The word ***** spills,
like a volcano erupting,
Unaware of the consequences.
I watch the destruction,
too distracted to see why,
a mind full of noise.
I stand back and surrender,
letting the chaos in.
I hid within its walls,
locking myself away,
too scared to be.
Only finding solace in the abyss.
Sep 15, 2020
Sep 15, 2020 at 12:34 AM UTC
In that moment my body felt
t i r ed.
NO
Not tired,
Tired is not what
T
H
I
S
Feels like.
In that moment my body was not my own,
it didn't feel like mine,
it was D I R T Y,
it was foreign,
it was
WRONG.
The water washed over my alien body,
rinsing away the smell,
the touch,
the pain.
But left the trauma.
Unable to comfort this new me,
crimson flowed instead.
A scar now permanent.
Sep 15, 2020
Sep 15, 2020 at 12:25 AM UTC
How enticing the dark can be,
to stay comforted by it.
Letting it overcome your essence,
losing sight of the fire.
Consumed by its emptiness,
feeling nothing but numb.
Forgetting why you fought,
to escape.
The void,
Ever present.
The cold comfort of the abyss,
staring back as it grips on tight.
Seeping in,
Every pore.
Comfort is not always welcome,
but awaits always.
Sep 15, 2020
Sep 15, 2020 at 12:18 AM UTC
I know there are times,
I keep you at arms length.
Afraid to let you in,
To see a man so broken.
Never want to let you down,
Hidden behind walls built so high.
One by one the bricks come falling down,
Yet one by one they go back up.
Will this wall ever come down,
Baby don't stop trying.
Find the real me,
Hidden away so broken.
Look into my eyes and see,
The pain of man so far gone.
Hold my hand baby please,
Break through the hurt and dark.
Never want to let you down,
Lost behind these walls.
One by one the bricks come falling down,
Yet one by one they go back up.
Will this wall ever come down,
Baby don't stop trying.
Find the real me,
Hidden away so broken.
Look into my eyes,
And you'll see.
The spark you set within,
Waiting to be set free.
Hold me close baby,
Help me break free...
Jul 3, 2017
Jul 3, 2017 at 9:26 AM UTC
The tear clings,
As the breath stings.
Cold and unnerving,
Alone and undeserving.
Lost beneath the tide,
Unable to hide.
The emotion that it brings.
Where do I run?
When there is no more sun.
Stolen by the enemy,
Nothing left to see.
All that is left is the shining moon,
Guiding and bringing hope,
To those that have lost all.
Apr 11, 2015
Apr 11, 2015 at 4:04 PM UTC
The darkness slowly creeps,
Seeping into every opening.
Filling my body,
Halting my breathing.
Dimming my eyesight,
Making it hard to see.
This abyss that takes over,
Separating me from life.
Undermining my common sense,
As my anxiety rises.
I shut my eyes,
Release this darkness,
And remember who I am.
Nov 3, 2014
Nov 3, 2014 at 5:38 AM UTC
Let me stay one more minute,
To stare into the night,
Feel the cold on my skin,
The breeze through my hair.
Give me a minute to embrace this new me,
Just a moment,
To release the pain,
Into this new dawn.
Hold me just one more minute,
As my scars fade away,
And my tears disappear,
Into the darkness.
Nov 3, 2014
Nov 3, 2014 at 2:19 AM UTC
A fleeting moment of happiness,
Floating into the dark abyss.
Unable to grasp the last of it,
Praying it will soon return.
This repeating cycle of darkness,
Comes and goes without warning.
Pushing life to its limits,
As we hide behind smiles,
That mean little to the outside world.
A sign were okay in some way,
Hiding the black that hovers in us.
The black that always resides,
Leaving only briefly.
And as happiness surrenders to it,
We become a shell of ourselves,
Hoping we can retain a sense of us,
A sense of what it is to be happy.
Jul 27, 2014
Jul 27, 2014 at 10:18 AM UTC
Haunted by dreams that never were,
Plagued by your existence.
Once I was lost in you,
Naive to think it was true.
You Burned yourself into my heart,
Infecting my very core.
Just to leave me stranded,
As you laughed at my despair.
A demon in disguise you were,
Only there to cause pain and sorrow.
Years may have gone by,
And yet you affect me still.
A curse upon my life,
Making it trying for new love to grow.
But blossom that love did,
Despite the way you left me.
Even now it strengthens me,
Overcoming what you destroyed.
Jul 10, 2014
Jul 10, 2014 at 8:50 PM UTC
Once I prayed to be only yours,
To be held in your arms,
Safe and free from harm.
I felt complete by your touch.
That fire in your eyes that only I saw,
Seem to fade with each passing moment.
That day we met,
Time seemed so still and perfect.
A stranger from across the room,
That is what you were.
Soon to be a part of my life,
Forever changing it.
The way I fell for you,
Not able to explain.
The words you spoke,
Too good to be true.
And yet something I knew,
Something deep inside.
That night you lied,
Hid from the world,
Hid from me.
But even then I knew.
The happiness faded,
And the fears grew.
For so long I denied the truth,
Prayed it wasn't you.
But your eyes told me different,
Something you failed to realize.
That night you told me,
That night I died.
Nothing seemed real,
Like a dream you cannot wake from.
But your words pierced like knives,
The end near.
Tears filled these eyes,
As you watched me helpless.
I hated you for what you did.
You thought I could heal,
Not knowing my truth.
Not even now do you know,
The truth I hid,
The lies that I tried to disguise.
The fire died,
The flame expelled by your actions.
Now your back,
Wanting what I can't give.
Always will I care for you my friend,
Always will I remember.
For you I hope,
For you I dream.
For you I wish,
But for me,
I can only hope……
Jun 22, 2014
Jun 22, 2014 at 7:14 PM UTC