jamya-kidd
American
Hi, I'm funny and I like to write. This is my way of getting rid of all my problems. So if you have anything to say say it. Why do care what you think you are not living my life....... I am. I am who I am and if you don't like it I don't care. I like who I am and you should to. Music is all that I care about so take your mean comments and shove them somewhere. Thanks
I love the way you tell me that I’m beautiful,
and the way you make me laugh like no one else.
I love the way you move the hair away from my eyes,
and then kiss me on my face.
I love the way when you take me to the park
and put your hands around my waist
as we watch the sunset together and feel the ocean breeze.
I love the way you'd sing to me at random moments,
and look at me and smile.
I love the way you leave the smell of your cologne on my clothes after we hug
I love the way you would send me my favorite flowers
along with an " I LOVE YOU" card.
I love the way you speak your mind and tell me about your opinions.
I love the way you're not afraid to cry and show your feelings.
I love the way you call me in the middle of the day just to say " I LOVE YOU."
and say how much you miss me.
I love the way you tell your friends about me and smile when you do.
I love the way you whisper into my ear,
the way your voice sounds so close to me.
it feels like I’m dreaming.
I love the way you do all of these and the fact that you're not ashamed to do it.
I love the way you treat me,
and I'm glad to be yours...
Apr 22, 2014
Apr 22, 2014 at 8:39 PM UTC
When I first met you
I felt like I had known you forever,
telling you my secrets
and what I didn't want ever.
you listened to me
I bet you thought I'd never end,
who would have thought
we would become more than just friends.
Over a period of time,
I got to know the real you.
A boy so caring and gentle,
with a heart so true.
You've survived your life
with hurt and loneliness by your side.
I told you I'd never leave
because of the feelings I have inside.
I know you
like no one I have ever known,
and sometimes I wonder
what I'd do if you were gone?
So I have decided
time answers all.
If it is meant to be
time will remove the wall.
I love the way we are together,
you can always make me smile.
Will it ever really be forever?
I guess I will have to wait awhile.
Time will reveal, what lies ahead
but always remember
what I have said.
Meeting you has changed my life
and I really love you so,
the feelings I feel for you
I am never letting go.
Remember me always
and I will too.
I always think of
me and you.
Apr 22, 2014
Apr 22, 2014 at 8:36 PM UTC
Free fall down into the unknown
give you my heart and relinquish my soul
it's best for what life shall bestow
so I take a big step in the unknown
Never look back, for this is the choice
don't question myself, and keep my mind poised
take a look up, thank god and rejoice
because the truth is, I know I made the right choice
So I follow the path and forget the past
this devotion and emotion, I'll make sure it lasts
with passion so wide and a love so vast
pain and sadness will be things of the past
Apr 22, 2014
Apr 22, 2014 at 8:33 PM UTC
I cry myself to sleep at night
Trying not to ask God why
I have false hope is what I've heard
Rather than that don't say a word
My faith is in God
That is where I stand
We gave her to him
She's now in his hands
How do I cope with what I am going through?
Let me ask you this, what else can I do?
I can only play the hand life deals
I just can't imagine how Angel feels
Should I give up and let her go?
As long as there's hope I say NO
Some people say It’s all meant to be
An innocent child, I don't agree
You can tell sometimes she really feels bad
But through out it all she's hardly ever sad
She has a great smile that lights up your day
For a moment or two my fears fade away
Do I wonder what life holds in store?
No..I just pray for another day more!
Apr 22, 2014
Apr 22, 2014 at 8:30 PM UTC
Fear fills me through and through,
As I lay in bed confused.
The numbness I had is leaving me,
The walls I built around me are breaking,
And slowly I'm beginning to feel- once again.
Although memories come back to me,
And the reasons why I chose this solitude,
Echo in the recess of my mind,
I fear this time it is not enough to help me escape,
The confrontations I have always avoided.
All I want to do is walk away.
Which till now has not been an incident rare.
But this once mastered art seems to have left its artist.
And thus like a traitor so much like a Brutus,
Stabbed another Ceaser in betrayal- though unfortunately not with killing intent.
Before their time I see them.
I see my cat- his furry figure white as snow,
Speckled with brown here and there- lay,
As still as the floor that holds him.
I see my dear little sister- still unsure of my disposition!
I see my mother- still decisive and calculating, but praying.
I see my father- still hoping in spite of my own lack of faith.
And I see my dear beloved cousin- still wiping away my tears and fighting away my fears,
With no more than a smile upon her lips,
Standing by me,
A silent guardian watchful.
