jack-wilder0770
18/Genderqueer
I'll write about life until they take mine away. / / Jackson Rae "Jack" Wilder is the pen name of Ramon Carlos T. Castillo / / All writing material on this page is the sole intellectual property of / © 2015-2016 Ramon Carlos T. Castillo / All rights reserved
Loving someone
who is broken
is like being attracted to shiny shards
touching it will make you bleed
holding it close may hurt
but to those who have true intentions
even small pieces can come with a bright luster
that even broken glass
can shine light into this world.
Mar 10, 2018
Mar 10, 2018 at 10:55 AM UTC
your eyes are like the night sky
pitch black and endless
a pool of mystery so deep
the first time i stared at you
it left me wondering
how a world so vast and mysterious
can fit into a face so small
Feb 8, 2018
Feb 8, 2018 at 9:28 AM UTC
For a very long time;
I have wandered too far;
and maybe even wondered too long.
For a very long time;
I have been alone;
longing for a place I can call home.
Now that I met you;
and have spent time with you;
I feel that my life have become anew.
I have felt the warmth;
of a place I can call my own;
a person so familiar;
I’d thought of calling him home.
My dear, home is wherever you are;
so will you come with me?
And take me wherever you go?
Because I don't want to leave home.
I don't want to leave you.
Jul 26, 2017
Jul 26, 2017 at 1:38 PM UTC
I keep looking for an exit;
hoping and praying that all these confusions;
be straightened up and give me clarity.
I hate having to make up stories in my head;
that all the things you do for me;
you do for true love.
And all I ask;
is there an off switch for this?
because my heart's fed up;
with false hopes and broken promises.
Jul 16, 2017
Jul 16, 2017 at 10:11 PM UTC
— Jackson Rae Wilder
You can't leave home;
without getting a scratch on the knee.
You can't leave home;
without missing the warmth of your bed.
You can't leave home;
and not want to go back again one day.
Jun 22, 2017
Jun 22, 2017 at 8:57 AM UTC
To be detached from the land where my roots took origin.
To disconnect with the rest of the world.
To rekindle a flaming love;
that was once burning now turning into an ember.
To plead and kneel at the river;
talking to the water;
losing sanity at plain sight.
Remembering moments where dreams were once crushed and burnt.
Turned into ashes and scattered on the ground;
the mud where I was born and grown.
Like a tree once fruitful;
now dry, bare, and lifeless.
But one day six feet under from where I am;
will come a morning anew.
Like leaves and grass dripping with shining morning dew;
I will rise up.
Like a farmer with a green thumb;
Your hand, oh God, will reach for me.
Like a seed I will grow once again.
Detached not from You and Your safety.
But from the doubts and worries that once killed me.
Once again;
I will find You, my God;
My Saviour, my refuge.
May 28, 2017
May 28, 2017 at 10:53 PM UTC
Wait a minute,
Stop depriving me of rejection,
Enough of those false hopes you're giving me,
Just say it straight to my face,
Tell me we won't work out.
Just a second,
Help me get over the little things you do,
That makes me deeply in love with you,
How so kind and dense you are,
Killing me with care and affection.
Stalling me with love you can't give.
Give me a time out from all this heartbreak.
Apr 30, 2017
Apr 30, 2017 at 2:30 PM UTC
By: Jack Wilder (Ramon Carlos T. Castillo)
You are a gift you see,
A person made in the image of our Lord,
So you really should not care,
About another person's word.
Echoes of hate and petty,
Purely brought about by insecurity,
Things that will bring you down,
Only if you let it get to you.
So why should you be,
Afraid of what they have to say?
To the little stuff they give notice,
You yourself can't even see.
Dec 29, 2016
Dec 29, 2016 at 10:20 PM UTC
By: Jack Wilder (Ramon Carlos T. Castillo)
Tell him I said "hi",
I think it was a lie,
When I told myself,
I wouldn't fall for him.
Tell him I asked "why?",
We couldn't see what we could've become,
How it would've been all perfect,
But I forgot these were all just what ifs and would haves.
Tell him I wanted to go back,
Visit the past when were still just good friends,
I could've settled for just that,
But selfishness occured.
Tell him I asked "is it wrong?",
For me to fall in love with him?
That it was considered sin,
For me to look after someone with no conditions given?
Tell him this is goodbye,
I think it's best we part ways,
I'm done with being jealous and not being able to do anything,
That it breaks my heart to see him with someone.
But one last thing,
Ask him if I could just love him from afar,
Because seeing his smiles,
Heals the wounds he gave my heart.
Dec 29, 2016
Dec 29, 2016 at 10:15 PM UTC
By: Ramon Carlos T. Castillo (Jack Wilder)
We're in the days of our youth,
It's the perfect time to be alive,
Young and naive in the world of reality's mess,
So come with me and spread your arms wide,
Throw your problems and hang on tight,
We're about to break free and fly,
Going to disappear into the night,
Only being seen on the shades of traffic lights,
No worries, no tomorrow to bother about,
Just now and the both of us,
Gone with the wind fading into the darkness,
Forever, yes we'll be,
Forever, we'll be young.
Dec 29, 2016
Dec 29, 2016 at 11:56 AM UTC