If a chance was given,
I wouldn’t waste it.
I’d make you know how beautiful you are.
I’d make you love the little things about yourself.
I’d try my hardest to make you happy,
Even though deep down, I know I can’t.
Aug 26, 2013
Aug 26, 2013 at 10:01 PM UTC
Pellucid eyes,
Pupils wide as vinyl,
Irises, a thin ring.
Generously exploring your neck with my lips,
Tracing maps and letters I’d never send you into your back.
Aug 23, 2013
Aug 23, 2013 at 1:08 AM UTC
I only wish
I could have had the power to save you.
Had I not been so caught up in my own depravity,
I would have climbed up that tree,
Picked you up and climbed us down.
So that you wouldn't have made that 6 foot imprint in the ground
And a hole in my heart.
Aug 22, 2013
Aug 22, 2013 at 9:24 PM UTC
I’m scared of being happy.
Not because I’m attracted to the darkness,
But because I’ve grown familiarized to it.
No one really showed love towards me
Until I was unable to do it myself.
I’m scared because
If I begin to love myself,
Will others continue to love me?
Aug 22, 2013
Aug 22, 2013 at 5:48 PM UTC
At first,
You only brought me love.
To this love, I was dependent.
Months later,
You brought me anger,
Sadness and vacancy.
I became dependent on this sadness
And also to your love.
I forced you to love me,
And I forced you to hurt me.
Neither seemed to do any good,
So instead of you loving and hurting me,
I broke it down.
Instead of being dependent on your love and hate,
I needed to do one of the two to myself.
I chose hate, because it had always been with me since the start.
This brought me harm, I brought myself harm,
And it was oh, so hard to stop,
But I made it.
I think I’m okay.
Aug 22, 2013
Aug 22, 2013 at 5:48 PM UTC
You endured me,
For only a short time.
My sadness engulfed your happiness
And added a tremendous weight to those already heavy shoulders.
Much more sadness than the happiness I’d planned to give you.
And then,
I guess I figured
That if I could end my sadness
With a blade and 20 pills
It would end the sadness I’d forced upon you
And make your happiness start anew;
Giving us both the chance to finally be happy.
Aug 22, 2013
Aug 22, 2013 at 5:46 PM UTC
I want to wake up to
your body sprawled against my bed,
hugging my pillow
almost as tight as I hug you in your sleep.
I want your warmth to heat me up,
but the coldness of your heart freezes me.
It's funny how things work out,
but all I want is for you to be mine.
Jul 3, 2013
Jul 3, 2013 at 7:23 PM UTC