He was standing in front of me
His big smile turned to wee
Suddenly his face was dotted with tears
And I felt something queer
He gripped me so tight
That made me feel nothings right
He whispered unto my ear
"I am sorry for all the pain my dear."
Memories twirled back in my mind
The years I had spent with him was a mere nightmare
It was like living a happy life in a beast's lair
I was not the only girl he loved, we were three, I remember
I was like martyr hero killing myself for his sake
Our love was no piece of cake
It was only then when I knew-
Our love was a pure fake
His tears weren't enough for all the ache
Now that I am awake
You can no longer deceive me
You can not delude again a fooled heart
Jul 12, 2015
Jul 12, 2015 at 10:16 PM UTC
I wear stupid glasses unlike her
Teardrops are my own makeup
Looking at you is my dose
I just wanna be with you so close
I wear oversize shirts incomparable to her
She wears tight jeans and lovely corsets
I walk through the dirtiest streets at night
She sways and enjoys her princess life at bright
I roll over my untidiest bed
She amazes everyone with her lips at red
I glaze the road with my unfixed hair
She roams the cities and turns it to a funfair
I could not do all of that
I could not even give you what you want
This feeling is only what I got
I said it through this poem 'coz I can't be blunt
I am afraid to tell you everything
You are my best friend and you are my everything
Why are you so numb of what I am feeling?
Is it because I am not what you are dreaming?
If only I could be that girl
But I can not.
Because I just wanted to be me
The girl who slowly kills herself
The girl who keeps on pretending
That she loves seeing you happy with that luckiest girl
May 20, 2015
May 20, 2015 at 4:05 AM UTC
Feelings
slowly
fade
After
you
played
them
like
an
arcade
May 19, 2015
May 19, 2015 at 6:58 AM UTC
Whenever I close my eyes
All I can see is your painful goodbyes
Every time I try to cover my ears
All I can hear is you walking away with your fears
You just left me hanging with your promises
I even gave you a thousand and one chances
Why can't you accept our differences?
And then, you left and I shattered into pieces
You easily forgotten what is "us"
And here I am, still waiting for that stardust
Which will make you come back
And refill the moments that we lack
We are now moving onto different places
Your feelings really evanescence
I should be happy for you now
Even though you left me with your broken vow
Time had lapsed so fast
I am still haunted by our awful past
Because even though you made me mew
My heart still craves for you
May 14, 2015
May 14, 2015 at 3:31 AM UTC
She has the loveliest smile
She has the warmest hug
She has this magic
Turning my tears into laughter.
I do admire of your strength
And also to your patience which is very in length
You always do what is meant
You are always there in my every achievement
Having me inside your womb
It is like finding yourself a tomb
Your bones starting to crack
You cannot even eat your favorite snack
Hands down to you my Queen Bee
I promise I will not make you dree
I shall give you thousand of posies
And shall make a gown with full of lilies
You are my mother, my sister
My best friend, And my teacher
Even if I give you troublesome
I will always love you my dearest mom!
May 10, 2015
May 10, 2015 at 10:22 AM UTC
Seeing him happy was my daily pill
That is the truth I cannot conceal
Holding his hands was my only remedy
It makes me tough and sturdy
His glance melts my soul within
His smile tickles my chin
I will never ask for more
Even if this love gives me a sore
Seeing him holding that girl's hand
I just wanna dig myself down to that sand
Bury myself with this kind of love
Loving a boy which I can never have.
I can wait forever.
May 8, 2015
May 8, 2015 at 10:47 PM UTC
Wishing I could avast
Everything that happens so fast
Dreaming of ourselves beneath thy clouds
Rolling and laughing between those strouds
I was holding his soft hands
We were lying on the meadowlands
Leaned on my broad shoulders
When he avowed that "I must be stronger".
Days had never been this lovely
All I can hear is our hearts' on melody
However the music went go wrong
His last smile was the last song
Lips became pale as rose
It can't even make a single prose
His eyes slowly close
This is not the future we chose
Wished that I could avast
Everything happened so fast
Wanted to take his last breath
But All I can give is this wreath for his death
May 6, 2015
May 6, 2015 at 10:47 AM UTC
Tonight, my hand sways over a blank sheet
It matches the rhythm given by the time
Rumbles and croons over the lyrical past
Keeping the things that are worth to keep
Inch by inch, my life was changed by your intimacy
I was in loved with your fondness
I was moved by our endearment
I would like to keep the things we used to nurture
The warmness suddenly abated
Like the flower which suddenly died
Everything was adequately managed
However you realized that the time was in mess
I miss the curve at your face
I hanker after our lovely moments
I crave for the affection you once gave
Hoping that those things would come back
Tonight, I tear a part inside of me
To put these feelings into expressions
To tell you how this poem was made
And to tell you that:
"I write because of our love that once existed."
Jan 18, 2015
Jan 18, 2015 at 7:34 AM UTC
A princess stared at herself
Seeing no less but a forlorn girl
Locked up by fears and desolation
Teared up by agony and dread
She noticed something in her eyes
Saw nothing but full of fright
Tried to close the windows of her soul
'Coz she cannot handle reality anymore
A prince once knocked in her door
Tried to make her feel that she is not alone
'Twas a bitterly cold and rainy night
When she felt the warmness of his heart
The sun rose and struck her skin
She saw herself alone in the light
Seeing no less but her shadow's at bright
What happened was just her dream
Tears ran through her soft cheeks
She was hurt by the reality's tricks
What she felt was something real
But on the other hand, the moment was surreal
The princess stared at herself again
She saw a different girl chained in her heart
Tried to unleash the stronger side
I wish, she will be as strong as the mightiest tides
Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 8:21 PM UTC
Today, A new journey begins
Holding my pen in my hand
It bleeds for new adventures and stories
It searches for the best ones
An awful past was left behind
We must remember how to forget
Forget a percent of those 365 moments
Each day was peculiar in its own way
Peculiar ways to hurt that soul within
But you must be a great warrior
You should have your heart sealed
Because fragile is its second name
Today, your fragile heart will be a diamond
Shining like the first star at night
Winking at those who stare
And loving those who dare
Jan 2, 2015
Jan 2, 2015 at 7:52 AM UTC