In your flesh
was formed this skin
These big brown eyes,
the bones within
In this heart there was a hole
And this is where you made your home
That is where you planted seeds
For years of weeds and pain to grow
In pulling your roots
I cracked the dirt
I dug you out
Your love, your hurt
But between the two I wondered-
Which was worse?
For needing you
is my biggest curse
And, though we’ll never find each other
I found what was missing
in being a mother
In this flesh
I formed their skin
Their loving eyes
Their joy within
And in this heart I made their home
And in your place, I saw it grow
It was the best part of me
That you’ll never know
And in planting their roots
I let go of you
At last, I am free
At last, I am new
I can move on; I will get through
So, Mother, you do not deserve your name
Because our wombs are not the same
Oct 25, 2020
Oct 25, 2020 at 1:22 AM UTC
I see the same eyes
a father, a daughter
in one grows hatred
in the other, love fostered
I look to the Moon
and often I ponder
how could an angel
be made from a monster
Nov 18, 2019
Nov 18, 2019 at 12:29 PM UTC
I hold no more faith
In the demons I’ve faced
Or the ones that I’ve danced with,
It’s true
I’ve held on to my morals
In spite of our quarrels
And the darkness
That’s in me and you
I’m not the girl you want
But the woman you need
And I’m sorry
It makes you so blue
But I thought I should tell you
That if it compels you
I would do
What you wanted me to
I draw up conclusions
Built on these delusions
That perhaps
You could love me back
Could you please tell me
How to indulge you
I promise
I’m not all that bad
I can’t build a nest
With a heart made of stone
But I’m giving it
All that I have
And it may not be easy
To have a life with me
But I’d like to be
Your other half
Sep 8, 2019
Sep 8, 2019 at 6:40 AM UTC
I hear a chorus within you
Percussions and woodwinds
That hold no answers
I read these lyrics within me
And none of these words can help us
I’ve seen the eyes that are empty
And the past that is filled with my envy
I have discovered my darkest enemy
And I regret to find that it is me
I’ve touched the heart that is hollow
In search of a better tomorrow
With hope that sings songs of such sorrow
And your time which I don’t dare to borrow
I’ve crossed the land wide and narrow
In search of what you can’t seem to feel
I’ve touched all the sand and the water
And I still cannot tell what is real
I’ve cried out to ears that don’t listen
No sound would come out of my mouth
I’ve begged for you to forget me
But that’s not what this poem’s about
I’ve rocked the cradle that holds her
The will that flows through my veins
I twisted the strands made of soft gold
I watch as she waxes and wanes
I’ve kissed the lips of true evil
And braved through what I see in my dreams
I’ve built up the courage to love again
But this time I’ll use it on me
Mar 20, 2019
Mar 20, 2019 at 5:50 PM UTC
In my heart
A caged bird sings
It lives alone
With broken wings
She tells a story
Of what love brings
It’s an open window
Shut with golden rings
Mar 14, 2019
Mar 14, 2019 at 10:46 AM UTC
Oh self righteous
Smooth woman
Fierce and full of fire
You wonder why
You burn everyone
That comes close
Anyone that dares to
Touch your flames
And feel your wrath
Even on you worse days
You simmer like a low
Rolling boil
No one
Can put you out
What have you been waiting for?
To show yourself your worth
It’s been engraved in
Every decision you’ve made
You’ve broken your own heart
For the greater good
You have found pieces to give
When you had nothing left for yourself
You burn yourself out
To keep others going
And yet you doubt yourself
No, it is not that
You are unlovable
It’s just that
You can’t expect others
To stare into your sun
You are too bright
To feel so dark
You are on a mission
And when you’ve got
Your sights fixed
Ain’t nothing can stop you
Holy woman
Look into yourself and find
What is nobody else’s
******* business
Find it for you
Because she is there
And she is calling
Aug 8, 2018
Aug 8, 2018 at 2:42 PM UTC
He speaks to me
In poems
I write about him
In dreams
I drift and dance
Aimlessly and enamored
Aside an amassed
Illusion of what
Should be there
It’s you
Impossibly palpable
Tauntingly tangible
It’s you
The rolling rumble
Of a gifted cannonade
I wear his words
And take shelter in his voice
He is a sweeping, blood red sunset
I soak him in
With a smile on my face
When others cannot look
I cannot look away
When I am hell fire
I rain into him
And he
Swallows me up effortlessly like
The calmest, deepest sea
We are bound
By what cannot
Be broken
In what we share
And words left unspoken
If it should be
An ambient glow or
A scorched earth
I burn for him
And if it should be
A soft summer breeze or
A godless gale force wind
He feeds my flames
He feeds these flames
Apr 23, 2018
Apr 23, 2018 at 3:57 PM UTC
*I sleep at night
for a tomorrow
I could not dream
would become reality
within or without me
it is and so
I finally know
that all is right
and I am home
before you and I
we moved the earth
and turned the tides
for those who
spoke and breathed
both afflictions and lies
through crooked teeth
yet still they smiled
at what they’d done,
to heart left defiled
but, we were not tamed
we are still wild
from the same spool
the world spins these strands
into a mess of a canvas
yet symmetry stands
divided by oceans
separated by land
exists all I have wanted
all that was planned
there is no “however”,
there is only an “and”
and...
when I think of you
I feel a word deep inside
my flesh and bones
that until now
I could not describe
using any language
it could not be defined
but it is a place
in the rawest parts of us
where we don’t have to hide
this is where we are safe
and our love resides
and...
we searched so long
both low and high
through the threads that
tangle, twist, and tie
for the light that seemed
it could not shine
in the fabric of
our long lost lives
and so we come to find
with shaky hands
and weary eyes
that all along
mine was yours
and yours was mine*
Mar 20, 2018
Mar 20, 2018 at 5:20 PM UTC
I set a blaze
To all the things
I tease and taste
Like twisted snakes
We coil around
Each breath we take
With the love we give
And the love we make
So you seize
And so I shake
Watch me bend
And make me break
It doesn’t count
If I don’t ache
Feb 18, 2018
Feb 18, 2018 at 2:46 PM UTC
What is it
That separates you and I
A line
A galactic divide
I study it
With covered eyes
Sometimes narrow
But mostly wide
It is filled with flaws
That you can’t hide
And I know
It is hard
To accept that
The demons you
Carry inside of you
All share your DNA
Your face, your name
Yes, hope is buried
By sorrow and shame
Are we so different?
We point all the blame
At our reflections
Every day
It is time to
Break the mirror
It’s okay
To walk away
Feb 11, 2018
Feb 11, 2018 at 12:10 AM UTC