Nursing an animal with more scars than he would care to exhibit.
All of them I see,
Their faces so white,
Their dark eyes so grey.
A sight so distant from now.
And yet I am somehow compelled to believe in its overwhelming proximity,
And wonder in despair.
Fear fills me through and through,
As I lay in bed confused.
Asking "why?"- a question answered long ago.
Still I am unwilling to stand by breathing,
As I watch them, one by one, abandoning me for an eternity.
If nothing else,
I have learned Time to be my greatest adversary.
So I humbly pray,
For Time to be my greatest teacher.
Mar 8, 2014
Mar 8, 2014 at 9:55 PM UTC
Love is so complicated
It makes me so frustrated
But when I'm with you, everything is right
And that is why; I wish to be with you tonight
I am here you are there
That's the fact I hate to bare
My love for you, I cannot describe
And if I said it can, I have lied
You are in my head, all the time.
I want that though, as I want you mine
I miss you; I love you, every minute, every day
But I guess all I have to say:
"I am sorry, I was wrong,
It has been so long,
Distance is not the antidote,
It is the opposite of what I wrote.
Distance hurts, does not heal.
I am sorry, this is how I feel"
She has you now, I understand
It's easier, I guess, you can hold her hand
I hope you're happy, as I am not
As me without you means I lose a lot
If you are happy, then so am I
Even though inside, I wish to cry
Oh how I love you so very much,
And how I wish, for one more touch
One more hug, one more kiss
These are just SOME things I will miss
You're laugh, your hair, your smile
For you, I would crawl a mile!
Fall in your eyes just once more?
And in them I will soar
We will fly and we will dance
I just wish I had taken another chance
I want to be anywhere with you
But there is nothing we can do
As you are there and I am here
This is finally loud and clear.
Mar 8, 2014
Mar 8, 2014 at 9:53 PM UTC
Painfully aware, of all my peers
The pain, the pressure, creates real fears
Trying to escape so many eyes and ears
Over thinking so much, my mind is seared
Afraid of the judgment, so my voice has no sound
Dodging harsh eyes so MY eyes find the ground
This lingering emotion, I can not define
They say mind over matter, but I say matter over mind
I'm running from something, I jump into my dream
In that happy place, I can be exactly what I seem
I finally understand what this emotion must mean
Because I figured out what I'm running from...
ME
Mar 8, 2014
Mar 8, 2014 at 9:49 PM UTC
Apologize because you've made a mistake
Eyes now open you are awake
You see the pain you know you've made
Wanting nothing more than to see it fade
Looking for that smile you forced away
Hoping above all you can get it to stay
Little by lightly feeling more of the pain
Not sure what you were doing or thought you could gain
Must go forward can't go back
But it's hard when there's something you lack
The ability to say what you know you must say
Losing yourself day by day
This can no longer wait
It's importance is too great
It is now time you realize
how you must apologize
Mar 8, 2014
Mar 8, 2014 at 9:47 PM UTC
I thought of you today but that’s nothing new
I thought about you yesterday and the day before that too
for every day good or bad you'll always be in my head
I hope you've understood everything I’ve said
this isn't just a joke or a silly lie
I’d never do anything to make you wanna cry
I’m sorry if I do something to make you really mad
it only comes back and makes me really sad
I really do love you and everything you are
I hope this relationship gets really far
I’ll never get you out I simply don't know how
in fact I’m thinking of you right about now
you’re everything I need and everything to me
you know exactly who you are and what you want to be
you always make me smile just by being there
I hope you know how much I really do care
every time I think of you my stomach seems to twist
This is why I love you, I’ve made a huge list
the list goes on forever and never will it end
neither will our relationship you'll always be my friend
not just a simple friend but a special friend at that
I want to spend my whole life with you
Mar 8, 2014
Mar 8, 2014 at 9:16 PM UTC
Big, fat Santa bounded through my halls;
He made everything shake, even the walls.
He ate all my cookies,
Drank all my milk;
He had heavy boots,
And a coat made of silk.
Over his back he carried the toys;
Some of them, a lot of them, even made noise.
He smelled like fresh, tobacco smoke;
He gave my favorite tree an irritated poke.
A grumpy look came upon his face;
This guy is crazy, and I bet he carries mace.
He reached into his bag, so I thought for gold,
But out he pulled, a big lump of coal.
With an angry look, he set it down with ease;
Then walked up to my chimney, and gave his nose a squeeze.
I'll never forget the obese man in red;
I'll hate him forever, until the day I am dead.
Feb 17, 2014
Feb 17, 2014 at 7:44 PM UTC