sometimes you have to ask yourself
if life is an ocean
a current
are we actually swimming?
fighting
struggling
to reach the shore
or are we just
floating
on the waves
head above the water
not really swimming
just waiting
for the waves to eventually
break
over
us
cover us completely
and bring us to the bottom
Oct 30, 2018
Oct 30, 2018 at 5:36 PM UTC
Death seems to come out of nowhere at times
And yet, death is everywhere
It is and one day will be everyone, and everything we know, everything we love, everything we care about
One day, it will be us
Today, death is Ian.
Death is Ian, with the goofy long hair and sleepy face and **** smile
Is it wrong to think of someone just-dead as ****
Death is everywhere, every moment, but today, tonight, death is especially heavy.
Death is questions.
Is dying from kidney failure painful?
What happens now?
Death is an empty chair and desk in several classrooms on Monday, eyes drawn toward it but not lingering.
Death is a locker full of belongings never to be opened by its owner again.
Will they empty his locker?
Use it as a memorial?
Death is knowing that the name ‘Ian’ is on the mind of so many people in Carteret tonight.
Death is never graduating from high school. Never going to college. Having kids.
Death is the negative. The permanent.
Death is personal but impersonal, impartial and omniscient.
Death is not knowing which one is better.
Death is knowing that life will go on.
Life will go on with the loss of life.
Death is personal, singular tonight, for us, but it is unifying.
More than a pep rally, more than school spirit.
Death unifies hundreds of different people tonight in a way that is unexpected, uninvited, yet irrevocable.
Death is everyone and everything. Every age, every gender, every religion, sexuality, status, history, personality.
Tonight, death is Ian Jacob.
Oct 30, 2018
Oct 30, 2018 at 5:18 PM UTC