I am so furious, still so angry.
But nothing to direct it at.
Five years gone, I can’t believe it.
Five years I’ve known you won’t come back.
And I don’t believe in God, which makes me even madder.
Not another life where we’ll meet.
Five years ago I lost you.
Five years since you left me.
I can’t see you, can not hear you.
What if I lose more memories?
Five years without my father.
Five years you’re an absentee.
I’m so filled with rage, but for whom?
I want to punch and scream and yell!
Five years you haven’t been here!
Five years I feel unwell.
But sometimes, if I’m lucky,
In my dreams we are together.
Maybe five years more are needed.
In five years I’ll feel better.
Oct 29, 2018
Oct 29, 2018 at 9:07 AM UTC
You didnt even try,
You just left me without saying goodbye,
Accompanied me with so much lies,
And it’s suprising cause we had such good days.
I don’t know why I’d even fight to keep you by my side.
When you’d just leave me here to die, anyways.
Oct 3, 2010
Oct 3, 2010 at 1:19 AM UTC
I love the way you smile,
I love the way you walk.
I love how you're so funny,
I love the way you talk.
I loved it when you said,
You would never go.
I love the way I never noticed,
It was all a show.
I love the way it was,
And still is in my head.
But I really wish,
That you would just.
Love me Back instead.
Oct 1, 2010
Oct 1, 2010 at 5:49 AM UTC
Day and night,
You're on my mind.
I think about you,
All the time.
I want you near.
I need you here.
To break away my darkest fears.
Oct 1, 2010
Oct 1, 2010 at 5:45 AM UTC
I told you how I felt,
I tell you how I feel.
I can’t tell what you think.
I can’t tell if you’re real.
Please don’t let me suffer,
If even one more day.
The only thing I want,
Is for you to stay.
And even tho I know,
You used me then and still.
I tell you I wont love you,
Even though I will.
Oct 1, 2010
Oct 1, 2010 at 5:31 AM UTC