jackierutherford
Ambitious, fun, funky chic - / My pen name is J-Rap. Let's have fun. / Listen to the words and be carried away. / I Got my inspiration from wanting to write a book (about my life). Just could not figure out where to start. Besides - who reads a "book" anymore. Poems are shorter and easier to process. You just have to learn to - read between the lines... / My style of writing is self-taught. Drawn from my own experiences. / / all work copyright - 2014
Just to get it out your head, mind, soul
Shut-outs from the others world
Here you are
Sharing your life with another
It's such a farce
The outer world looks on
Sees nothing strange
Behind closed doors
There are so many frames
Shut -outs from basic needs
No conversations
No pillow talks
Blocked from Facebook
No gaming instincts
Fingerprint lock on cell phones, password unhacked to computers and laptops
Car trunk untapped
Work off limits
New found family and friends
Blinded by wants and selfish desires
Why?
Why do we females take it all
Years of living behind these walls
Shut-outs ?!
Finally
With lots of soul searching, heartaches
No loving arms
It's time to move on
JRAP 11/2018
Nov 9, 2018
Nov 9, 2018 at 1:38 PM UTC
Thanks to Hello Poetry for the recognition of the Daily for Mid-age Graduate.
Thanks for all the support from fellow poets .
JRap.
Oct 14, 2016
Oct 14, 2016 at 10:49 PM UTC
It's a natural phenomenon
That all or most of us girls, whether
you have big ones or you're from the iddy biddy ***** committee -
Have confidence issues
About the size of them bras
We grow up looking at all the beauty and perfection in the magazines
Those shiny, glossy pages of materialistic vanity
Thinking ...
I wish that was me !
Beauty, is in the eyes of the beholder
Yet, we shrivel up with fear when
It's time to be with another
Thinking they're wishing the size
of them bras was BIG
As a ripe yellow Cantaloupe! :)
You lose your confidence even if
It's not true
Our men can't help themselves
Cheating roaming eyes, as they scan those surgically implanted
Plastic fantasies
Rise and heave !
Forgetting what a real woman looks like
They fall for the ones with a huge
Chest on the outer crest
They're glorious! !
But underneath -
They have confidence issues too
That's why the knife was their
Best bet
Jrap/2016
Oct 1, 2016
Oct 1, 2016 at 10:21 AM UTC
Thousands of us were displaced
Started careers late
Not lucky enough to have had great jobs
So we work hard
Put ourselves through night school
While taking care of family
Finally ...
Yes, yeah, whoopee
Did it !
Once again completed school
Another certificate added to the growing list of achievements.
More bills owed to uncle Sam
Going on numerous job interviews
No one's responding
Instead ...
All this knowledge stored in your head
Current jobs pays minimum wages
Those colleges attended; mounting
When you try to get ahead -
They hold on to their employments
As if,
It's Rocket science
Looking for younger, greener admits
Once AARP comes a knocking on
Your door
You know they don't want your
Expertise anymore
What's one to do
Still strong, healthy, seasoned
Educated, no strings to boot
Hopelessly stuck in a world of
"We will call you "
So at the tender age of fifty
Thoughts of starting your own business floats in your head
Right
Now, back to school
For another certificate
A chance to use that knowledge
Put bread on the table
Feel useful
Quality of life renewed.
JRap /2016
Sep 22, 2016
Sep 22, 2016 at 1:46 PM UTC
Hmm,
At first sight
I like ...
Our eyes met, we smiled
The feeling is mutual
I can tell
Didn't think it possible but
It happened
Just like that!
I'm hooked
My summer crush
I looked up
A hand came in view
It was him, looking straight in my eyes
I melted on the spot
Took his hand and squeezed
The cougar in me purred with delight
Ahh, it's real
Mon cheri - those eyes
Always roaming to find the other
Hoping no one notices
It's a mutual thing
To just be friends
Not to harm or offend
Feels good
We smile, secretively
Like old friends
Summer crush
Like ice
Sizzling hot
Hush ...
I don't even know his name
Copyright JRap /7/2016
Jul 8, 2016
Jul 8, 2016 at 1:52 PM UTC
It's like a really good movie
Makes you squeeze your pillow
Hide under the sheets
SCREAM and YELL at it !
Curse at some of the contents
Laugh out loud;
Tear up
Let out a sigh of relief when you finish reading ...
because
You forgot to breathe at the ******
Copyright 4/29/16
JRAP
May 27, 2016
May 27, 2016 at 12:37 PM UTC
Trinidad and Tobagonians
Haitians
Egyptians
Mexicans
English
Liechtensteins
Turkish
Italians
Norwegians
Germans
Portuguese
Omanians
Tromelin Islanders
Orcas Islanders
French
African-Americans
Maldives
Ecuadorians
Romanians
Ice Landers
Chinese
Argentinas
Feb 15, 2016
Feb 15, 2016 at 4:55 PM UTC
Struggling
To stay afloat
Amongst all the bills, needs
And wants of the family
Juggling
Two, three jobs
Still not enough
As the pays *****
Haggling
At the shops
Wal-Mart and gas
Wandering
If I will be called
For any interviews had
Borrowing
Cash like mad
To keep above
LORD !
Hope floats
As tax season draws near
Only to cover my tracks
And start this vicious
Life_cycle back
Feb 1, 2016
Feb 1, 2016 at 3:08 PM UTC
and I know he'll be the choice for me, at least I'll have a life
and he'll always get the best of me, the worst will never come
but at least I'll be beautiful and stay forever blessed
this i know, this i know
God told me, Don't worry bout nothing
God told me, Don't worry no more
we both know he cares for me insanely
he told me I'll never be alone oh - oh
I repent my sins when I'm with him
I love it, I love it
I repent my sins when I'm with him
I love it, I love it
I know he'll be the life of me, at least I'll be saved
and he'll always get the best of me, the worst will never come
all the misery was necessary, when you're deep in love with God
I know, yes I know, Yeah I know
Oct 5, 2015
Oct 5, 2015 at 5:47 PM UTC
Free your mind
fill your eyes and ears
with poetic flows on paper
Let it be music
to your soul
sing silently to its tunes
Float, weightless
as if bound by nothing...
into the universe and beyond
Be lulled,
into a state of mindless tranquility
where words rule
governed by the light of hopes and fears
Sep 28, 2015
Sep 28, 2015 at 11:30 AM UTC