frumpy Tale of Riley River Duck"
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In the frigid winters of June
With the snow scattering over the crystal lagoon
Puffy white frost pillows covered the ground
The sunshine making them glitter all around
Riley sat with a piping hot cup of tea
Conversing eloquently with Cecelia the flea
The happy duck sat, blankets covering her slick feathers
Helping her brave even the harshest weathers
Out of nowhere came a huge “thump”
Causing Riley to jump
She waddled to the window
Just to see a cloud of dust and kindle
An avalanche slowly slithered along
The beast heaved, wicked and strong
Flicking up ice, draping the sun with a gown
Speckling, flickering and finally glittering down
Outside came a muffled scream
It could’ve been from a dream
Riley rushed outside
With the sun her only guide
She saw a **** of snow wiggle and grow
How was anyone to know?
That the avalanche had awoken an animal
Cory the angry camel
See the snow and lumber
Woke him up from his slumber
Along with the snow, his temper seemed to grow
And his **** was in a frump
Riley waddled out
To settle this bout
She pleaded and reasoned him to see
That the snow was very fun to throw
All the animals of the Great Oak Tree crowded around the fight
Till the day turned into night
Cory was smiling and laughing, his mood lifted
As his big hooves sifted
He lifted up a snowball, and threw it into the sky
Riley could only watch it fly…
It hit her in the beak
So her mouth was too cold to speak
She looked in shock
As Cory ran amok
The camel had won the fight
Just as the day turned to night
The day came to an end
And Cory couldn’t help but pretend
That he wasn’t happy that he won
Throwing snow was very fun
Riley saved the day
In the late winters of May
She took Cory into her house
Quiet as a mouse….
Mar 10, 2013
Mar 10, 2013 at 1:20 PM UTC
Your Biggest Fan: A Hoadley Story
In the time of my life when dreams come true
When I was so immature and learning to live
Being an early adult is always so hard
And draining in ever-ry regard
With a glimpse of fate
And a gift to me
Came a beautiful princess
In a flowery summer-dress
I stumbled into your life, you stumbled into mine
With a shaky start you taught me so much
I grew and grew and thought it through really hard
And finally let down my guard
I fell back into the roses of being in your arms
And embraced the soft sweet scented petals
Where everything was beautiful
And I couldn’t help but feel dutiful
The soft colours and sweet scented world
That you’re so familiar with
Got brighter more and on display
When I began to see you every day
That little ember in my belly
Just below all the butter-flies
Exploded into a roaring fire
Filling me with a burning desire
I’d trap myself in a dream
As long as it’s just you and me
Where we’ll visit exotic lands
And be happy just holding hands
I want to protect you to never see you hurt
To never see your eyes turn grey
To never see tears roll down
Or to ever witness a frumpy frown
I’d shift that mood like the time in the car
When we sat and listened to Noah and the Whale
And we both thought the same thought
About the happiness each other brought
You’ll achieve everything you’ve ever dreamed
Your heart the real House of Hope
I believe in you so much you see
You really are the one for me
So smile for me it’s an amazing gift
One that asks for nothing back in return
I asked the gift of being your man
Because you see, I really am your biggest fan...
Feb 7, 2013
Feb 7, 2013 at 1:43 PM UTC
Pale moonlight flooded through the narrow slits of the draping blinds
Casting an eerie light on the surrounding room
Our chests raised in unison
We truly were connected
Her heavy head
Weighted with all the burdens of a child
Forced to grow up too fast
Fitted into the mold on my chest
Her breathing slow and steady
A polar opposite
to the preceding nights activities
She looked so peaceful
Strange how such peace and purity
Like still moonlight
Can cover the welling inside
of a fiery furnace building, ready to erupt
For with each turn of that moon
That peace and passion
That abundance of love, joy and giving
Too had turned
I hated her
Strange how little things you love
Like the twinkle in her eye or the way her hair falls in her face
Can be so beautiful
Yet....
How was she so coy?
Did she not feel the turbulence
The red hot searing fire furnace tearing me apart
As i wanted to see the light flood out of her eyes
Desperate
But she looked so peaceful
I wanted to tear it all apart
To rip our souls in half
and dim the dreary burden of her faltering light
Or was i just being selfish?
They say you can only love others
As much as you love yourself
I didn't love her
So what did that say about myself?
She gave and gave and gave
Kindness, love and respect
I begrudgingly took it
Without the slightest bit of remorse
I again felt her head on my rising chest
I could never tell her
I closed my eyes and tried to lay my mind to rest
Maybe tomorrow will be better...
It never was
Jan 21, 2013
Jan 21, 2013 at 9:31 AM UTC
Public Execution:
And on and on it draws closer
Looming up against the grey
And tightening like a noose around the neck
Of the chosen
The martyr swallows his pride
Proud to belief
That it’s all false
That its all chance
The wood creaks
As the steps draw fewer
The crowd screams
As the floor is gone
There's a creak and a crack
The floor falls away
The sinews of rope tighten
As the world turns black
And fades away….
Jan 19, 2013
Jan 19, 2013 at 3:59 AM UTC