it’s a hard pill to swallow
but he puts it on my tongue
and tells me to swallow
i gulp down a man
who isn’t you
and just like the other drugs—
he didn’t help me forget you
~
Oct 26, 2024
Oct 26, 2024 at 2:27 AM UTC
the knock on the door scared me
8pm
halloween night
i wasn’t expecting trick-or-treaters
at my apartment door
i texted you
“i don’t have candy—
what do i do??”
you encouraged me
begged me
to open the door
“it would be rude to ignore them, amanda”
it wasn’t a child
it wasn’t a skeleton or a ghost
it was you
and a bouquet of flowers
and a note
“i know this month has been hard for us
but i have a feeling
november will be the best to come”
november was the end
Oct 26, 2024
Oct 26, 2024 at 2:22 AM UTC
i’m not happy
but i practiced forging
its signature
until no one could tell
the difference
Mar 24, 2021
Mar 24, 2021 at 2:04 AM UTC
i would rather
not be thought of
than to be after-thought of
Jan 28, 2021
Jan 28, 2021 at 10:46 AM UTC
i put you first
you put me third
or is it fifth?
i don’t know,
i just know
it’s odd
Jan 13, 2021
Jan 13, 2021 at 12:44 AM UTC
they called me a hurricane
like i was a disaster
you saw my rain
and called me a force
Dec 29, 2020
Dec 29, 2020 at 1:27 AM UTC
i stopped asking
why you hurt me
and started asking
why i let you
Dec 29, 2020
Dec 29, 2020 at 1:24 AM UTC
if there was a word
other than
goodbye
that meant
choosing myself instead of you
i would have used it
Dec 28, 2020
Dec 28, 2020 at 12:06 AM UTC
i’ve always known
how to be
a fantasy
i didn’t know how
to have one
Dec 26, 2020
Dec 26, 2020 at 11:36 PM UTC