I remember the feeling
so long ago
I thought it was lost and forgotten
as I have no records of it
I made sure to destroy anything
that could have reminded of it
but it is more sinister
than I would ever imagine
like a black hole
all consuming
like a black hole
that shadows all light
like a black hole
that drains you of life
and I thought I had escaped
only to be drawn to it
with ever increasing force
that felt like tearing me apart
when I tried to put up a fight
and I have lost
and I have lost so much
and I feel it became the center of my universe
and I feel it slowly eating it away
and I fear it is the only thing holding it together
I have lost
There is no escape.
Dec 9, 2017
Dec 9, 2017 at 5:20 AM UTC
Another light went dark
so I am even more alone at night
they ended their suffering
will I end mine?
The body is a sickness
life is a disease
how long I have to suffer?
When will I be released?
Heart heavy like a stone
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
like I’m somewhere I belong
Jul 20, 2017
Jul 20, 2017 at 5:18 PM UTC
I am so alone
I feel like in a crowd
of unfamiliar faces
their long stares - so dark
and empty too
empty people
in empty rooms
in empty apartments
and I try to reach out
but there is nothing too
so I fall
and I crawl
and carry on
nothing can be shown
Jul 17, 2017
Jul 17, 2017 at 3:39 PM UTC
I count the clouds in the sky
moving ever so slowly
up, up and above they are
and now the sky is clear
and I can see the moon
and I can think about
how beautifully it shines
and how lucky I am to be here
It is a bright, warm summer night
and I feel alive
I count the raindrops
hitting my bedroom window
slowly sliding down
down into this dark night
and the sky is clear
and I can see the stars
and I can think about
how beautiful they are
and how barely alive am I
It is such a dark, cold sleepless night
and I feel nothing
Jul 12, 2017
Jul 12, 2017 at 6:47 PM UTC
Sometimes
the words speak to themselves,
the language, that I can't understand,
whispers, that I can barely hear,
until silence consumes it,
and I will disappear.
Mar 14, 2017
Mar 14, 2017 at 5:44 PM UTC
Sometimes
between a word and a heart-attack
the voice plays a tune in my head
it is low and mesmerizing
it captivates me till the end
and releases my soul
like a bird of prey
Feb 21, 2017
Feb 21, 2017 at 10:25 PM UTC
Standing on a cliff
the sea is vast open
waves whispering softly
drifting seashells come ashore
lost their purpose
lost their homes
but still beautiful
so beautiful and empty
sharing the tale of love
how it all starts
and what will we become
how all will be forgotten
everything lost
so I will become nothing
just dust drifting in the air
so peaceful and one with the universe
Feb 21, 2017
Feb 21, 2017 at 9:37 PM UTC
This is not the beginning
or the end
of a life-long journey
it is a meaningless act
a silent scream
like a rain
knocking on a window
before it breaks
or a rib cage so tight
it disallows breathing
how far can you fall
if you lay on a ground beaten
so take your dull wits to play
in hall of colorful emotions
you have no reason to stay
on a day of fine frenzy
Dec 21, 2016
Dec 21, 2016 at 9:00 PM UTC
It's getting dark
and harder to breath
the air from my lungs
is escaping me
just breathe out
I can't breathe in
one thousand needles
piercing me
the vision is blurry
the sound is all deaf
I feel like this moment
will be my death
Dec 17, 2016
Dec 17, 2016 at 9:31 PM UTC
So powerful
and yet so calm
will you carry me over?
to leave all these things behind
and watch me slowly become
somebody else
Dec 17, 2016
Dec 17, 2016 at 8:37 PM UTC