the half finished bottle of wine, the smell of your cigarettes in my hair, the sleeping couch
Dec 19, 2021
Dec 19, 2021 at 8:07 AM UTC
now I am 19 and
it's nothing special as what happens when you turn 18
I am still terrified of the future.
Sep 11, 2021
Sep 11, 2021 at 4:43 PM UTC
there's a lot of notebooks
full with words I still need to write.
Sep 11, 2021
Sep 11, 2021 at 4:33 PM UTC
I stare at the pictures of us
I still have them on my wall
May 18, 2021
May 18, 2021 at 7:13 PM UTC
maybe it’s the cigarette taste of your mouth
that got me addicted to your lips
May 18, 2021
May 18, 2021 at 7:12 PM UTC
it's been 21 days without you
but not one of them I didn't think about you
I wonder how long it will take
for this to become easier?
Apr 26, 2021
Apr 26, 2021 at 12:20 PM UTC
I did not write as much
not because I don't care or because
it did not have an impact on me
just because I've been escaping and avoiding
instead of writing and feeling.
Apr 20, 2021
Apr 20, 2021 at 5:55 PM UTC
after all the lovers
I realized
it was now my turn to love
me
Apr 3, 2021
Apr 3, 2021 at 7:20 PM UTC
oh for someone to be out there to love me the way I deserve
oh for it to be you
Apr 3, 2021
Apr 3, 2021 at 7:16 PM UTC
sometimes I have a hard time
perceiving myself;
the person who I actually am,
I am used to be filled with negative
and draining thoughts
but who am I next to that?
some days I forget that I'm actually
me
under a surface of anxiety and thoughts
under a layer of the weird way my brain functions
maybe I find her again,
I hope to meet her soon.
Feb 14, 2021
Feb 14, 2021 at 2:33 PM UTC